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[michanvalentine]

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My thoughts, analyses, crazy ideas, headcanons, etc:

Baldur's Gate 3: Part 1 - Here, Part 2 - Here.

Final Fantasy VII: Here

My fanfics (Baldur's Gate 3, Final Fantasy VII): Here Mostly focused on Vincent and Astarion. The pairings I'm currently working on are Astarion x Karlach and Vincent x Cid (though that one is a reeeally long story). Anyway, I really like Yuffentine, and I'm currently posting an old Sephiroth x Genesis story I wrote some time ago for a friend.

Ombra and Astarion’s Little Pills: Here Small, non-chronological snippets of daily life featuring my Durge and Spawn Astarion. Ongoing

Blooderella: A Bite Before Midnight: Here A completely absurd parody of Cinderella, featuring the poor, mistreated, and utterly ridiculed characters of Baldur's Gate. (Wyll x Astarion) Ongoing

My Karlach's Origin Run: Here My playthrough of The Witcher III: Here If you're expecting a serious chronicle, these are not the adventures for you! My commentary will be unfiltered, ironic, and completely ridiculous—basically whatever pops into my head while I'm playing. Lol. That said, I might occasionally pause for a deeper reflection or two. Ongoing

The photoshoot set of Astarion: Here

The photoshoot set of Karlach and Astarion: Here

The photoshoot set of Ombra and Astarion: Here Since I can't draw (or at least can't dedicate as much time to it as I’d like), I let off steam with photo mode to bring my favorite ships to life!

Astarion's Videos: Here

My drawings (Vincent and Astarion and Ombra): Here

About Ombra: Coming soon.

About me: Coming soon. Maybe.

I'm incredibly slow, I lose track sometimes, but with me you need loooooots and looooooots of patience. The fanfics are ongoing, even if they've been sitting still for a while — I have a full life and a demanding child, and sometimes I can only pop in for a moment before flying off again, to infinity and beyond. My husband says I love Vincent and Astarion more than him, lol, so please let me dedicate some time to him too now and then! xP If you'd like to message me or share material for me to reflect on or analyze, you're more than welcome — even if your thoughts differ from mine. Just know that I read everything, and I will reply. Slowly.

[xystarion]

[callealo]

[chthonic-vampire]

I saw a lot of Wyllstarion art this week and I wanted to make some of my own so *throws Wyllstarion at you.*

[notevenawellknownclown]

i do so love this game

[jiabisu]

[litsenn]

“Decades of hatred will have piled up inside of them. I can’t even begin to imagine" , Astarion says about the spawns in the cells.

And what I find interesting about it, is that this line perfectly encapsulates all his denial in this very moment.

He says it as if he wasn’t like them, as if he didn’t have decades of hatred inside of him. He can’t even begin to imagine how it feels? But, in truth, we know, by this point, that not only he can imagine, but that he feels exactly the same!

As I already explained here, he distances himself from the other spawns; as he did several times before.

He pretends they are not like him. He doesn't want to remember that he used to be just like them, and not so long ago: like his siblings, he wants to see them as if they were nothing, and he can't be as "pathetic" as them... right?"

It’s too hard for him to look at his past and to accept that he wasn’t so different from them. And it’s understandable.

There's another layer of shame here, and it's guilt. Because he was the tool who brought them here, whether he wanted it or not, he's involved in their damnation.

Wouldn't it be easier to make them disappear and pretend they never existed? So that he never has to look at his own shame again, shame of being like them, shame of being the one who doomed them.

Besides, Astarion also widens the gap between himself and the other spawns because he’s lured by the temptation of the ritual, and he knows they’ll be sacrificed if he ascends; so he’s desperate to find any excuse to justify their sacrifices, desperate to numb his guilt by pretending they are hopeless. As if saying: "We can't do anything for them, better make use of them through their destruction".

It’s easier to pretend they’re below him – nothing like him. To pretend there is nothing to expect from them, while he should be at the top. He needs to believe they have nothing in common to make their sacrifice easier to deal with.

But he’s a victim too. He used to be one of the “wretch’s servants” too for decades, and hatred fuels him too, just like it fuels them. As feral, as dangerous, as yearning for revenge.

And it blinds him: his fears, his guilt, his deep need to feel safe. The so called safety of the Ascension blinds him so much it keeps him from relating to the other spawns.

And yet, I tend to believe that, by belittling the other spawns, Astarion belittles himself (unconsciously or not); that’s why he thinks, in this very moment, that only the ritual can make him worthy, put him above them and rid him of his shame: let’s make them disappear so I don’t have to see them again, so I never have to witness my shame, so I never have to see those people who remind me of my own misery, of the slave I used to be.

He used to be one of those “scraps of misery”. But it’s too painful to acknowledge now, now that he’s finally free.

But he will acknowledge all this later on.

The words he says if he doesn’t ascend but if you kill the others spawns are relevant:

If you call the spawns "monsters", he makes it clear you could have said the same about him, and by doing that, he breaks down the wall he built between him and the other spawns: They are alike, there's no great difference between them.

He was just like them, their traumas and violence grow in the same gruesome cradle, and yet, he is not a "monster". Once free, he learned another way, made the best decisions for himself and others, and if he could do it, they could have done the same.

At this point, he makes it clear that all the things he said back in the cells were driven by fear and guilt, a token of his denial as he refused to be compared to them; he could perfectly imagine how it feels to be like them, he just refused to do it because it would have made him too vulnerable in this crucial moment.

[forkingbrusselsprout]

[xystarion]

“𝐼… 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑡 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑙𝑦𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝐶𝑎𝑧𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑑𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑠. 𝐼 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑜𝑛 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓. 𝐼 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑦 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑝𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎 𝑓𝑒𝑤… 𝑙𝑎𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑓-𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑-𝑎𝑑𝑑𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑙𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ.”

1392 𝑫𝑹. 𝑶𝒏𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝑪𝒂𝒛𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒓 𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒊𝒓𝒕. 𝑶𝒏𝒆 𝒉𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆, 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝑰 𝒅𝒐 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒆𝒕.

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘐’𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘐 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦

𝘐’𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐’𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺

I had to recreate a piece of his life before — his life as a spawn under Cazador. And of course with this song, because this song is so him.

[chaosbollt]

A3 | "Oh, didn't you hear? It burned. Every sin-stained furnishing, every last trace of Cazador… It all burned."

[panko-breadcrumb]

[@strifentineweek 2026, day 1]

"As you see fit".

In this case, we all know that Cloud's not one to back down from a challenge.

there was no direction with this. it's a mess. scribbles and smutty thoughts only.

[itsnevertrulyfinal]

[the-twink-tank]

some rough vent art of astarion going apeshit <3

[mirufiyu]

It would be so easy to go through everything we did, and come out the other end bitter and twisted. But they deserve happiness. We all do. Liberation The "Unascended" set for my photo essay, "Two Sides of a Coin" for the Baldur's Gate 3 Virtual Photography and Modding Zine. 🚫 Do not repost

[eruvande]

[hellspawn-enjoyer]

Smooch that pointy little face!😘

[xystarion]