this is a cirnalternatus/miscealternate blog for our in-system polycule of mandela catalogue fictives. this is not roleplay nor omegaverse fiction, this is an omegaverse lifestyle blog run by fictionfolk. we follow/like from @peculiareyezer and our flag making blog is @peculiar-flags !
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sometimes i feel like the alterhuman community is super obsessed with reality in an often unhealthy sort of way? you dont need to have Literally Experienced things for them to be real to you. You dont have to actually believe in past lives or anything to feel you have had a past life experience. You dont need to really believe that you are an alien that came from beyond earth to feel like an alien that came from beyond earth. You don't need to believe in the multiverse to feel like you are experiencing something to do with it. Just like how nobody else has to believe in those things to understand that you feel them. You can do whatever you want actually. Feelings are fickle things and they do not care about what you believe is true, and this is not always a bad thing despite what people might say.
Sometimes you are a shapeshifting starthing from beyond the veil of space and time while simultaneously believing that that's not actually possible. Sometimes you have spirits in your head while simultaneously not believing in anything metaphysical. Sometimes you have reincarnated beings in your head without believing in reincarnation. The dissonance is perfectly okay if that's what brings you peace - it is what brings me peace. I do not feel any desire to "debunk" myself or my headmates despite my beliefs, nor do I feel a desire to bring any of the things I currently find impossible into how I understand the world. Your identity does not need to be perfectly explainable within the bounds of anyone's reality, including your own, because it is not something that relies on anything but your own feelings. Live a life that brings you peace
i find this super interesting as someone who typically approaches my own beliefs with “if there’s not a logical reason, then it can’t be true”. i do, quite often, feel like i’ve had past lives. like things have happened to me that never actually have. but i also don’t believe past lives or reincarnation are real. so i just brush it off as something akin to deja vu. but maybe you’re right and i can have both 🤔 /srs
for a long time i felt like even just the idea of myself feeling nonhuman wasn't something I could take seriously for a couple reasons, chief of which was that it was impossible for me to be something other than human in strictly scientific terms of me as an individual - even today i really do not believe there actually is a way for a brain to be set up that can really be scientifically said to not line up with the natural variation present in homo sapiens (theres complexities to this but thats outside the current scope) - but eventually i was like... does it really matter? I know how I feel, even if it's not perfectly scientific and logical. I can say I am whatever I want because only I know me. I feel a wide range of emotions that deserve to be addressed even if they seem stupid or wrong or against reality at first. If it makes me feel more comfortable living in the world, then it's worth trying out. It's worth looking at how you feel. If it turns out that it wasn't something I should address all that kindly (the ocd thoughts shouldn't be) then I learn that; I learn what the boundaries are.
So like, I definitely encourage you, genuinely, to see if any of that feels right for you
CIRNATURA: a term for individuals who implement the fictional trope of the omegaverse, be that the dynamics, habits, behaviours etc, into their identity and lifestyle
circum (round) + natura (nature). like the natural cycle of heats and ruts!
TERMINOLOGY
CIRNA: prefix for cirnatura related terms
CIRNAFOLK: cirnatura individuals
CIRNALUPUS: a cirnatura identity based on the original omegaverse trope which pertains to the biology of wolves
IMPORTANT INFO
- I have implemented omegaverse into my lifestyle for a long time, since I was a pre-teen. finding the miscecanis community made me feel so incredibly seen and I’m very grateful for the experience I’ve had there. however, I have a lot of current anxiety posting about my experiences with it and for the sake of avoiding any harm to anyone and myself, I’m coining cirnatura for myself and some friends. I don’t expect it will pick up like miscecanis has as a term but that’s okay, I want to make it clear this doesn’t exist to replace/recoin or stand against miscecanis in any way. I wish no ill-will to the coiner.
- anyone in the world is welcome to use cirnatura. you can be a miscecanid and also use cirnatura if you want. I don’t want my own ideologies attached to my terms and you are welcome to disagree with me on discourse and still use them. people could be cirnatura for any reason, alterhumanity plurality neurodivergency or just because whaaatever the world is your oyster
- you are also welcome to coin and make flags for cirnatura! would love to see it!!!
- omegaverse has lots of different interpretations for different people. I won’t be outlining specific definitions for alpha, beta, omega, etc as these can vary slightly from person to person. you’re welcome to ask about my own experience with it though!
- while based on a fictional trope, cirnatura is not fiction or roleplay
- you are welcome to ask me any questions about cirnatura! my inbox and heart are open
This is, in essence, an opinion piece talking about my feelings regarding being intersex and an interdynamic omega (+some bonus coining). This is largely just musings, though I do ask that any interaction with this post is done respectfully.
Take a shot every time I say "typically" or "typical." (/joke).
Do not tag this post with the abbreviation for "alpha/beta/omega." [PT: Do not tag this post with the abbreviation for "alpha/beta/omega." /End PT.] You will be blocked. Learn why here.
CW/TW: Discussion of bodies (including genitalia) and intersexism.
Three years ago, I started looking into a somewhat new concept to me, "intersexuality." Then, a little under a year ago, when we started testosterone HRT/GAHT, we got confirmation of something that we'd suspected since that initial research: we are intersex. It's been a bit of a journey since then, where we've discovered other intersex variations of ours past the one originally discovered, got (more) involved in community spaces, and found joy in something we originally were insecure about.
Intersexuality is a large part of my identity as a headmate. In part, I was formed due to the pressures of confirming to a level of typicality that we could never adhere to. We were never feminine enough, and now I am feminine in my own way (a freeing way). We were never personable enough, and now I am openly and proudly autistic. We were never willing enough, and now I help us be firm on boundaries. You get the gist. It then makes sense to me that, even though intersexuality (ostensibly) wasn't (explicitly) a large part of our life before we split, I have embraced it as a large part of my identity.
When thinking of my existence as a cirnalupus omega, I cannot separate that existence from my existence as an intersex person. I am interdynamic, not multidynamic in that I have multiple dynamics, but that my omegan biology is naturally atypical from what is typically expected from an omega in a way that is specifically connected to my existence as an intersex person.
In my personal interpretation, people have an idea of what dynamic they will present as from birth. Typically, all omegas are born with vulvas and all alphas are born with a penoscrotal setup. Betas are born with either one, connected to their primary sex. During puberty, alphas and omegas will go through a specific alpha/omega exclusive puberty (presentation) on top of the typical one. Meaning, while you do not know whether you will be a beta or not, people know whether they will be an alpha or omega if they do present. This all (typically!!) happens on top of a typical estrogen or testosterone puberty, which happens simultaneously.
Omega males, during their testosterone puberty, will experience clitoral growth, like that experienced during testosterone HRT/GAHT, to a typical length of 1.5-3 inches (this is, simply, due to the effects testosterone has on the clitoris). Betas who were born with a penoscrotal setup will not experience very significant growth, though alphas who were born with a penoscrotal setup will, as this is also when their knot develops.
Omegas experience heats every 3-5 months for 2-7 days at time, typically individually consistent. Alphas also experience ruts in the same way.
I bring this up to talk about how I am specifically interdynamic. Firstly, though, I need to explain individual vs shared reality. Shared reality is what you typically think of when thinking of "reality": it is the factual, objective, material world and experience. Individual reality is how a being experiences their world and interprets that experience, typically in a way that "clashes" with shared reality. Both are "real." Both are reality. This is a simple, rushed explanation — I urge anyone reading to do their own research on the topic!
I am a headmate that was "sourced" (for lack of better phrasing) from a personal omegaverse world that was a frequent daydream spot for us pre-splitting. While my existence as a flesh-and-blood, lived in and was born and raised in an omegaverse world isn't a part of shared reality, it is a part of my personal reality. The following is a recounting of my personal reality.
I was born under the assumption that I was female and raised a girl, yet when I presented as an omega during puberty, I experienced the clitoral growth that is expected of only omega males. Additionally, my heats are very sporadic — sometimes, I'll have a heat a month after my last one. Other times, I won't have a heat for a year. Additionally, I will also have occasional pre-heats that don't go anywhere and sort of just fizzle out. My scent has atypical undertones, and I will occasionally get asked what my dynamic is even when my scent is detected and it would typically be clear.
Some eagle-eyed, informed readers may recognize how similar this is to a specific intersex variation & its associated variations. To you, I applaud you! Have a cookie and thank you for being informed, whether or not you are intersex.
I am proud of who I am, and enjoy being both intersex and interdynamic.
However.
Sometimes it's hard. I'm not going to get into intersexism in a broad sense, as I can't do it justice here and there are better resources, but I want to talk about being intersex, with an interdynamic identity based on that intersexuality, while in the cirnatura(+) community.
The prevalence of "intersex is when someone has both a peritypical vulva and penoscrotal setup" mindsets within omegaverse writing (though not using those words) has made it so, when talking about how I am intersex and an omega, I feel the need to specify that I am talking about actual intersexuality and not the fetishization based on an incorrect view of what being intersex is. Being cirnatura is a large part of who I am, but because it is based on the omegaverse and intersexism is so prevalent within omegaverse writing, I am very cautious when interacting with other cirnafolk because there's a good chance that they also carry these intersexist beliefs! It sucks!
Which is why I'm writing this post. I want to try and explain my views on what is happening to other cirnafolk, especially perisex cirnafolk, and especially perisex cirnafolk who are using "interdynamic" to refer to themselves.
Intersex ≠ interdynamic. Intersex is a shared-reality marginalized identity in which someone's sex characteristics are (without intervention, for example, from birth or happening naturally during puberty) atypical in some way. Interdynamic is an intersex exclusive term for when one's dynamic does not match what is expected of their secondary sex characteristics, usually in a way that reflects their intersex variation (but not always).
Intersexuality is not "having both a (peritypical) penis and (peritypical) vulva/vagina." There is a large amount of fetishization, especially in omegaverse writing, based on this.
Intersexuality needs to be taken seriously. When writing an intersex character, and by extension an interdynamic character, writers need to be mindful that intersexuality is a marginalized, often misrepresented identity and do proper research and hopefully get sensitivity readers.
Perisex folk need to take the time to get a basic understanding of intersexuality. Lack of understanding and intersexism weaves its way into many people's own universes, writing, and speech.
Of course, I am one intersex person. Others may have different opinions than me, please do not take my words as like, Intersex Law.
"But, Mint! I'm perisex, but my dynamic falls out-of-line for what's expected of me as an [x]! Interdynamic describes me perfectly!" Well, I mean, no it doesn't because it's an intersex exclusive term but whatever. Throws this at you.
Amphidynamic
[PT: Amphidynamic /End PT.]
A term for perisex folk whose secondary sex characteristics/dynamic does not meet expectations regarding secondary sex/dynamics. This label is independent of one's experiences as a perisex person.
I'm not making a flag (I am not photoshop savvy enough for that), others are free to. I know I sound a bit pissed off here, but unless you're one of the folk who have been misusing "intersex" and "interdynamic" or engaging in intersex fetishization I'm not pissed at you (and if you are, you know better now and are able to adjust your behavior!).
And to everyone who took the time to read this, thank you for bearing with my rambling! I really do appreciate it. I hope all your nests are comfy, dens are cozy, packs are happy, and scents are comforting.
