Climbing Uphill

A young girl pursuing her childhood dream of getting to Broadway. Her life took an unexpected turn in college, and instead of studying abroad to do some soul searching she decided to write a blog.

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Kristin Chenowith performing “Glitter and Be Gay” from Leonard Bernstein’s Candide in a concert performance with the New York Philhamonic from 2004.

Just in case you don’t know what Kristin Chenowith can do.

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Christina Bianco sings various songs by The Witch in Into the Woods as various potential “witches” for the role!

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Rejection Letters

Today I received a rejection letter. Tomorrow I will probably also receive a rejection letter. And that’s ok. In fact sometimes, depending on the organization, it’s best if you reply and thank them for the opportunity. Say not to worry “you’ll see me again next year”. It’s true that with each rejection you can learn and grow and become a better person and a better performer. However, contrary to popular belief, it does not hurt any less the 50th time you get rejected. It does however, make the eventual acceptance all the more sweet. There isn’t a whole lot that one can say about rejection letters just because you can’t quite do anything about them. Besides become inspired to work harder and practice more.

This particular rejection was particularly cruel because on the same day two ridiculous things happened that I totally could have stopped; and yet they happened anyway.

First I go to class with homework in hand. Homework that I had spend all night ALLL NIGHT working on. It was music theory, and I was particularly satisfied with the results. However as the class drew on and we went over the homework. As we talked through the various solutions it slowly dawned that we were only required to analyze the first movement. Where as I had analyzed both. And that the first and second movements had only been made available to us because the second movement was going to be next weeks homework. So sure maybe I’m a little ahead now. But believe me my sleep deprived body does not appreciate this.

And secondly I will leave you with this: when you live in a house with 5 other girls your not always going to get along. But you can take some solace in knowing that a rejection letter from a casting agency is never going to be as painful as a rejection from a friend.

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Seems like trouble to me

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It doesn’t matter where you are coming from! All that matters is where you are going! / Photo by Pavel Bendov

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My dash is dead and I’m looking for new blogs to follow, so reblog this if you post about any of the following:

Broadway

Disney

Musicals (Literally any musical) 

Newsies/Toursies

Psychology

Studying/Study Hacks 

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that awkward moment when Julie Andrews looks better in a suit than any man every could

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Hello everyone!

I’ve decided to start a play list which will include only positive music. It wont be a pump up play list or anything like that. It will just be a nice play list on my phone to put a pep in my step. Feel free to copy the play list I will up date it periodically. 

So far it includes.) 

“Brooklyn Girls” by Catey Shaw. I know she got a lot of flack for this song but you gotta admit its catchy. The rest of the songs will probably be from various musicals.

”A Part of That” and “King of the World” both by Jason Robert Brown again not peppy but fantastic and upbeat

“Turn it Off” The Book of Mormon. I don’t think that anyone should “turn off” who they really are or an emotion. But again super cute song. and theres  tap break!!

“send me on my way” by Rusted Root. Matilda anyone? and on that note number 6...

”Naughty” and “’When I Grow up”Matilda. It’s true you must’nt let a little thing like little stop you.

”Once we were Kings” Billy Elliot. The ending is just so strong!

“What You Want”, “Positive”, and “So Much Better”  Lgally Blonde (not that you should ever change yourself for man! 

“When You’re a Jet” and “Something’s Coming” West Side Story

“I’m Alive” Next to Normal (so many feels)

“Ever After” Into the Woods

“Show People” Curtains

“All That’s Known” Spring Awakening

“For Now” Avenue Q (Super appropriate)

“Ain’t Got No Grass” and “I Got Grass” Hair

“No Time At all” Pippin

“Glitter and Be Gay”

Do you have any suggestions? 

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when you realize your in your twenties and you are not going to play annie

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.The one and the only Neil Patrick Harris.

 “There’s a kid in the middle of no where who’s sitting there living for tony performnces. Singing and flipping along with the pippins and wickeds and kinky’s, Matilda’s, and mormons. So we might reassure that kid. And do something to spur that kid. Cause I promise you all of us up here tonight.. We were that kid”

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“Times are shitty but I’m pretty sure they can’t get worse” (Rent)

Today’s topic is money. The driving point of lmost all things in life. Well except someones deep seeded desire to be a broadway actress. Money is definitely not the driving force for that dream. 

As a college student your asked three things

 1. What are you studying?

2. What do you want to do with that?

3. What are you doing over the summer?

And if you are lucky enough to even have a vague answer to any of these questions never assume that you answer is good enough. I was lucky enough to get into a program for this summer. it is a Young Artist Program so ofcourse it costs an arm and a leg. I am also so fortunate enough to have the financial and emotional support of family. So I could potentially do this summer program and gain some valuable expirience this summer while also feeling incredably guilty for asking my parents to pay for something when intandem to the United States government they also pay for college.

Then last night I recieved an offer for a full time job. Minimum wage, but hey it’s still something. The job would require me to sit at a desk for eight or nine hours a day filing paper work and occasionally setting up events. How can I possibly turn down a full time position. What kind of monster would I be? 

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Like Romeo and Juliet ‘Twas written in the stars before they even met That love and fate and a touch of stupidity Would rob them of the hope of living happily. The endings are often a little bit gory. I wonder why they didn’t just change their story. We’re told we have to do what we’re told but surely Sometimes you have to be a little bit naughty. Just because you find that life’s not fair It doesn’t mean you just have to grin and bear it. If you always take it on the chin and wear it Nothing will change.

Matilda (Naughty)

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#yes

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A little More Home Work

I know I have  long way before I get this whole Tumblr thing down. However, today I found out how you can comment on my posts! 

Like most others in college I have homework. Projects. Tests. Presentations. And to prospective students sure I say these things with pride. But right now I am drowning in the analysis of a Beethoven sonata.

Not to mention applications for summer programs and competitions and graduate school programs. To get into any of these things you have to plan like  year in advance. You bulk up your repetoire, learn about the audition, find an accompanist somewhere, record your audition, oh and dont forget those letters of recomondations or a monologue or a personal statement, and probably your latest transcript. Unless you can wip that up in a week, and congradulations if you can, you litterally have to think about it months in advance. My dream summer program is the Aspen Music Festival. Whats yours?

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If I could ask Jason Robert Brown anything it would be this: When you wrote the last five years did you envision it to be a movie? I feel that a lot of these scenes worked really well when the characters could skype and when the characters can cut from being in one place to another in a matter of seconds. This is especially the case for “Summer in Ohio”.

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So you want to be on broadway?

Today I will start what will hopefully be a daily tradition of mispellings and understandings. I can only appologize for my horrible spelling and run on sentences with insight into the mind of a twenty year old bound for broadway. On this blog I will not divuldge my real name or key information about myself. Instead I will share something much more personal. I will dilvuldge My fears and my attempts at acheiving my goal. Hopefully those out there will, in return comment and provide some words of encouragement. Constructive criticism is accepted to but I’m new to the world of blogging so cut me some slack.

Today I looked into the differences between wordpress, tumblr, and blogger. Obviously I chose tumblr. Honestly I thought it would give me the better odds of someone actually reading this. I created a website for myself a few years ago. While that may seem strange, as an aspiring broadway actress I wanted to get a head start on creating my website. I also just wanted to learn more about making a website. And what better way to learn than to do. Some of you might wonder: Why is she not just writting in her journal? Well it’s not as exciting. I’ve tried journals and I can just never commit. Obviously if I want to go into entertainment then I enjoy the spot light.

Today I study music at a small libral arts college in pennsylvania. Everyday I wonder if I made the right choice to go to a small libral arts college insted of a University or a conservatory. Then I remeber how expensive conservatories and universities can be. I remeber how much my family is saveing by having me go to college in state. I look around at all of the poverty and suffereing. The people who can barely feed there kids. There is no way I will take out a loan that I can’t pay off. No way I will take a loan or money away from someone who needs it more. And no way I would put my parents in that situation.

Still, as I look at the classes not offered in my curriculum that really really should be offered I sigh. But ofcourse the grass is always greener on the other side. So if you like  this idea I have for a blog, which I am sure is a cliche, then I will continue to update you as I make my uphill battle onto the stage. Thank you so much for reading.