Mesomorphia @mesomorphia-blog - Tumblr Blog

When a girls #stuffedanimal has her #birthday than a #weirdmom makes a #partydress . #happybirthday #kokotherabbit 🤣

#kokotherabbit #weirdmom #partydress #happybirthday #stuffedanimal #birthday

A #birthday #cake for tomorrow. #spring

#morningrun. It feels like spring. First #run with #forefootstrike that I was pleased with. Found the #error and corrected myself. #6km #runninglikeaturtle #tomtomrunner3 #running #runnersofinstagram #cardio

#error #forefootstrike #running #6km #morningrun #runninglikeaturtle #cardio #run #runnersofinstagram #tomtomrunner3

Bravery is hard. I am tired of the fight! I have Dysthymia (a chronic depression) and SAD (Seasonal affective disorder). I am alway depressed and although I hide my feelings, even from me, spring and autumn are the worst. I write this, because nobody really wants to hear my thoughts. On how I feel like a failure. I am a size 4 (us) or 6 (uk) and I feel to fat. I sometimes feel so dirty and wrong. I never feel enough. Yet everyday I get up and fight this awful fight which will never end. Every day is a new day with the same demons, over and over again. Yet every day is a day of goodness. It is just that I am so tired right now. Tomorrow will be a better day. I can't beat it, but the day I will give up is when it freezes in hell. I just needed to vent. No one is listening.

#depression #depressing thoughts #bravery #fight #hopeful #vent