Today is my happy day, we’ll see each other after 7 months. I am beyond happy kasi love talaga ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko. And our 1st anniversary is getting near.
I have the best-ever parents, relatives, loved-ones, SO, and friends. Pero something feels like empty, I am so sad.
I know life has been testing me these days. I have been challenged almost everyday. Stress sa work, stress sa requirements, stress in everything.
Kumbaga my home is my safe space pero pag ung isip ko occupied ng kailangan ko icomply sa work at sa school, dun na nagsisimula gumuho ung positivity ko.
I know all of these shall pass pero sa ngayon ambigat. I was not the old me anymore na kada problema, madadapa. But instead, I smile and move forward kahit me burden pa sa puso ko.
I lifted it all to God but I am still haunted by the fact na bakit ganto bakit ganyan pano ka na ano na? All of these things are bombarding me as if I have a deadline.
I always crave for success. You can never feel it unless you’re in the person’s situation. I remained and kept myself silent kasi alam ko mahirap na rin ung everyday ka iiyak and mammroblema. What I do is I always tend to forget the things that bothers me and then after that it will still again hit me on rockbottom.
I want to cry but tears are not falling anymore maybe because it won’t suffice the hurt and the pain I am feeling.
Gusto ko lang naman makapagtrabaho so that I can give back to my parents but why is this happening?
I know in my heart God has a reason and there is something better in store for me. Pero di rin mawala sa isip ko kung bakit ba lagi ako nagagapi sa laban ko.
Nakakapagod kung tutuusin pero alam ko me plano ang Diyos sa kabila ng lahat ng ito.
Lord I pray for your guidance and strength. Napapagod na po ako sobra, sukung-suko na po ako.
Lahat ng paraan at paghahanap ginagawa ko na po Lord para lang may nakaantay na po na pagkakataon for me.
Sana Lord umayon po sakin/samin ang panahon.