[Joyce and Hopper have a big conversation in a really random place // Kind of dialogue heavy but itâs also super fluffy + Â young Jopper, so please save your tomato throwing till the end, itâs long Iâm sorry]
âDo you think weâll ever have one of those?â Hopper asked hesitantly.
âOne of what?â Joyce replied distractedly.
They were in Hawkinâs larger market looking for gift for the Powellâs baby showerâa party Hopper barely remembers agreeing to attend but here they were. And Joyce the ever practical one was looking for a practical gift, clothes and toys were fine (and there was some of those in their cart already), but if there was anything having two boys taught her was they would diapers, and lots of them.
She paused in her sizing of brands to look towards Hopper who turned his head in the direction of the smiling happy baby on the box.
Joyce followed his gaze, âYouâre kidding.â
Hopper shrugged. Heâd actually been thinking about this a lot lately.
Powell couldnât stop raving about becoming a new dad, and somehow that excitement had gotten Hopper to think.
He remembered what that feeling was like: going to the doctorâs appointments, hearing the heartbeat for the first timeânothing quite compared to that feelingâand feeling the baby kick against his palm. He was only slightly bitter he wasnât there for Jane sooner, if only to save her from Brenner before he had time to do any real damage.
âI canât have a baby now,â Joyce scoffed.
âIâm old,â she muttered.
She rolls her eyes at him.
âBesides, from what I hear, some women are having babies well into their thirties and forties these days.â
She finally settled on a box of diapers, and placed it the cart.
âYou need to cut back on the Oprah Show for a while, bub.â She laughed.
Hopper laughed with her, âI canât help it. Sheâs quite the ladyâJaneâs got me hooked on it, and Flo only keeps one channel on at the station. Itâs hard to tune her out sometimes.â Â
âYouâre old,â she bumps his shoulder with hers.
âYou got me there,â He muses, âIâm not in the same shape I was when I had Sara. Iâm not even in the same shape I was two years ago.â
âAre you trying to convince me?â
âAre you trying to talk me out of it?â
âIâm not sure,â Hopper concedes.
He had almost resolved himself to never bring this up. It was only part of him that still held on to this long forgotten dream, stemming from a conversation Joyce had tried to forget and swore to herself sheâd never think about again.
âWe already have 3 kids between us.â
âWhatâs one more?â He found himself saying,
Her breath catches in her throat. She wasnât really opposed to the idea but if she dwelled too much on the thought she could come up with a litney of reasons as to why they shouldnât have a baby. Â
âI smoke too much,â but that wasnât going to stop her from trying.
âYou know you donât have too,â He shook his head. âThere are two incomes.â
Joyce gave him a look, he knew how much she valued her economic freedom but she acquiesced to his point that she could stand to cut back on someone of her hours. And Donald was scared of her, so he wouldnât give her much of a problem there.
âJane is still adjusting,â She tried again more matter of factly now.
âYes,â he nodded in agreement. âBut sheâs doing a lot better and sheâs finally starting school in the Fall.â
âWe havenât had enough time,â She said feebly.
âYeah, I understand.â
He could have fought harder for this but he understood her reservations for not wanting to have another baby because his more rational side had them too, and he wasnât going to pressure her into it, and he was happy with the ones they already had.
âI didnât say no,â she adds quickly.
She repeats, âI didnât say no.â
Once upon a time, many many years ago, in their post-coital haze (before Nam, Lonnie, the complications of adulthood, and definitely the otherworldly monsters) they had talked about what their hypothetical child might look like. It was a rare night in which theyâd indulged in sappy hypotheticals, two things they werenât particularly for.
âWell any kid we have would be blonde,â Hop said as he lit a cigarette and took a drag before passing it to Joyce.
âPoor kid,â She laughed. âI hated being blonde.â
Hopper grunted, âI thought you were cute.â
âI hated being called cute.â She snuggled into him and he kissed her head.
âI think I kind of see your roots,â He said amusedly.
She gaped at him as she lazily punched his cheat, âYouâre such an asshole. You canât help yourself can you?â
Sighing contentedly she decided to play along with his little fantasy, âWell, itâd have your eyes.â
âA girl could get lost in those baby blues.â
Hopper howled, reaching over to put out the cigarette on the ashtray on the nightstand by her side. âWas that your best pickup line Horowitz?â
Joyce laughed with him, it was pretty bad.
âI donât know. Iâve never had to use one beforeâyouâre already in bed with me,â She said cheekily.
âBut I have to disagree,â He rolled them over so they were at eye level, âIt would have your eyes.â
Joyce smiled bashfully as Hopper kissed her lids, âYour wonderfully expressive doe-shaped brown eyes.â
âYour nose,â He went on and pecked it. âWhich is so much cuter than mine,â Joyce snorted.
âAnd definitely your mouth,â He pressed his lips to hers, and as the words settled into her head she chuckled against his mouth.
âWait,â Joyce tugged at the hair at the base of his neck, mirth in her eyes. âAre you talking about me or our baby? Because if it were anyone else, that would weird.â
Hopper face lit up quicker than sheâs ever seen and his smile blinded her, his teech making a rare apper appearence.
âI like the sound of that,â He kissed her again. âOur baby.â
âWhen did you become such a sap?â Joyce said as the broke apart for air.
Hopper shrugged nuzzling her neck.
âI wonât hold it against you.â
She was startled out of her reverie by a noise in the other aisle.
âYou okay?â Hop asked.
âWe can try,â She said.
âWhat?â He wasnât following.
âFor a baby,â She repeated. âWe can try.â
At her words his face lit up again, much like she remembered from that night, and his teeth blinded her once more.
Hopper hugged her tightly to chest, as if heâd just heard the news of a life time, picking her up off the ground. He didnât actually think she would agree but, he hoped.
âBut weâre not gonna get disappointed if it doesnât happen,â Her voice was muffled by his chest. It was a lie, and they both knew it.
Hopper felt himself nodd along, heâd go with it for her. He knew Joyce wanted to remain realistic, and it would hurt less if they were both honest in the possiblity that it might not happen for them. Still, Hopper couldnât help but feel a bit optimistic, and that was a fact he would keep to himself.
âAnd we wonât tell the kids,â She says when he puts her down. âUnless thereâs something to tell.â