it’s very difficult when you work your hardest at anything you attempt or even make an elegant effort at and it goes unappreciated, i don’t mean that at all in the slightest form of external validation i mean it in the sincerest event from it coming from within.
speaking your truth and still although you did there still lingers a big crux or piece in yourself that resents you for not even doing so but just being in itself, an immeasurable agony waiting in queue for you to give into what it’s finally saying dotes an everlasting sentence you get caught up in with time progressing forward.
I’ve been tested in numerous situations where my faith, loyalty, and show of will shined through and still it befalls to zero man im really tired of this emotional rollercoaster and i just gotta dip from all of this and all of these feelings i am sorry in advance that whoever happens to find this eem ends up reading this bc life is just life real shit.