"You are my sunshine." //ily, Skye <3
@misledbystars | pain that ahsoka’s been avoiding
IT wasn’t supposed to be like that. she wasn’t supposed to outlive him, watch him die in her arms. that just wasn’t right. and now, as ahsoka sits in his room on the resolute ( upon becoming a knight hours after his death and ceremony, she took command, upon rex’s request, of the five-hundred-and-first with all of his attachments as the new general ) that they would share many a night when off on missions together: only now does her heart shatter. it’s been at least a month since his death, and so far she’d been strong. she’d done it for the troops, comforted rex ( who in turn helped her if she ever let it get to her in the slightest ) and the others, and kept being the strong commander they’d seen before she took on the rank of general.
BUT now, sitting on the bed they’d shared many a night sleeping side by side, she was breaking. bright blue eyes welled up in tears and she swung her legs to hang over the side ( her feet touched the floor now, she’d grown a little during the month he’s been gone, but her montrals showed the most change ) of the bed, head turning downwards to the durasteel floor, and she was crying. ❛ this was all my fault… ❜ the togruta, now of age nineteen, whispered.
❝ SKYGUY ! no ! ❞ ahsoka screamed as he took a lightsaber through the stomach right in front of her, the assassin then running as if their job was done. she didn’t bother to chase them, instead running over to her dying love. ❝ IT-it’s okay, ahsoka.. ❞ anakin whispered, his breathing labored, and she knew he wouldn’t even last five more minutes. ❝ NO-n-no it’s n-not… ❞ she replied, carefully and gently pulling him up into her arms as she sat kneeling beside him, her cool fingers threading through his curls gently and she was crying. ❝ DON’T cry, kitty, please.. ❞ he says, but that doesn’t serve to help her. “i don’t want my last view to be of you crying..” he insists, and ahsoka manages to calm herself a little ( enough to smile at his words and put on a bright face for him ) ❝ I’M sorry.. i’m so, so sorry… ❞ ahsoka whispers, placing her forehead on his while she goes back to crying, unable to stop herself any longer. ❝ SORRY ? about what ? this isn’t your fault.. ❞ anakin replies, and his voice is getting softer. he’s drifting quicker. ❝ FOR letting this happen.. i promised you i would never let anyone hurt you.. just as you promised me.. ❞ she says through sobs, one hand’s fingers still threading through his hair, the other hand resting on his cheek gently, her lips pressing to his forehead. ❝ MY kitty.. my beautiful kitty.. ❞ anakin whispers, one of his hands going to rest on her cheek. ❝ stay strong, my sunshine.. ❞ he says, and just like that she feels his body relax in full in her arms. he’s a dead weight.
AHSOKA was sobbing still, her mind playing that moment over and over in her head. why her mind decided to do this to her now, she doesn’t even know, but what she does know is it feels like her heart is breaking all over again. shattering. and it is. curling in on herself, she slowly pulls her feet back up on the bed and rolls over onto her side so her back is to the door, and ends up crying herself to sleep where the memory just torments her as a nightmare she can’t break free from.