Miao Sun: Subconsciousness

妙: What's in your mind?

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新年马上就要到了... Another year...should I feel happy about myself that I have achieved all the "things" that I wanted, meaning degree, job, residence permit, relationship, friendship...

It is amazing to see how far have I gone, yet I am still feeling confused and a bit stuck. Am I being me, am I honest to myself or I just fulfilled the values and expectations from the society?

Do I have the gut to "give up" the "achievement", which to be honest, is not that spenlendid and just be who I am?

I think new year will be the chance for me to answer this question...hopefully the next year when I look back, I will be amazed by my change again.

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I still love drawing.

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Decoration for my friend.

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Something!

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Birthday gift to my love. Wish we can cuddle all the time.

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Things have never been so beautiful...

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Finally...I got some time again to draw.

My life has changed a lot.

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2020.12.16

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2020.12.08

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New life is coming.

I haven’t written for quite a while...cannot believe that I am still in Germany.

I have made it in Germany! I am graduating from my PhD, finally.

It has been four years, some good memories, some awful memories. I am moving forward.

It feels like a dream: the traveller wanted to stand up by her own, and she has overcome a lot of challenges. Then she has fallen in love, she is graduating, she is settleling down.

Everything happens so fast. It is overwhelming, it is exciting.

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2020.12.04