Ya, it gets the most searches for it on International Women's Day, not because of sexist men or anything, just because like you they didn't know it exists because it rarely gets brought up.
notes: this is a part two of WAITING FOR YOU, so this can be read as a stand alone but everything makes more sense after reading part one. nothing else to say! i tried hard on this and i enjoyed writing it! hope you enjoy reading :) also can still be read if you arenāt a fan of the viking part, he just is referred to as chief, you as my lady and heās got servants n maids!
ākatsuki! move your hand!ā
āstop fuckinā wigglingā woman, gonna make me drop you,ā he warns, carrying your naked body against his chest and stomping through the grass with an arm across your ass. youāre holding onto him like your life depends on it and so none of his servants end up getting a view of your tits.
itās pitch black outside, with hoots from owls and neighs from the horses coming from afar. the only light out is coming from the main house which leads bakugouās way.Ā
āyou wouldnāt drop me. youāre too big and strong for that,ā you coo in his ear and even youāre shocked at how quickly you both went from enemies to flirtation. your crushes on each other are way too big for your bodies. you guess there really is a thin line between love and hate.
also, itās true, he wouldnāt drop you but you appealing to his ego makes him chuckle. bakugou adores how you feel in his arms, giggling and alive, smushing your body against his and putting all your trust in him.
āiām beginning to think you only chose to marry me for my body, princess,ā he smirks, bouncing up the steps to the back entrance of your shared home.
āwellā¦,ā you purposely pause and another chuckle booms out of him. he lands a pinch at your thigh and you pull the hair at the nape of his neck.
ādonāt pull my hair, you child,ā
āyou pinched meā,ā
your voice halts when bakugou steps into your new home, the back entrance plopping you both in the kitchen where about five maids and servants clean up and talk.
the head maid, sophie, youāve always liked her, speaks up first.Ā
āevening chief, my lady,ā she nods at you both, completely unphased. the awkwardness of it all makes laughter almost bubble out of you. especially the shocked dropped jaws of the servants near the back of the room.
bakugou nods back at sophie, voice blunt and bored, āsophie.ā
ādo either of you want dinner sent to your rooms? or possibly⦠clean clothes?ā she tries, careful to not overstep as bakugou begins to walk away.
you can still see her from over bakugouās shoulder and you canāt stop your smile from blossoming.
bakugouās about to bite back but you speak before he can, āno thank you sophie! weāre okay at the moment⦠or are you hungry?ā you ask bakugou.
he rumbles, impatient to get going, āiām hungry for somethinā.ā
you gasp, your hand sneaking into his hair at the nape of his neck, āyeah, no thanks sophie. goodnight!ā
then bakugou is off stomping towards your shared quarters.
ādid you see their faces?ā you chuckle, and bakugou huffs unimpressed, āi bet you theyāre talking about us down there.ā
āgonna give them enough talk for weeks,ā he replies.
bakugou clears his throat abruptly, opting to stand up straighter rather than his usual slouch. then he crosses his arms across his chest. he hope you donāt notice him tensing. heās acting stupid right now.
āso iāll, uh, see you tomorrow? for breakfast? iāll ask them to make somethinā different.ā he rambles and he wants to sigh at how pretty you look, drag you down the hall and kiss down your body before you fall asleep in his arms.
youāre biting down on your lip, only a lit candle by your door lighting up your features. it makes you golden, the sweet curve of your breasts, your smooth skin and the loose bits of your hair. you look like a mess in the most endearing way possible, all because of him.
to you, your brain feels like a broken record every time you look at this man. trying to tuck the animalistic chants of pounce on him, bite him, hang on and never let go, to the back of your head and instead focusing on the softer aspects of katsuki. something you donāt think many people have done before you.
this is nervousness on bakugou katsuki, chief of the village and leader of the strongest army. the shuffling on his feet. the shifting from crossing his arms to holding his arms. the way his pupils bounce like a ping pong ball to your eyes and then the dancing flame beside you. heās adorable⦠always so sexy. the way heās looking over you in the darkness with need, his posture intimidating to anyone else and his raw nakedness only makes your stomach burn with desire.
āokay, iāll see you at breakfast,ā you nod, leaning back on your door behind you, rolling your lips in.
bakugou blinks as if heās trying to clear his thoughts, then with all the control possible, he steps away from you.
āokay goodnight.ā he replies but neither of you make any moves to leave.
you just stand there and so does he, simmering into a comfortable silence. a smile sneaks up on your face and bakugou laughs through his nose.
he shakes his head, closing his eyes for a second before opening them, āfuck, okay, iām leavinā. donāt be late or iāll drag you out of bed.ā
bakugou, now with all the strength in his body, begins to walk away from you.
your flicker down to watch his tight ass and the words come out before you can stop them, ākatsuki, havenāt you forgotten something?ā
he turns with wide eyes. he wants you to ask him, to say it. heās quick to walk back to you and you bite back a laugh.
āwhat?ā
āa goodnight kiss, chief.ā you reach up on your tiptoes with a tilt to your head.
not what he wanted specifically but he wonāt say no.
ācalling me that will get you in trouble, princess.ā
āwhy? everyone calls you that.ā
he slides a hand to your lower back, then over your ass before yanking you into his chest. itās intimate so quickly, his touch soothing the burning under your skin. heās everything you want, the only person you need.Ā
bakugou speaks lowly in your ear, āwe both know you donāt mean it in the same way.ā
you shrug, blissfully sighing the feeling of your nipples against his bare chest, ākiss me, husband?ā
katsuki happily indulges in you like tomorrow isnāt promised. you open your mouth eagerly, leaving no space for him to peck your lips like he tried earlier. bakugou licks inside your mouth like heās trying to consume you, drink up enough of you to last him until breakfast. you moan into his mouth and the sound serves as a green light to push you against the door. his thigh shoves between your legs and you fight the instinct to grind against him.
bakugou pulls away out of breath, one of his arms coming to rest above your head. he looms over you and your lips are dragging back to his. he smells like nature, like fresh grass and the lavender that falls into the lake. youāre sure you smell the same.
āif you want somethinā from me, ask for it, princess.ā he breathes, deep and growly. you donāt miss katsukiās very visible arousal and yours is hard to fight. you keep your hands around his neck so you donāt end up repeating earlier.
ātake me to your room, katsuki,ā you tug him down to your face, initiating a kiss for the first time. your lips land on his in a fiery rush and he meets you with the same passion. youāre biting on his bottom lip, clawing at his skin to pull him even closer as he tilts his head to suck on your tongue. youāre not sure if you can ever get enough of him now youāve got a taste and youāre happy to know heāll always come back to sedate you.
bakugou growls against your lips, his cock twitching against your stomach. your sigh becomes a whine for more.
āi shouldāve never waited so long to touch you,ā and his voice opens a new door of hunger for this man as he presses his nose into your cheek.
āwhy didnāt you just take me there at the beginning!?ā you bite and bakugou is quick you manhandle you around, pushing you by the hips down the corridor to his room at the end of the hallway.
āi like seeinā you ask me, so cute and polite. unlike when youāre tryinā to snap at me, like a needy brat,ā you slap his chest behind you but heās so thickly skinned he barely feels it. you tilt your head up and the smile thatās across his lips is sublime. sharp white teeth that bruised your neck earlier with pink lips that are now yours to kiss.Ā
everything happens in a blink of an eye, shuffling down the hallway, the lust flitting through your body, even the feeling of his hands roaming your skin is a boost of energy. his feet brush against yours and heās hard as a pole against your ass. āi am not a needy brat!ā
his laugh rumbles down your ear as he leans over you to open his bedroom door. you fixate on how his fingers wrap around the doorknob, how he presses everything against you.
āi havenāt been able to keep my eyes off you since i first saw you. all this arguinā, actinā like youāre better than me, gettinā naked for me⦠youāre needy for something, arenāt you?ā bakugou shoves you in his bedroom and youāre quick to be pressed against his door. itās too dark to see anything in his room, minus the candle light by his bed. āyou want something only i can give you.ā
āand whatās that?ā you arch your hips towards him, not disguising how youāre dying to meet him. a carnal rush floods you, ready to claw his skin to drag him as close as possible.Ā
bakugouās laugh is cocky, like the answer to your question is self explanatory. a lamplight with a small flame light his ruby red eyes, turning them into molten lava. his hands rest on the door beside your head and he leans into you, giving you what you want. your whine is sweet when his cock rubs against your clit and you waste no time, grabbing him in your hand to fit between your thighs. heās thick, the girth you only felt in your hands before, even bigger between your legs.Ā
a harsh grunt comes from bakugou at your touch, adoring how your hands now roam his body. fingertips on his spine, his ass, arms and chest. he becomes all breathy, overwhelmed, ripples of muscle shaking every time he exhales. you do this to him, breaking him down until heās just a lump of nerves.Ā
āactually, i think youāre the needy one, katsuki,āĀ
bakugou grips your thigh in his large palm tightly, yanking up your leg so your knee is pressed to your chest. you yelp when he manoeuvres you though it all turns into whimpers as he grinds his cock between your legs, hitting your clit perfectly. you knock your head back on the door behind you and bakugou grinds down on his teeth, hips thrusting uncontrolled.
āyou fuckinā drive me insane. youāre everywhere, canāt pay attention to shit anymore,ā one hand sneaks up your chest to squeeze your breast and a moan falls from your lips.Ā
your heart pounds with the admission, from his touches, āfuck me, katsuki but you gotta pull out. d-donāt wantā¦ā
āyeah, yeah canāt have you knocked up for the wedding,ā he buts in, holding his cock in his fist and guiding it to the space between your legs.
āand i thought you wanted to save sex for after the wedding,ā you wrap your arms tight around his neck, licking across his ear in a frenzy. bakugou rumbles in your arms and as soon as he meets your hole, itās like air is sucked from the room.
āoh fuck, princess.ā
you inhale deeply, feeling pleasure scorch through your body with a bite of pain. heās massive, stretching you wide and heās moving so slow. grinding up into you inch by inch as if heās trying not to hurt you. you can tell itās taking all his control though you want nothing more for him to be rough with you. to really fuck you like a chief would, like your husband would.
bakugouās reached a whole other plane of existence. this is what it means to have feelings for the person you have sex with, to feel like youāre learning more about the other by being inside them. his breath is hot on your skin, pupils searching yours to see if youāre feeling the same.Ā
the need is palpable in the air, for more, for everything. you curl your hand over the back of his neck, dragging his lips to yours.Ā
āharder, fuck me harder, chief,ā you demand and bakugou replies by pressing his lips to yours and doing what you say.
heās all over you, starting a rhythm that would have your head rolling if he wasnāt kissing you so hard. youāre complete pleasure, hands raking through his hair, over his shoulders. his cock kisses your softest parts, again and again and again, so much of him inside of you that your breath halts in your throat.
āhow is fuckinā everythinā about you soā¦,ā a wet kiss lands on your jaw, then another with a swift flick of his hips making you whine, āso perfect.ā
thereās no logical thought in bakugouās head as he slides his hands under your ass and immediately your legs reach around his waist. itās uncoordinated with the rest of the world but together, youāre in unison as your lips find each others again, sucking desperately in order to find out more. he holds all your weight effortlessly in his hands, carrying you to press against the curtains on the other side of the room.Ā
he swears heās trying to get to the bed but youāre so tight, so wet around him it feels heavenly. youāre against the curtains now, and with every deep thrust he gives, you fall further and further away from the realities of life, especially the sound of ripping from above you.
āoh god,ā your voice shakes, meeting him with every thrust and you think your pleasure is capped until he begins to thumb at your clit. rubbing slow circles at a completely different speed to his cock. āyouāre too big.ā
bakugouās chuckle vibrates down your eardrum and you chase his lips for another connection, āyou know how to boost my ego, huh?ā
to his delight, you drawl in a tone so sweet, āitās true. so big.ā
thereās no chance to reply when with reflexes faster than light, bakugouās hand cradles your head to his chest and rushes you over to his bed, right before his curtains crash to the ground.
bakugou pays no mind to it, his hand drifting back to your clit and he coats your neck in his teeth marks. itās so much easier to fuck you on his bed, your hair circling you, his knee sinking into his mattress and pulling one of his pillows to stuff under your lower back.
ādid we just?ā you can barely pay attention with how your eyes flutter shut at every kiss though itās hard to ignore the massive uncovered window before you, showing the midnight sky ahead. youāre lucky this area of his house is private so nobody would be able to see what youāre doing.
your back arches, heat coiling tight in your stomach as his thumb speeds up against your clit. itās a lot, āyou made me break and rip the curtains, princess.ā
ām-me? youāre the animal, throwing me ah-around!ā you manage, though thereās no bite behind your words, instead youāre sinking your fingers into his hair, keeping his face close above yours.
āyou love it, princess.ā
katsuki is beautiful, rough edges, scars and marks against your softer curves and skin. your thumbs smooth against his eyebrows and you come to an understanding looking into his carmine eyes.Ā
he flicks his thumb, and you gasp, mouth wide, āiām gonna, iām gonna cā,ā
āi know, i know,ā he soothes, squeezing your thigh, āiāve got you.ā
you never finish your sentence as shudders shake your body. your legs tighten around his waist when the starlight pleasure flushes your entire body, lighting you up from the inside. you think youāre scratching his back with your nails though the only words you catch him saying are rough mumbles of, ābeautiful, so fuckinā beautiful,ā before he gets hit with the same pleasure.Ā
bakugou keeps his forearm by your head, careful to not crush you with his weight. he pulls out of you like he promised, white spluttering over your stomach and breasts. he tugs at his cock thrice with a growl and clenched eyes, the sweet release seeping out of his limbs and swapping with exhaustion.
you tire him, rendering undone like nothing has ever done before. he's careful to fall on the bed beside you, coming back to earth by yanking you into his chest for a cuddle.
āso that was good,ā you muffle against his chest, reaching up to kiss his cheek.
bakugou doesnāt think heās laughed so much in a single day, or even smiled. a chuckle erupts from him, pushing loose strands of hair off his face and looking over at you, already looking at him.
āgood? donāt lie to me, honey.ā
you run your finger along his collarbones, āyouāre right, it was okay.ā
bakugou rolls his eyes, grasping your chin in his hand and waving your head around. your giggles fill the room and bakugou feels his chest expand with fresh air.Ā
Ā āwhy are you still tryinā to fuck with me?ā heās breathless. not from the sex, just from how happiness looks on you.
you pull his hand from your chin with barely any resistance, curling his fingers with your hand and laying his fist to your chest.
āitās fun,ā you grin and youāre so kissable above him that he finds himself pouting his lips just so that you can kiss him again. you whisper, āi loved it.ā
āyeah?ā he flicks his eyes down to the drying release on your stomach, āiāll ask for them to boil some water. iāll clean you up.ā
āor we could go again?ā you rub your thigh against his, your hand moving to cradle the side of his head. āme on top this time?ā
bakugou doesnāt know how to say no to you, maybe he could have forced one last week but not now with the moonlight lighting up from behind you, making you glow like an angel. he also just doesnāt want to say no. he wants you again, he doesnāt think heāll ever not.
you look almost shy, biting down on your lip though your need for him is so strong, youāre not afraid to ask.
ādonāt be goinā shy on me, princess,ā he hums, āiāll give you anythinā.ā
your eyebrows rise, āyouād let me be on top?ā
ācourse i would. why wouldnāt i?ā
you shrug, getting on your knees to straddle his waist, āyou donāt seem the type to be okay with being submissive.ā
his hands rest on your thighs when you settle and you run your hands up the hard curves of his chest, āyou being on top doesnāt mean iām gonna be submissive below you. iām still gonna fuck you.ā
his blunt words have the coil in your stomach tighten all over again, warming up and spreading like a forest fire. you reach behind you to grasp at his half hard cock, holding him tightly. he shows no reaction minus the twitch in your palm.
āi could be submissive for you, let you have your way with me. talk how youād like,ā he slides a hand up to grasp at your breast, pinching your perked nipple between two fingertips, ānot today though.ā
youāre like a mewling cat, curling into his palm for more of his touch. you lift your hips, slowly sinking onto his cock and getting used to the stretch of him at a whole new angle.
āoh god,ā you screech unexpectedly, rolling in the fact you feel him growing inside you, getting harder by the second.
ākatsuki. i thought you didnāt wanna see me as a deity,ā he chuckles amused before thrusting upwards and having you fall forward, hands bracing on his chest.
ākatsuki!ā
āshit, youāre the prettiest thing. all for me. gonna get me addicted,ā he blurts every thought on his mind, the feeling of your warmth completely sheathing him overwhelming.
you already look fucked out your mind, barely remembering how you wanted to fuck him. you lift your hips and begin bouncing on his cock, flinging your head back and whining when every touch touches your spot without fail.
āright there, honey?ā and he sounds so sickly sweet, honey down your throat as he drags you down by the back of your neck to kiss him. itās messy and wet, his tongue out to lick across yours.
āi canāt be a good, fuck, a good husband if you donāt talk to me.āĀ
āfeels so good, katsuki,ā you say, the squelching sound of your wetness louder than your voice, āi think iām gonna die.ā
another laugh chases through him, his hands dipping down to squeeze your ass, āyouāre not dying on me, honey.ā
sex with bakugou is unlike anything youāve ever felt. so completely devastating in the most beautiful way. you moan like a whore when he roughly squeezes your asscheeks and your eyes clench shut when a finger, lubricated in your own wetness, rubs circles against your asshole.
katsuki pays attention, watching every reaction to be sure you wonāt be able to even joke saying that sex is okay with him.Ā
āyou like when i touch your ass, princess?ā your head is stuffed in his neck, wailing loud enough heās sure the maids and servants must be able to hear, āmy wife is a dirty girl.ā
āi-iām not,ā you murmur, unsure to correct him on the wife or dirty part.
he keeps at the circles with his finger, rutting his hips up every time you try to fuck back into him. heās stronger, movements filled with so much more power, that your body shakes. youāre so close to bursting.Ā
bakugou can tell youāre close, āsay you are and iāll let you come.ā
you try to lift up, āyouāre so annoying.ā
he grins, punctuating his comment was a thrust, ācāmon.ā
you bite down on your lip, the burning hot need killing you.
itās a whisper, āiām a dirty girl.ā
āthatās not what i want.ā he presses on your ass and you gasp. so close.
āiām your dirty wife,ā youāre unable to bite at him, instead your teeth find the meat of his shoulder as your orgasm rushes through you with ocean size waves.
bakugou stuffs an inch of his finger in your ass, and you burst, clenching around his cock so tight, heās calling out to whatever god is listening so he doesnāt come inside you.
the pleasure feels unreal. rattling down to your fingertips, clearing your head like youāre walking through clouds. there are no thoughts but this beautiful man below you.Ā
when youāre finished, body limp on his, heās quick to roll you off him, coming all over his chest.Ā
youāre all sweaty and sticky, not even bothering to lay back in his arms though he canāt help but find your hand and kiss it softly.
āi want you with me all day tomorrow.ā
ākatsukiā,ā you start but he continues.
āi wanna feed you the best shit i can get, have you meet daisy properly, meet my friends, properly take you into the village. iāll get the key for the library too,ā he breathes in a rush. he rolls his head to face you, āi meant what i said, iām gonna be the best for you.ā
your smile is sleepy, āi donāt doubt it but i think most of tomorrow might be in bed.ā
his eyes shine, āyouāre insatiable. my cock is that good?ā
you push his face with your fingers, āno stupid, iām probably going to ache tomorrow.ā
his adoration for you doesnāt leave, āitās the same question, princess. my cock is that good?ā
you huff though you donāt fight your smile.
āiāll look after you. iāll get some hot water to clean us up for now and we can bathe in the morning.ā
bakugou sits up, raking his hand through his hair and resting his other on your thigh.
āokay,ā youāre glowing, cheeks raised.
then heās up and off, shoving on some old cloths not before turning around to check you havenāt magically disappeared from the bed. you obviously havenāt, though youāre resting on your forearms looking out the curtainless window. you feel him staring so you look at him again.
ānothinā. donāt leave,ā he moves to shut the door behind him but he still hears you call out.
āthis is my home! where else would i go?ā
bakugou needs to stop this stupid grin before his servants think heās actually under a spell⦠whoās he fooling? they all heard your screams earlier.
when i was a kid i used to respond to the "glass half full/half empty" question by asking how the liquid in the glass got there in the first place. nobody ever gave me a chance to explain my reasoning so i'm doing it now
if you have a glass and it has some liquid in it, up to the halfway line, whether it is empty or full depends on what happened before the question was asked. if you started with a full glass and poured half out until only half remained, the glass is half empty, because if you continued pouring it would be fully empty. however, if you started with an empty glass and poured liquid from another container into the glass up to the halfway line, the glass is half full because if you continued pouring it would be all the way full. logical, no?
i was 13 years old when somebody finally told me it was supposed to be some kind of optimism/pessimism thing. i always thought it was a riddle that nobody let me solve
i see a post talking doom and gloom about how we'll never escape toxic masculinity. i think about back in 2017 when american girl released their first boy doll, and a review for him went viral in the collecting community. the review was written by a mom, who said they went into the store to get their daughter a doll, only to see their son's eyes light up like fire when he saw a doll that looked like him, and now every night he puts his doll in pajamas and rocks him to sleep. i think about the toddler in my daycare room a few years back who was obsessed with baby dolls, carrying them everywhere, and his mom proudly told us he uses his sisters' old baby dolls and wants to be just like them. that toddler saw another toddler crying one day and gave her the doll he had to cheer her up. i think about the eight-year-old boy i saw a few years back, excitedly waving around raya's sword in a target checkout line like all his dreams were coming true. there was a video on my instagram the other day of a little boy at disneyworld crying with joy upon meeting his hero, mulan. i think about the voice actor for bow in the she-ra reboot saying his nephews only wanted adora action figures. celebrity men are wearing dresses on tv now. last halloween i saw a little boy dressed as elsa. i went to go see spiderverse over the summer, and in the line ahead of me was a boy who couldn't be older than twelve or thirteen, bouncing and beaming, giddy with excitement over getting to see the female-led romance movie elemental. i think about the five-year-old boy at my library who breathlessly asked me where the pinkalicious books were, eyes widening when i had more on my cart, his mom explaining that he is all about pinkalicious and fancy nancy. i saw so many pictures online of boys and men dressed in pink to see barbie. teenage boys are gonna open their phones and see the man who wrote fucking game of thrones dressed in pink to see barbie. when i was a kid, a boy dressing in pink was practically a social death sentence. there are boys running around in pink on my street right now.
Here's to the people who weren't abused by their parents, but whose parents sucked anyways. Here's to people whose parents fucked up raising you out of ignorance and not malice. Here's to the kids whose parents didn't know what to do with you so they did nothing at all. Here's to people whose parents are getting better and growing as people but still hurt you. Here's to every mean comment that wouldn't have been so bad if it hadn't come from your mom; here's to awkward family dinners because you're all trying to forget;
here's to you, survivor of a thousand 'not as bad as it could have been' hurts. I see you. You aren't alone.
Over twenty years ago my big brother got me a job at a Taco Bell in the St. Louis suburbs-West County. He warned me that it was the "gay Taco Bell", but since I was coming from the "gay Howard Johnson's" I wasn't shocked. It turns out it was the black trans women Taco Bell complete with black trans women in management. And they'd worked out an arrangement with the local teen Narcotics Anonymous group so that twice a week we would shut down the drive thru and the dining room and exclusively serve 60+ teens in various stages of recovery. And many of the women I worked with were in various stages of being out or transitioning and they were from all generations from teens to over 50. One woman I worked with had a regular corporate job presenting as a man 9-5 Mon-Fri and then came to Taco Bell and worked 6pm -2am Friday and Saturday night so she could be herself surrounded by other black transwomen in those stolen weekends. And we had customers come from all over the metro area because they knew they could be themselves in the dining room. I only worked there from 1999-2001 but for young me, this was a vital, formative experience. Some of the girls came from north city all the way out to the "gay Taco Bell" on Manchester in west county because they heard it was safe to work there. Like- I know times have changed but they haven't changed much in 20 years. I'm still convinced that for lgbt youth, finding a job at your city's version of the "gay Taco Bell" is key to survival.
I feel like this needs the Spider Georg meme applied to it but Iām not quite sure how.Ā Um.Ā Something like:
āAll ships are gayā factoid actually statistical error. Not all ships are gay. Pride Sails Georg, who lives in anā¦.oceanā¦and has rainbow sails is an outlier and should not have been counted.
Something? Workshop it, internet. We can totally work in āshippingā in the fandom sense more cleverly than I did here pre-coffee.