Don't remove any of the masks...

[mfclassy]

I've been told say quiet about what I have on my mind because I talk to much. Between I say a lot and don't do anything about it because I have a fear of conflict... Fallout... Anything of the sort. I'll stay in the back of the line and just talk. If I end up getting involved in conflict, something might happen... But that's "all talk"

I've been told to open up because I don't talk much. That I need to do emotions and feelings. That I don't really like to vent or do anything because I'm too shy and don't like to speak... However, even when I do... I get ignore, over talked to... Or just plan yelled at because the things I say are "small stuff" So I tend to take care of things myself most of the time even if they ask to help or not.

Murdered family members, Raped, Abused, Mental trama, fears, Abandonment, lied to, robbed, and many many more... These things I dealt with. No one really took the time to sit down and wanted to talk to me about them all.

"I'm so sorry" .... Or "Okay" ... Or even these dots in-between that's all I get.

You'd be surprised that if I said "YES, I ACTUALLY WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF! I DON'T WANNA LIVE ANYMORE BECAUSE I DON'T DESERVE TO HAVE A FUCKING LIFE."

But... I'm not...

Behind my mask of a smile, isn't what people want to see. Including "Friends", fucking "family"... Or loved ones.

I'm not always happy... I haven't been happy for 8 years.. three years ago it was worst them before, two years ago it hit to the point where I knew what I had, last year was false hope... This year was a harsh reality..

I'm hoping next year.... I can smile again.

Till then I'm not Peanutbutter.... Never have.. And never will...

[mfclassy]

Help Me

For years now I've been hurt

I've been attacked

And wore my heart on my sleeve.

People feels the need to make that heart bleed.

When They attack it... I feel sick that my stomach starts to turn and. I wamt to throw up.

I m begging for help, Begging for a way out of my pain. But now a days, Others don't sunder stand and think about theirselves before anyone else.

I just want my life the way I want it... No problems, No issues... Just love, support and encouragement....

Instead I got people who say "I'll.be there for you" Bit don't care to come.

People who say "Yo I always love you." But instead they are on to the next and better person forgetting I exist.. or at least forget that My feelings Exist...

Normally people forget I am a human... And that I have feelings... However...

Sometimes I forget I have feelings... Because I put people in front of myself and Treat myself like dirt....

I'm feeling sleepy... I'm getting sleepy again...

Help me...

[mfclassy]

So I haven't been here for a long while because normally I have someone to vent to. I come to realize that the more time I have to myself, the more I sit down and think I'm not making a difference in anything I do. In fact let me be clear... I hate myself, I haven't been saying it for years. Last time I said it is when I was 15 and I though myself to say it in my own thoughts or in my visions where I have someone kill me off just so everyone can live a normal life... The little things I love, Family.. not all of them like me because I'm "Doing good for myself." Friends.. don't really have a real friend to talk to because they either wanna take control of what I do, or don't reach out to me when I'm at my down times. Have you ever been brother zoned by a "friend"... I don't need another brother... Losing one was enough. It still hurts... It really does. There's times I want a Car to hit me and put me in a c coma just so no one can come visit me or remember me while I lay in my hospital bed. I create so many different Characters because I can finally feel like I have someone to talk to... When I found my girlfriend... I did just that and I and I am keeping her in my life... I don't wanna lose anyone amazing... But when you're a fool, a loser, worthless scum like me... You tend to do stupid things. My life is low... And may people was right about that. Being homeless helped me see it too... I'm not perfect, I'm not a superhero.. I'm just a guy who wants a future and if someone takes that away from me.... I'll be either restarting my life or 6 Feet under.

If you're reading this.. no it's not about you at all.. It's been thoughts of my own build up for a number of years.

I'm right now struggling to keep my eyes open, and I struggle to be myself... I'm just struggling as a whole... I want to love... I want to be loved... I want to be myself... It's hard to even do that... There I go again.. almost passing out...

Not everyone wants me Round... Not many likes me... No one much puats I am.... ... I'm sleepy guys... Don't wake me up

[mfclassy]

[mfclassy]

Me at home.... Well it's not home because my heart isn't there! There's not my fucking home.

[junkmixart]

Theme song: Phoenix by Fall out boy

based off this post

[mfclassy]

So much love!

@alicevessaliusb-rabbit

[captainsmolboy-deactivated20180]

the drawings on this one are really shit, but I’m tired and I have school… please be nice I’m super self conscious lmao

so uh yeah, another BPD/my feelings comic. ok to reblog for anyone, whether you can relate or just find it pretty.

[anxietyproblem]

This blog is Dedicated to anyone suffering from Anxiety! Please Follow Us if You Can Relate: ANXIETYPROBLEMS

[mfclassy]

No wonder why I'm always sleeping

[hyena-puff]

“I need a hug, but also don’t touch me.”

[shyguyty-arts-deactivated201901]

throws blanket on you, BLANKET HUG

[hyena-puff]

You found a loophole.

[shyguyty-arts-deactivated201901]

I AM GOOD AT FINDING LOOPHOLES

i made a teacher angry as the code of conduct specified girls couldn’t wear spaghetti straps so i said “then if i boy came in wearing spaghetti strap would it be against dress code” and they just said “i have no idea” and with the most shocked face in the world they continued the lesson 

[mfclassy]

So much loops!

[shadeykris]

:D

[mfclassy]

[mfclassy]

Some families and some friends don't appreciate your existence till you're gone.

Then tells you "You can always come back."

.... Not a chance

[mfclassy]

@alicevessaliusb-rabbit

[eel-soup-moved-accounts]

OOF! OOF! how does FIFTEEN POINTS of DAMAGE TASTE?!

[rogha]

I’ve been searching for this for 20 minutes.

[mfclassy]

Abraca FUCK YOU!

[mfclassy]

Thanksgiving is suppose to be with the family you love and care about. Where you are most comfortable and who you love the most. I'm thankful for @alicevessaliusb-rabbit for being with me for a whole year and staying by my side. I'm thankful for @hyena-puff for Being my partner and one of my best friends here in Tumblr. I'm thankful for the headache @nearlyentertainment and @jaynator1 gives me on Discord. You guys makes me smile. I'm just thankful for everything that happening to me.... Besides where I live and the reason why it seems like I'm not okay... After this year, I know I'll go ghost and run away.

[taqit-deactivated20190415]

PIKACHU SPEAKING ENGLISH

This was what I was talking about by saying Pikachu was speaking English. lmao the audience was exactly like my theater's reaction. BY FAR THE MONST WEIRDEST THING POKEMON HAS EVER DONE. like omg the fuck hell na so weird and awkward like naaa boy!

Video Credits: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6YkGejS6IM

[ilovethetalkingclock]

WHOA

[rasec-wizzlbang-blog]

I beg your FUCKING pardon

[mfclassy]

I flipped the fuck out!!!!

[thebigpalooka]

Meihem/Junkmei comic

I’ve been meaning to draw this for a while now!  Finally got around to it <3

You rescue one little robot sidekick doodad and suddenly it’s all complicated.

[mfclassy]

I know you don't like Me but.. @alicevessaliusb-rabbit I'd like to say it's you and I