Untitled

[greenteaandchill-deactivated202]

I thought I was fat 3 years ago but if 16 year old me could see me now... I can’t believe ive i let it get this bad...

[minimal110]

So I had a mini breakdown and confessed my bulimia to my doctor. She was wonderful and understanding she got me a prescription and set up with a therapist..... Dudes the worst like he knows nothing and it's not worth my time. Now that I have my appitite under control it is time to get skinii

[minimal110]

Food log again( because it kept me from snacking)

Breakfast: coffee and two small orange things- 112

Lunch: leftovers of my rice bowl: 176

Dinner: more rice bowl 176.... Purged

Snack: some dope ass cheese I got at work today with crackers ~200

Total 576 Bec I purged 😰

[minimal110]

Food log cuz why not:

Breakfast: granny Smith apple 🍎- 119

Lunch: blueberries and strawberries 🍓(was going to have more but I "forgot my wallet" at home)-71

Dinner: 1 1/2 cup rice with 1/2 cup beans and some steamed veg🍚🍚🥕🥦🥕.- 364

Day total: in- 696 out- 200 total-- 496

[minimal110]

Update

I've decided to put off fasting for a while it triggers too many binges. So I'm focusing on whole non processed food and sticking to vegatarian. If I can do that without bingeing in April I may try fasting again still keeping my goal of 800 or less.

[minimal110]

I'm literally panicked at the thought of wedding dress shopping. I've lost and put on the same 30lbs the last 12 months and I can't tell a difference between. I do know I'm almost back to my sw. I literally don't know what I look like. I know I wear a us 18/20 in real clothes so God knows what that is in bridal but I can't deal with the idea of standing in a fitting room with a stranger seeing my body. I'm convinced they will all look horrible on me and I just shouldn't even get married..... How much more weight can I lose come may when I'm supposed to shop??

[minimal110]

I'm full and I hate it.

[minimal110]

Wishful thinking

I wish I could drown food in hot sauce to make it inedible but I fucking love hot sauce and it makes me want food more

[minimal110]

Benefits of being with a baby every day:

There's no time to eat. My younger brother has a baby and they basically pawn him off on my family to watch all the time, at leas 3-4 days/nights a week I don't work during the day so I watch him while my mother works. It's great restriction because I'm so busy with him. He's an angel and I love him , I just worry his parents will abandon him. He deserves the world, not this fucked up family.

[minimal110]

I did it

I'm home from the torturous vacation to my grandparents where there was no scale and tons of food but I managed to lose 7 lbs in the 5 days I was gone. How amazing!

[minimal110]

Idk why but

Into the unknown from frozen 2 is a big mood about how I feel about my Ed.

[lazychanges]

Reblog if you’re looking for an Ana buddy and you:

🌿are pescatarian/vegetarian

🌿18+

🌿want someone to talk food plans/tips and strategies with

🌿to share inspiration/ motivate one another positively

🌿healthy/overweight BMI

🌿it’s ok to DM you

[babyfaery666]

Ok so I’m 25 and no hate to all the baby teens on here I just feel sooo old and weird using this app sometimes bc last time I used it I was way younger. If you’re over 20 can u like or reblog this and ill follow u!!

[minimal110]

Day 1 of vacation

Ate a ton yesterday, so I'm up to 274.... a-fucking-gain can't weigh again till next Saturday. In the car most of the day, we won't be there till like 6pm and it's 2:30 now. I wasn't fully awake when we left so I was a dumb bitch and ate a breakfast sandwich that was apparently like 600 Cal's so I can't eat dinner when we get there. Everyone is stuffing themselves with chips and candy while we drive I'm just sipping Coke zero. Give me strength to not be a pig on this vacation.

[minimal110]

Vacation

Tomorrow my family is going out of town for the new year, I will not be able to weigh for probably a week so im pretty stressed about that but I'm going to try my hardest to eat as little as possible which should be easy we typically only eat one meal a day at my grandparents with tons of snacking so if I avoid snacks and eat small portions of dinner then I should hopefully surprise myself when we return.

[minimal110]

1100 binge

Please kill me. This is before any festivities tomorrow. At least in a crowded house I'll be able to not eat without anyone noticing

[minimal110]

I've done it

I've finally undone the damage of my 4 day binge.... Just in time for Christmas FML🤦