Coping

TW height:4’11 Cw:115lbs Gw:100lbs Ugw:95lbs

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My friend shoved food in my mouth as a joke and I spit it out at her…

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Working with food is such a weird trigger, all I do is make people food, calculate their calories, and judge what they eat. Which I feel bad about.

But the job does keep me busy and on my feet so I don’t have to worry about eating and exercising.

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Sugar free gum is the official food of Ed bitches.

It satisfies my hunger and it cures my ungodly breath that came from malnutrition and purging

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The fuck you mean I gotta eat?

No bitch all I do is

🌿Photosynthesise ☀️

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I really enjoy tattoo thinspo because I love tattoos and I’m also fucked up. But also because when people see me looking at it they usually think I’m just admiring the persons tattoos and not the persons rib cage 🦴

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Here’s my grocery list of all the stuff I feel comfortable eating. Any suggestions on things I should try?

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Not mine

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Yellow thinspo cause it’s my favorite color

(Not mine)

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So I’ve started just telling everyone that my fear foods make me feel sick, which is how I got away with going vegetarian.

Meat. Makes me feel sick

Pasta. Makes me feel sick

Bread, cheese, etc. sick

It’s true to some degree because I go so long without eating these things and my stomach can’t digest them properly or whatever, but then people leave me alone about avoiding these types of foods.

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Weird trigger but,

My sister constantly refers to one of our dogs as anorexic and the other as fat.

(1. Mental illnesses are not an adjective)

Then she refers to our other dogs as fat all the time and when I said “she’s still pretty though” she responds that you can’t be pretty if you’re fat.

(2. I know she thinks she’s being playful or smth but what the fuck??)

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Does anyone else find it therapeutic to plan out the diet you would have if you were like...you know... healthy?????

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One of my all time favorite foods has always been ice cream and it was a big trigger for binges. Recently I’ve started replacing this by just freezing low-fat yogurt as it is pretty much the same thing but lower calories

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Pros and cons of taking a weightlifting class

Pro:

Burns hella calories

Tones up all the flabby parts of the bodies

I use the locker room/clothes as inspo to not eat

I genuinely like it

Cons:

Increases appetite

Muscle weighs more than fat

I have to change in front of people

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Not mine, but good for them.

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While filling out my accounts description “CW” auto-corrected as “cow” so you know... tumblr’s obviously on my side.