Bittersweet...

|| I'm Cara Delevingne || 24 years old|| Model turned Actress and sometimes dabs in the art of Singing || Relationship Status: Married to Harry Styles || ||*RP ACCOUNT TWO YEARS IN THE FUTURE *||

[carawithlove]

[rehab-e]

[caradelevingne25]

😍💗😍

[miss-caraa-d]

Is it bad that i’m still eating Valentine’s chocolates? 

[caramello-styles]

Couple of the year caught walking with their puppy.

[miss-caraa-d]

Dunk Valentines || Cararry

It had been a busy week for Cara and in the Delevingne - Styles household, they had been trying to work and talking things through about stuff that was going on between them, and trying to overcome a lot of those things, and Valentines was coming up, the first of many but the first one as a married and together as a couple, never had they been that close, she had a surprise for him later on but first the pair had joined a dunk the valentine and that sounded like the perfect thing to do as a couple, it was fun, and they were going to do it together, for all the single people in town to take on their frustrations...Cara was beginning to think not the best idea while there was snow and it was so cold, but hoping and praying for hot water. 

Going upstairs, Cara woke him up with a tray of food, heart shaped pancakes with chocolate on them and strawberries, coffee, orange juice and a single rose, how very cliche but she was enjoying herself, besides she had learned how to make the pancakes for this day in particular, “ Hey, sleeping beauty... it’s time to wake up...” she said, sitting next to him after dropping the tray at the feet of the bed, and kissing him on the temple, fingers running through his hair. ´

@harrystyles-ldn

[aadkinsldn-blog]

People of London, let me tell ya, you have never truly felt pain until you’ve stuck your mascara wand straight in your eyeball. I feel a new song coming up. “Help, oh,  am going to diiiiie”. So… I guess I have to say it now, don’t I? Hello everyone. It’s good to be home.

[miss-caraa-d]

Helloooo...it’s meeeee!! If i wasn’t married i would do you....HIII

[jeeez-louise]

Cara Delevingne at Chanel Spring 2016 Couture

[sarab-ldn-blog]

I’m seriously thinking I might actually be Elsa or something.

[miss-caraa-d]

That’s not a bad thing, even though you look a lot more like Anna. 

[yodareyes]

[harrystyles-ldn]

Little Monsters ✘ Cararry

[harrystyles-ldn]

Harry thought for a moment. He knew he could tell Cara anything, and had always been able to, married or not. He chewed on his bottom lip before looking up at her again, giving her hand a soft squeeze as she looked up at her. She always had that ability to calm him down, even just by being close to him seemed to be calming enough to have him feel a little less stressed out and depressed about the situation. In truth, there wasn’t even a real situation, he was just feeling down. “I don’t know…” Harry trailed off and shrugged his shoulders. He kind of hated how little his voice had sounded just then.

“I just, have days when I’m feeling down. And I feel like I’ve let everyone down.” He admitted after a moment of silence. He kept his gaze down at their hands holding, though he could barely see them in the darkness under their covers. “I think over the years all the hate might have got to me, because I have had these moments where I keep thinking things aren’t worth the effort anymore. Not just performing, I love that, and I don’t think I’ll ever find anything I love doing as much, but sometimes I feel like getting out of bed isn’t worth it. It’s not worth the hate. I feel like I can’t please the people I should, and that I’m a huge disappointment. “I’m so lucky to have you, Cara. But I also know that you can do so much better than me, and I think everyone knows that.” He said, sounding defeated. “Some days I feel like an empty shell, and I can’t – I can barely form sentences, and find the strength to do anything. I think if it wasn’t for Zeus when I lived alone, I wouldn’t have been able to do anything some days. It was the reason I got a dog, an excuse to get out and about, you know? And he’s been such great help. I think he’s saved me on more occasions than I dare think about.” He let out a shaky breath and let go of her hand to wrap his arm around her body and burying his face in her chest, squeezing his eyes shut to force the tears away. “I’m sorry… It’s stupid.”  

[miss-caraa-d]

Cara waited as he formulated an answer, she wasn’t expecting him to tell her everything but she felt good to know he could open up about to her, over everything. She listened to him, intently, her thumb rubbing over the back of his hand as he spoke, trying to sooth him. 

AS he said she could do better than him, Cara immediatelly took her hand off of his and wrapped around his shoulder, making him look up to her, “ You’re the better part of me... I don’t care what people think, say... You’re not a disappointment to anyone, haters will hate, forever, they have miserable lives and that’s why they do what they do... to make themselves feel that way, superior, they’re not. I used to be that way, i still have days where i don’t want to leave my bed... our bed. But then i look at you, i look at everything i have, my life, my nieces, my nephew..everything is worth it and i’m the luckiest woman alive, just to wake up and be able to breathe.” She explained to him, she knew it all too well where his head was at, she had those days too, once she even thought about jumping a balcony in NYC, but she stopped herself, called her sister and came right home. “ i’m happy you have Zeus, he protected the man i love, he made sure you’d be there for me, for everyone, Harry, you’re not alone anymore... you have me. And those days where you can’t get out of bed, i’ll stay with you...” she whispered, clutching his shirt as he buried his face over her chest, tears falling from her eyes, “ It’s not...i’m here, my love. I’m not going anywhere... “ 

[hciditurncr]

To advert the massive hangover I had this morning, I had about six coffees from Starbucks today. Two things. One, Starbucks is addicting and I can’t help it, and two, I’ll probably be up all night.

[miss-caraa-d]

Where was my invite to Starbucks? 

[sarab-ldn-blog]

So, my plane got delayed a solid 14 hours because of a crazy-ass snow storm in New York, so I get here now and it’s, what, almost 6 am… and then I got a meeting at 9am, and I this point, i don,t even give a shit! I’m here! Oh my god!

[miss-caraa-d]

And you get what? MORE SNOW!!!! Seriously...epic timing! You’re awesome.

[afoxinlondon]

Why did I do that? I just finished watching a show about black holes. That stuff always fucks me up…

[miss-caraa-d]

Do you think that it will take you to a different dimension? CUZ I DO!!! 

[harrystyles-ldn]

Little Monsters ✘ Cararry

[harrystyles-ldn]

Snuggling into Cara’s side, Harry let out a deep sigh. He felt lighter just for the simple reason that she was there with him, and how warm she felt pressed up against him. He smiled a little to himself and allowed himself to melt against her touch. Though, it didn’t take long before he looked up at her again. Hearing her say these things made him worried that he had been giving too much away, and when she mentioned she knew he hadn’t slept much, he just knew that she probably did know the rest as well. Well, not everything, but how he definitely wasn’t okay. He was quiet for a moment before he pulled away slightly and watched her carefully as his head rested down on the pillow again.

“It’s not like it’s the first time I didn’t sleep very well.” Harry said and shrugged his shoulder, wanting to brush it off as nothing. He smiled some at her and brushed a hand through his curls slightly. He couldn’t imagine that Cara would brush this off as nothing. Not when he had spent the whole day in bed, with Zeus next to him like this now before she’d come in to check on him. “Did you not sleep much either? I’m sorry if I kept you up, though. And that sounds like a good way to spend the morning.” He said with a warm smile towards his wife, reaching out to take her hand in his and lacing their fingers together. He hummed softly and gave her hand a gently squeeze.  

[miss-caraa-d]

Cara cuddled closer to him, let her warmth from being out in the sun pass to him, he was in need more than she was. She looked down to him as his eyes rose to hers, she could tell he was worried about something, maybe it was her finding out and realizing, now that they were living in the same house and sleeping in the same bed that his sleeping patterns were a bit awire, but she wasn’t going to ask too many questions about it, she wanted to take her time to let him come to her if needed. Cara watched as he dropped back to the pillow and hid again, making her sigh. 

“ i know.” she softly replied, “ I’ve been sleeping with you for the past month, Harry...i know you haven’t been sleeping...period. “ she looked at him, concerned for her husbands mental health. She grabbed his hand and intertwined their fingers together before squeezing it, “ I didn’t, but it wasn’t your fault, it was just a very worry mind, that’s all... sometimes, even my darkness creeps up and then i remember what i have and how lucky i am...” she said coming down and kissing his forehead. “ Do you want to tell me why you’ve been in bed?” 

[ladarvill-deactivated20170531]

Finally touched down on British soil

And after one of the most exhausting flights I’ve ever had, I am so glad to be back at home.

[miss-caraa-d]

You came at the right time!!! There’s snow!! 

[misspoppydelevingne]

New year, Same importance // The delevingnes

Poppy had not seen her sister as much around the festive days this year as usual, there had been no cruise somewhere, no vacation, no partying. Both seemed to still be getting accustomed to what their life looked liked lately, for Cara as a married woman, for poppy with a baby. Sure they had all spent Christmas together at their parents and the days after we’re sort of also in family hands, but it really was different to how it usually was. With everything coming to an end now and life really going back to normal for everyone poppy knew that it was a good time for a day with her sister. Just Cara, herself and Nola if the baby would feel like participating instead of sleeping, which was likely because even the tiny human being loved Cara to pieces and always seemed to be extra chipper with poppys sister around.

Nola was still small but she sure had been growing since poppy got her and poppy truly did feel more comfortable with the infant, now feeling like she actually slowly got the hang in what she was doing and the reassurance that she in fact was not doing it all wrong. Leaving the house with Nola comfortable and warmly tucked into the most adorable romper and tiny baby ugg boots as well as a warm jacket poppy really was excited to see her sister today, without the entire family being there and without hundreds of things to keep them from actually talking, to getting to know how the other one really was. Ringing the doorbell to Cara’s apartment, basically just as a warning since she had a key anyways, poppy unlocked the door and walked in smiling “where are you at babe?”

@miss-caraa-d

[miss-caraa-d]

After Christmas and the ride of the New year had passed, everything was now back to normal and Cara had time to just reel in the new year, and the things to come, obviously in her life it was hard to take a breather, she was bound to start shooting a new movie next month and it was killing her to think she’d be out of the country, away from her husband and her baby nieces and sisters, for three months. Right now, she was happy to have everyone together and Poppy was coming over for a visit with Nola and she was beyong excited

Cara was taken a back as the doorbell rang, running from the kitchen through the halls with her puppies and Zeus, who was home without Harry, they all ran to the blue door. “ Hiiiiiiii” she said with grabby hands to the baby, “ I was in the kitchen, feeding my babies....these eat a lot, “ she said looking down with a smile, “ Come in!” she said, kissing her sister with Nola in her arms already, “ How are you, pretty baby? I swear she grows everyday”