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[vinsh]

[methodicallyknockinghatsoff-blog]

want to be done with depression.

at this point, it's been half my life. 

[ladiesandgentlemen-the-beatles]

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derp

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On the inside though, I know there is more to be written. 

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time to grade or something?

I'm just not sure what motivated me to drink two diet cokes.

I think they were just there. 

I am awake now. I am restless. Like, truly restless.

Shit that happens when you let your caffeine tolerance wither away. 

[watchoutforintellect]

Out of the ash I rise with my red hair. And I eat men like air.

Sylvia Plath - From Lady Lazarus

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I wrote so many letters.

I didn't send any of them.

Unsent letters are cathartic, but disappointing.

But, they're better than getting no response.

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I am more than this.

I will get by. 

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I don't know what to wear. 

I don't want to get up.

I'll just have another granola day. 

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'Cause I do know what’s good for me- And I’ve done what I could for you But you’re not benefiting, and yet I’m sitting Singing again, sing, sing again

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I am so sad

In so many more ways than I knew possible

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I know ways to cope with suffering

But the suffering itself is a vicious cycle that'll be knocking itself

round and round

until death-

inevitable

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I think it would be wholly beautiful to find someone I could translate texts with and spend the rest of my days doing so. 

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working 60 hours a week is great. 

time to teach my little hellraisers.

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