elyiana

Ely she/her || autistic || mainly reblogs || avid ao3 reader || in too many fandoms || lurker || current hyperfixation: tokyo revengers || asks are welcomed, but be warned i will take 3-5 business days to answer (or even more) (pfp art is not mine)

[missing-sanity]

i love characters who are doomed by the narrative: love, morality, life and death, good and evil, fate and destiny, circumstances, your own choices or the choices of the people around you, even the world itself.

characters who could have been good, who could have done good but can't. maybe because they couldn't afford to be good; maybe because they never saw another option; maybe they were brought up thinking that what they were doing was, is good; or maybe because they never had a choice. because they don't have agency, because the route they are on was chosen for them, charted out by their circumstances, by society, by their families, parents, by their biological makeup, by their very DNA, or even by Fate and Destiny itself.

characters who aren't doomed by the narrative in the traditional sense. there were openings, choices they could have made that could have altered the path they are on. these possibilities give the illusion of agency, the impression that they did it to themselves, that if they had just chose better, tried harder, they wouldn't be in the position they are in now. and sure, that's what it seems like when you look at the surface. but when you dive a little deeper, you realise that they would have been on this path no matter what. because of cause-and-effect. because of trauma. because of what was done to them and what they already did and the way they fundamentally think. the way their very character was built; the building blocks of what makes them them - there was no chance that they wouldn't have made those choices, not without betraying who they are as a character, as a person. maybe if life had been kinder, maybe if they had just one person there for them, they could have changed. but there wasn't. or maybe it wouldn't have mattered. maybe they still would be on this path to hell or to martyrdom no matter what happened. but no one will ever know.

characters who are made for each other, but can't be together because-. characters who love each other, but were torn apart too soon. characters who were supposed to be together, but never crossed paths, constantly on the brink of meeting each other, living life always feeling that something is missing. characters who are everything to each other - love and hate - characters who cannot coexist together but cannot function, live without the other half. characters who go their whole lives without meeting their other half; only catching a glimpse of them at the end, never getting to share those precious moments. characters who love each other more than anything and everything, who could have lived and loved together but are on opposite sides of The Conflict, bound by expectations, oath, duty, morals. characters who have love etched into their souls but cannot share it because. because of distance, society, status, circumstances, gender, religion, family, sides, dreams. characters who love each other but the call of ambition is stronger; who love each other enough to let go.

characters who are bound by morality. characters who are cursed by love. characters who suffer for their ideals, choked by their own actions for they themselves are the ones who dealt the cards. characters who have doomed themselves. characters who are doomed by the author - to play the role of villain, hero, victim, abuser, the damsel, the knight, the monarch, the underdog, the Icarus. characters who are doomed by Fate, Destiny, Prophecy, the Plot. characters who are chained, who trapped themselves in the cycle of abuse - hurt people hurt people - where you once were the victim now find yourself standing in Their Place looking at a reflection of your broken self in the eyes of Someone who stares at you with fear, hate, anger, betrayal. and you see it in their wide eyes why why why why what did I do to deserve this I don't know I'm sorry. and you realize you have become the villain in someone else's story. characters who are doomed to repeat the cycle because they never healed but that's not an excuse and it cannot be one

characters who are doomed by the narrative and are aware of it. and yet they still struggle, despite knowing it's futility. characters who are aware and choose to accept it. characters who come to terms and are at peace with the hand they've been dealt with. characters who are aware of the inevitability but choose to live and enjoy the present. because life is unfair. because the world can be cruel. because even if your fate has already been foretold, what matters is what you do right now. even if everything is out of your control, even if you were never in control, you still lived.

[oneatlatime]

I love how Avatar perfectly balances "the kids are going to save the world!" with "which is pretty fucked up, actually."

[missing-sanity]

highkey need fics/fanart where takemichi crashes out. i’m talking crashout of the century. dark!takemichi aus that fall in line with his character. let his saviour complex be his achilles heel instead of his greatest strength. let his persistence be the reason for his downfall. let his self-sacrificing selflessness be the cause of his damnation.

when you martyred so much, you end up falling from heaven into hell.

[missing-sanity]

see i could never be takemichi, because befriending kisaki? after everything he put me through? everything he put my friends and my lover through? all the suffering in countless timelines? hell fucking no. i wouldn’t hate final timeline!kisaki or blame him for his (possible) future(s) selves’ actions, because obviously he’s innocent. but i certainly wouldn’t befriend him nor could i bring myself to like him.

also shinichiro. what the absolute hell was he thinking?? giving the power to time travel to a literal eleven year old child? he knew damn well the burden of holding such power and the darkness that came with it, hell he fucking killed for it. the dark impulses was quite literally a curse, consequences created from said power. shinichiro had no idea what the fuck he was doing and what other dire consequences that might have also came with the power. and he chose to burden a CHILD with such great power and responsibility?? you killed for the power of time, you cursed your younger brother as a result of your actions, at least have the decency to face the consequences of your foolish decisions and hold onto your ill-gotten power, at least have the decency to die with it, instead of being a coward and passing on the burden to someone else. and he didn’t even give it to a god damn adult, he passed it to a eleven year old, and at takemichi’s vulnerable moment too. takemichi was desperate and wanted to be a hero. and shinichiro took advantage of his innocent heroic desire, his good heart and gave the burden and responsibility of time travel to him. and he didn’t even tell takemichi anything?! no elaboration, no explanation, just a random handshake with the recipient not knowing the horrible weight of burden he had just taken on.

sure takemichi might have lived a fairly unsuccessful life in the original timeline. but it could have been a good life. nothing exciting nothing crazy. an average but happy life. happiness doesn’t always have to be something extravagant. to me, takemichi was fairly depressed (due to his lifestyle) and still traumatised from kiyomasa in the original timeline. but he could have healed, made new friends, hell went to therapy. he was 26, he had time. he could have changed. he needed help, not more trauma via time travelling. takemichi wouldn’t have traded the final timeline and toman and all his connections and friends for anything, but he deserves to hold a slight grudge against shinichiro for causing all of it. shinichiro was the cause of takemichi’s ability to time travel and mikey’s dark impulses. he fucked up, leading to the suffering of takemichi and mikey and everyone else, and takemichi had to clean up his mess.

takemichi’s kindness and heart, as well as his unwavering will is what draws me to him. it’s what i love about him. but after everything i think he deserves to be at least a little bit spiteful and petty. #let-takemichi-hold-grudges

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madohomu is maitake if mikey was the one time travelling to save takemichi.

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i hc that past!takemichi was suspicious of his random blackouts and loss of memory for long periods of time, looked it up on the internet, and thought he had DID for a good while

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i wonder if takemitchy(the one we know) haunts takemichi’s(past) narrative.

does takemichi know about takemitchy? is he aware of his future self? when takemitchy comes back is he always present in the backseat of his mind? or does he go dormant and regains consciousness when takemitchy goes back to the future? and where does he go when takemitchy returns to the future?

imagine being past!takemichi. you don’t know why but suddenly you’re losing time, having random blackouts. sometimes you feel like there is someone else there in your head. suddenly there are a bunch of people claiming to be your friends, people you don’t remember meeting. they all look at you like they expect to see someone else. one calls you ‘takemitchy’, yet you feel like he is referring to someone else when he says it, a twisted version of your name, a name you don’t recall owning. one claims he owes you his life, yet you don’t remember saving him. you feel like you should. after all, being a hero is what you’ve always dreamed of. one calls you ‘partner’, yet you swear he’s looking through you when he calls you by that title, searching for some form of recognition in your eyes. he will find none. you feel like you’re living in the shadow of someone you’ve never met, that you’ve never known. and you don’t know how to be this someone for your friends. you know they want someone else, their hero, their ‘takemitchy’. but you don’t know how to be that for them. and you can’t. they don’t want you; they want Him. perhaps being a hero is being a placeholder for them, something your friends cling to till He returns. replacing you in yourourHis life, reclaiming his rightful role as their pride, their light, their Hero. perhaps this is the only kindness you can give them, the best and only thing you can do is disappear.

i love our takemitchy (he has suffered so much and for so long and finally his hard work paid off, managing to reach a happy ending for everyone) but takemichi’s life really is a 12 year long horror story. all your friends aren’t really Your friends. when they look at you, all they see is someone else. a version of you, but one You can never be. and they’re all just waiting. waiting for you to disappear and for the him, the better version of ‘you’, to come back.

[spockslash]

Star Trek grandma

[ceruleanteacup]

Betcha Grandma was writing original k/s slashfic decades before you kiddies were born.

[spockslash]

Yes @ceruleanteacup , Grandma was

[space-feminist]

i hope everyone knows that OP wasn’t just saying this generally - she quite literally was the star trek grandma. she passed in 2018, rip to an icon

[missing-sanity]

Your haitani brother takes are very well thought out. Not sure if you’ve done a post like this before, but what do you think rindou feels about the whole gang life. Do you think Ran influenced rindou a lot in becoming the way he is? Or he simply adapted just like his brother. I reckon that Rindou is a little “sweeter” than Ran. Not saying that he’s sunshine and rainbows, but in comparison to Ran at least he seems more capable of showing humanity if that makes sense.

And also, do you think if South hadn’t of dragged them into his gang they would’ve left the delinquent scene? As in being in a gang officially, I wouldn’t doubt they’d keep doing stuff in the background to keep their names in Roppongi.

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I was just typing as I was thinking 😂not proof read.

Curious to hear your thoughts on them, I feel like I always try to find analysis on them but they’re kinda inaccurate and doesn’t fit their character 😭but your posts seem pretty unbiased from what I’ve read.

thank you so much for the ask!! and so so sorry it took me so long, i’m really bad at answering asks, but i promise i will always answer any sent. just, expect a long wait.

due to a lack of backstory screw you wakui there is only so much we can infer from the haitani brothers that can be considered canon. therefore some of this post will be my own interpretations from what we know for sure are facts.

as of the present, rindou probably doesn’t feel much remorse or guilt for anything he does. he’s basically desensitised to the violence, to the point he enjoys it. when he was younger he felt uncomfortable or disturbed, but survival and time crushed it out of him. due to a lack of parental figures in their life (from what we can tell), rindou’s biggest influence comes from ran. ran was essentially parentified. from their interactions, there seems to be a much greater maturity gap than what their actual age difference would imply. during the fight with angry, ran instinctively knew that something was wrong and warned rindou multiple times. ran deeply cares about rindou, but he was also only 13 back then. or maybe even younger, we don’t know when exactly it started only being just the two of them. ran obviously loves rindou, but there was only so much he could do. and he had his own issues which bled into rindou. a 13 year old isn’t equipped to care and parent a 12 year old, especially since he was also still growing up. kids need adult figures in their life, and from what we can tell they had none, no guidance, no parents. no wonder they turned out this way. for survival, ran had to be violent, be brutal, not just for him, but for rindou. ran’s violence stems from a need to protect rindou, which then eventually evolved into enjoyment of inflicting violence and reaping the rewards from it. and rindou learned from ran, learned that cruelty means survival, that cruelty gives you what you want. however their environment also played a major role in creating the haitani brothers as we know them now. no one is that sadistic or inclined to violence for no reason. i mean, they got into juvie at ages 13 and 12 respectively and were already present in the gang life/delinquent scene then. your childhood is the most formative years of your life, there is no doubt that the prison environment contributed a lot to who they are now. the system and the adults failed ran and rindou. (i’ll talk more about what i think their backstory is in another post) in conclusion, for rindou, i think it’s a combination of ran’s influence, intentional or not, and the need to adapt which led to him being the way he is now.

i agree that rindou is the more ‘sweeter’ of the two, at least as sweet as he can get for being a sadistic delinquent. from canon, he is rated #2 worst in being vicious, and is rated the #2 best boyfriend in tenjiku, evidence proving that he can be kind and a good lover to his partner. like, he’s still a bad person, but good to those who he cares about. i think due to ran’s protection when they were younger, rindou could afford to be more gentle, more kind, and kept his childhood innocence just a little longer. ran had difficulties showing that he cares even to those he loves, as rindou’s most feared/disliked person is ran himself, despite it being obvious that ran genuinely loves and cares for rindou. ran is also obsessed with keeping and displaying a certain ‘cool’ image outwardly, so i can see him have trouble verbalising or physically showing affection.

ran and rindou probably wouldn’t have joined another gang so quickly if it wasn’t for south forcing them. actually i doubt any of the s62 generation would have joined another gang so fast. they had just lost izana. the haitani brothers have been shown to operate as a duo, and only ever as a duo, up until they joined tenjiku. ran has shown respect and genuine care for both izana and kakucho: his speech about his true feelings towards the two when izana died, him and rindou willingly staying with izana’s corpse and getting arrested, giving up their freedom for him, ran immediately smacking sanzu with his baton after sanzu attacked kakucho. ran and rindou aren’t the type to join gangs in the first place, valuing their independence and preferring to work as a duo even if they join one. again tenjiku was the exception, due to izana. so yes, i agree that, if not for south, ran and rindou would not have joined any gang. they definitely would have kept doing the shady shit they already did in Roppongi, and maybe they’ll join another gang for fun, but that would be way further down the line. and even if they did join one, it would not hold much significance to them and they’ll leave as soon as they got bored.

thank you for your praise on my analysis/takes, i’m glad you enjoy them. it’s hard to define accuracy and mischaracterisation when talking and theorising about the ran and rindou, considering the lack of canon material. once again apologies for the late reply and thank you for the ask.

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bonten is so morbidly hilarious to me. I have literally never seen a group of people who all collectively don’t want to be there to such an extent. like, they all hate it there so much but they’re still staying in the organisation. they act like they have a gun aimed at their heads, but they’re the ones holding it. (granted they can’t exactly leave but still) I can’t imagine how they felt when mikey went and offed himself. ‘that was an option?????’ imagine you have to stay in this shitty murder organisation, but you physically cannot leave or your boss will set his mad dog on you. whether you want to leave this life of crime or you’re enjoying the benefits, there is always the looming threat of torture and execution if you ever fuck up. and so you resign yourself to your fate. only for your depressed boss to go and kill himself. what do you do now?

realistically I don’t think that the executives are as mentally fucked up as mikey (though that is admittedly a really, really low bar). they’re all definitely mentally unwell, but not to the point of being actively suicidal. all the eyebags make them look super drained actually.

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the s62 generation is so interesting to me, it’s a shame we never really got to see in depth their dynamics. they’re found family but they make each other worse. like, they do genuinely care about each other, but because they’re so ‘violent’ and ‘brutal’ and they’re cold hearted killers, criminals, they don’t show it. and they have to keep up this image even within their little found family, because violence is what binds them together. it is the foundation of their relationship. if they’re not violent and brutal, then they’re not strong enough, not worthy to be part of the s62 generation. they’re quite literally each other’s greatest enablers, izana being the worst one out of all. pushing each other to do worse, to engage in more and more violence, forcing themselves permanently into a life of crime. (kakucho, the literal 14 year old Child, is the sole voice of reason and the entire team’s impulse control. but that’s later in tenjiku. and i’d argue he’s also izana’s enabler)

the forced distance between them due to this mental barrier is exactly why izana believed he had no one. that no one loved him and he was alone. it was only till the end that he saw kakucho as his family, someone who genuinely cared about and loved him. but he died not knowing that the s62 generation also held these feelings towards him, maybe not to the same degree and intensity as kakucho, but they certainly cared and loved him too. it’s blatantly shown through mochi, mucho and shion’s profile. but, again due to this mental barrier, they never expressed it. it was only after izana’s death that we saw proof of a genuine relationship between them. it’s why ran could only speak his true feelings about izana when he was dead. it’s why all members of the s62 generation stayed with izana’s corpse and willingly got themselves arrested. they could have ran like koko and sanzu, but they didn’t. they stayed and threw their freedom away for izana.

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i have a soft spot for shion solely because he’s just so. pathetic. like he got his ass beat three times. even akkun beat him. no hate to him but akkun should not be on the same level as a heavenly king. he has such delusions of grandeur that it comes across as overcompensating for insecurities or something. he has tummyaches (same). he is so loyal to izana that he’s quite literally izana’s dog. but it’s also sad bc according to his profile he genuinely likes and cares about izana. too bad we never get to see much of his reaction and processing of izana’s death. love the fact he gets a good ending working with orphans with the rest of the s62 generation. no idea how he went from being bloodthirsty to working with children but good on him for turning his life around. even through we don’t get to see it wakui when i get my hands on you i swear

[its-cocaine]

They're so trans it's crazy

[theworstfangirl]

I love how everyone just glosses over the fact that Shax Lied got six people hospitalised with a game. That's legitimately the wildest possible reason for someone to get put in the misfit class. Okay Mr. YuGiOh Season 0? Mr Yumeko Jabami?

[beatrixie12]

This is why he's my favorite, nobody ever talk about this either

[theworstfangirl]

I love how everyone just glosses over the fact that Shax Lied got six people hospitalised with a game. That's legitimately the wildest possible reason for someone to get put in the misfit class. Okay Mr. YuGiOh Season 0? Mr Yumeko Jabami?

[acediathemelancholy]

JazzLied whether romantic or platonic has now become 10x funnier in that Jazz's brother's antics apparently were the catalyst for Lied's elder sister's spiral into the worst kind of fascist cop. Who still blames Rock for her inability to date when canonically no one wants her because she is a known bad cop.

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the jump from tenjiku being a gang led by known convicted criminals with no qualms about killing children to a international non-profit organization to help orphans is actually insane. i get izana and kakucho forming it but the rest? hello?? what kind of reformation did they go through?? the amount of character development that had to have happened to lead to this drastic change, wakui you will Pay for having all of This offscreened. what i would do for a thorough exploration of the final timeline.

or did they just follow izana?…tenjiku really was a family huh. the executives/higher-ups i mean. they were prone to violence. violence was what they were good at maybe it was the only thing they were good at we will never know, but they left it all behind for izana.

(quick question: but are ran and rindou also part of tenjiku? like, are they also volunteers?)