I want to come out, to just be a woman all the time instead of strangling myself every time I go outside, but it's so goddamn hard
I'm trying but it's so goddamn hard, I'm so fucking scared
I'm not struggling, not like everyone else seems to be
I've got support from friends, my girlfriend, even some of my family
I can't do it by myself but there's nobody who can carry me either
And it feels selfish and awful because I'm just being a coward, I'm failing despite having all these things that other women deserve more than I do
I'm just so fucking scared
yeah no me too. there's nothing selfish about being scared to come out of the closet, I'm sorry you've been made to feel that way.
it's okay to be scared, that's a reasonable thing to be afraid of, but it's worth it. I live in Florida and I don't talk to my parents anymore and everyone treats me differently now, I think I've paid a higher than average price for transition? but it's still worth it.
I could give you some gentle persuasion but I'm sure you know it already, so I'll be real with you:
I love it so much that I'm willing to consciously risk dying for it. do you have anything that you're willing to do that for?
you're not a coward, you've been burdened with greatness. that's an awful thing, I'm sorry.
can you really just keep pretending to be a man? can you find your teeth? can you grit your tongue against them as you say, "death before detransition"?
the awful truth is that you can be great. it will be hard but you can. it would be easier if you were bound to fail, but you're not.
the thing that haunts you is that you can do it.
transition is a lifelong process, but it's also a decision. right now, today, as you read this, I'm forcing you to choose:
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