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take care 🎧

#header & dividers from @saradika #caspian’s intro post

polartss

the mockingjay

tired-fandom-ndn

Sometimes "rarepair" means "you are literally the only person who posts about this on tumblr dot com" and you have to learn to be okay with that.

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oh goodness! oh dear!! oh no!!!

sophiemireille

this lottie x this nat

livelycoil

mourning no crash lottienat

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i can’t believe she’s real

smoggydoggyy

my girl whispers sweet nothings into my ear while covered in blood

lottiezilla

"you were always it's favorite" the wilderness sent wolves after tai's group when they tried to hike out, but it let nat climb to the cliff tops and call for help

"you were always it's favorite" the wilderness blew up laura lee's plane when she tried to leave, but let natalie do whatever she wanted

"you were always it's favorite" the wilderness didn't spare mari, who drew the queen only due to interference from another, but it did everything to save natalie who drew the queen fair and square

the wilderness didn't want them to leave, but it loved natalie so much it let her go

thatbambigirl

i can see your soul though your eyes

nataliescatorccioapologist

I know there’s this desire in the YJ fandom right now (myself included at times) for Nat to become more openly vicious or explosive like Shauna, especially after Season 3 (I’ve even seen posts advocating for her to “switch places with Shauna” in Season 4), but I can’t help but feel like that would do a disservice to both characters.

One of the main appeals of Nat and Shauna’s roles on the show is how they contrast in the ways they express trauma and anger. They both have a deep sense of self-hatred and a core belief that they poison the people they love and are therefore undeserving of closeness, but they embody it through completely different survival mechanisms. Shauna externalizes and lashes out until she has destroyed everything she could possibly risk caring about and allowing herself to love. Nat internalizes and drowns in her guilt until she has destroyed herself to the point that no one will come near her. Shauna cannot tolerate her grief and self-blame sitting inside her, so she projects it outward onto everyone around her. Nat turns it inward and lets it consume her. And in doing so, both of them continually recreate the very conditions that traumatized them in the first place. Shauna’s externalization manifests as violence, continually reinforcing her belief that she is dangerous and undeserving of love, while Nat’s internalization leaves her frozen and passive, complicit in harms she can never forgive herself for, trapping her in a relentless cycle of guilt and self-punishment.

That’s why they understand each other so deeply while also constantly clashing. Shauna sees Nat’s moral posturing as hypocrisy because she recognizes the same guilt inside her. Nat sees Shauna’s brutality and rejects it because Shauna externalizes what Nat spends her entire life trying to contain ("Keep the tiger in the cage").

I don’t want to see Nat become outwardly abusive and aggressive in the way Season 3 Shauna was. That trauma response is unique to Shauna, in the same way that Lottie’s religious fanaticism is unique, Tai’s compartmentalization and dissociation are unique, Van’s escapism, Misty’s obsession, Travis’ submission, ETC. Each character represents the many different, complex faces of trauma. The brilliance of Nat’s dark side is that it comes out through manipulation, playing the moral high ground, and remaining complicit. She has brief, fleeting moments when her anger breaks through the surface, and we see her lash out, but she almost always retreats afterward, collapsing inward and resuming her state of passivity and paralysis in the face of her guilt. Nat’s pathology has always been quieter than Shauna's, but it can be equally as destructive.

Nat's tendency to internalize her rage and trauma makes moments like her faking Javi's death and allowing him to die, covering up the truth from Travis, or taking the moral high ground during Ben’s trial so compelling. Nat’s cruelty rarely looks like Shauna’s. It looks like silence, rationalization, letting something terrible happen because intervening would force her to fully confront herself (and the fact that she's benefiting from these terrible acts). The way she drowns in her guilt and wears her remorse on her sleeve creates the illusion of innocence. And that distinction is far more interesting than simply turning her into another version of Shauna.