night_on_earth

parker, 27, they/them

[clownosaurus-deactivated2025061]

staying strong

[papayajuan2019]

emotional neglect didnt even affect me that much. it was the being born inherently without value that did most of the work

[junglejim4322]

Also re: the fact it’s normal to have a period of time where you have no friends: sometimes this means no “real” friends aka still have people you know from work, school, family, neighbors, acquaintances, etc etc you interact with but are not close with and couldn’t go to for anything on any deeper level. But sometimes it actually does mean no friends. No social interaction, nobody to call, no other option, don’t talk to anyone for days, don’t know who would find out if you died. The thing is there really is coming back from both of those situations ofc it takes a good deal of work and can feel like pulling teeth to put yourself out there but god it pays off. You can always start over from scratch, and it’s true most people are just as lonely as you are

[velocitations]

when the relatable fictional character commits suicide

[kosmogrl]

you might be awkward but I can be awkward in a far deeper and more humiliating way than you ever will

[magneatio]

if i were fifteen i would do everything wrong again in a slightly different way

[bigandretired-deactivated202501]

[100493503004422]

everything just really comes down to how I wasn't a person for most of my life. by which I mean I did not consider myself a person. it made such a profound impact on the way I navigated the world & yet standing on the other side of it I could hardly explain it to you

[cocainaenvenenada]

[prohaloplayer-deactivated202601]

okay

[sovietnam]

[stroebe2]

[dct239394cvvd098dffgggp]

dropped out of kill myself university to go find a fishing boat crewman apprenticeship cause noose 101 made me realise knot tying comes natural to me

[minotaurblood]

it's not that i would feel all that much about the world ending it can for all i care it barely has anything to do with me, it's the constant feeling like somehow somewhere it is ending, now, within the next five minutes which is far more real and present than any reaction i may or may not have in the event that it actually takes place for realsies

[minotaurblood]

was wondering why it feels like the world is ending right in front of my eyes, with the intensity of the feeling increasing each day even after my last uni project, which typically means less stress. finally realized the semester ending means that one of the two distractions from the unending horrors is suddenly just gone (along with the structure and routine it brings). and the other distraction hasn't had its usual effect lately either, not sure why exactly. i feel very exposed and i think it shows at times

[midnightportals]

[papayajuan2019]

getting over things is nonlinear. but you already knew that