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Not Alone Tonight ~ Chapter 8
Dazai X Reader 💞
After a long slow paced thirty minute walk we finally reached the place I called my second home which I shared with a couple of friends.
There was a total number of six of us with each having their own exclusive bedroom. We also had two shared bathrooms, one single toilet with a tiny sink and one large spacious kitchen with two well used coal black sofas and a TV monitor screen which was bought in by one of my friends from their own home.
As I reached out for my keys a wave of realisation hit me. I left the keys in my bedroom when I was rushing out to find Dazai.
"Oh!"
Dazai didn't say a word.
"I forgot the keys in my bedroom!" I exclaimed.
Dazai continued to stay silent.
"Ohhh what should we do! Maybe I'll message them but what if they are all asleep now? It is quite late....aghhh why did I leave them!"
Suddenly Dazai spoke up after being silent for awhile.
"[Y/N] over there"
Dazai's slender finger pointed at the blurry figure of a human through the door window which seemed to approach us closer and closer.
Then the door gently opened and I saw a familiar face. He was just a bare shadow a moment ago but now he had clear features. It was Luke.
His diamond blue eyes met mine. They were full of worry, fear and a slight hint of anger which was almost entirely hidden. His eyes were a little puffy which meant that he once again stayed up late last night probably drinking like he always does.
"[Y/N]? Did you forget your key? Why are you back so late? Everyone was worried!" He asked.
"Haha yeah I did...you know me Luke! I always forget things haha thanks for opening the door!"
"Yeah of course" his cheeks flushed similarly to the sunset I saw earlier. He always gets a little shy around me when I thank him which I find to be his sweetest trait.
"Your a real big help Luke! Like for real!" I gave him a wide happy smile as I lifted myself off the pathway into the house. I chucked my shoes to the side forgetting that Dazai was behind me. Once I realised that I did that in front of him I felt a surge of embrassment flood me.
"Wait" Luke stopped Dazai from entering.
"And who might you be?" He asked Dazai with an intense gaze.
"Oh well I'm-" I quickly cut halfway through Dazai's words like I cut through statements in Danganronpa games.
"Oh he is my friend! One of my old friends from school! He is just visiting [Insert where you live here]"
You see Luke can act quite overprotective and I'm not sure why. He woun't let me have a stranger over at my room but he'll let others do so which doesn't make sense?
So I had to make sure that he believed that Dazai was my good old friend. He can't know that Dazai is technically a stranger or should I say a fictional character which makes him sound even more suspicious!
"Oh your her friend yeah?"
Dazai gave Luke a slight nodd.
"Fine you can come in I suppose" his eyes wondered around the corridor until he met Dazai's chocolate brown eyes again. "Would you like to drink with me?"
"Drinking?? Why ask? Of course I would like to drink. Drinking is my hobby ~" he excitedly replied. Then he looked over at you and noticed your smile fade away.
"[Y/N] will you join us?"
"Oh well... I don't drink Dazai" I hesitantly responded..."I know that you love to drink so I woun't stop you but I woun't"
Dazai's eyes widened with shock.
"...you don't drink? But don't everyone?"
"Everyone but not me Dazai. I don't want to be like everyone. I'm not a big fan of drinking or the aftermath effects...and well you see I'm happy being sober" I smiled awkwardly back knowing that I'll probably be alone tonight in my room as Dazai will leave me to join Luke on a drinking game.
Dazai was silent for a moment. He looked like he was analysing the situation.
Then he turned back to face Luke.
"If [Y/N] woun't drink then neither will I...I don't want to make her feel left out after all that she has done for me. Sorry."
Luke's eyebrows rised. And his mouth line became straight like a ruler. His drinking proposal had never been declined like this. Everyone loves him and his drinking games. But now here he stood.
"Are you sure?? You see [Y/N] woun't mind..." Luke gave me a look which told me that I should say something.
"Dazai you don't have to...its ok you can enjoy yourself tonight you've had a long day!" I quickly faked a smile.
"No I woun't drink today as much as I would love to I can't make you feel uneasy." He firmly responded.
My [E/C] eyes glowed. I've been waiting for so long to hear someone say that they woun't drink. I know I shouldn't say this but seeing Luke like that makes me chuckle inside. Haha finally his drinking proposal got rejected! And I woun't be alone!
"Well then what shall we do [Y/N] chan? ~" he happily whistled.
"Oh yeah of course! What about you come to my room! You can leave your coat in my room and well you know..." I looked over at the pocket where the cotton white bandages were located.
"Sounds like a plan lead the way ~"
We walked passed Luke leaving him in his confused state and headed up the stairs to the second floor. We stopped at plain white door. A sign hanging with my name on it was almost sliding off the door handle.
"Here's my room"
I opened the door and let Dazai walk in first.
I closed and locked the door behind me to make sure that Luke woun't be able to enter or peek into my room. I also hurried to the window and closed it as well. My friends sometimes hang around in our small garden and I woudn't want them hearing our conversation. Then a thought just hit my head. I need to hide the bungo stray dogs manga and light novels! I quickly grabbed each book before Dazai could even have a chance to have a look and put them in a plastic bag which I found near the closet. I just need to keep an eye on this bag. I placed the bag inside my closet as he probably woun't look in there considering how private a girls closet can be.
Looking back at Dazai he was heavily examining my room. I could see his eyes linger from corner to corner as he walked around the small space.
Finally he came to a hult and spoke out.
"Your room is so lively. I like the use of blue in your room. Those posters with the hot air balloon with a bright blue sky, the blue double bed duvet with hummingbirds painted on it and the blue dinosaur plushie. It's very cute [Y/N]"
"Aha thank you! I tried to give my room a theme and in this case it's a light blue theme! The posters are of my favourite band BTS!"
"BTS?" he looked at me with a puzzled look.
"Oh haha of course you don't know them" I waved my right hand left to right.
Dazai sat on my soft bed trying to be extra careful to not mess anything up. He took off his coat, took the bandages out and placed the coat on a nearby chair.
"Hey Dazai let me help you!"
"Hmm?"
"Let me help you put on those bandages I know it must be tough doing it all by yourself all of the time and it's the least I could do for what you told me earlier!"
"Hmm sure [Y/N] why not"
I sat beside him and gently moved his left arm towards my lap. I took out the bandages and began cutting with the scissors which I grabbed before sitting down. Then I wrapped his left arm like a present. I did the same with the right arm.
"And I'm done!"
Dazai looked over at his arms "Haha thank you. You don't seem to be much of an expert tho! I've never seen anyone wrap bandages like this pfff" he laughed.
"Hey hey I know I'm not an expert but I tried!"
"I know but it's just" he coudn't stop laughing and smiling.
My eyes looked to the side I was so embarrassed. "Hey stop laughing!"
Then I grabbed my pillow and chucked it at his face.
"Oh your also feisty [Y/N]! ~" his arms waved around then he smirked I could almost imagine anime sparkles surrounding that face.
"You really are something Dazai!" I crossed my arms and huffed.
"Okay okay I'm sorry for laughing for real though thanks [Y/N] I haven't laughed that much in awhile~" he spoke out in a joyful tone.
"Fine fine I forgive you"
"You do??" Dazai got incredibly close to my face. His puppy eyes charmed me and I coudn't help but forgive him. I shyly nodded.
You Are So Human ~ Chapter 7
Dazai X Reader 💞
"Tell me how do you know me [Y/N]? How much do you know?" I tried to move a little away from his face as I panicked. I always panic when I get confronted. "I...I..." Dazai noticed how I was trying to move away so he bought himself even closer. So close that I could see his handsome face in high definition. His hands gripped the railings tighter.
"[Y/N] answer me please." His eyes were determined to get answers from me. It almost felt like one of those interrogations he held back during the days of the dark era.
"I can't tell you..." I quietly murmured.
I can't tell him that he is a fictional character while knowing how broken his character is in the story. I don't want to be just another monster hiding under his bed. I don't want to be another one of those. Then again he is a smart guy he will probably figure it out at some point. But I don't want it to be from me I don't want to be the one to tell him that Oda's death was written by someone in our world. He truly will be no longer human after hearing something like that. No I can't do that to him. I could kill him with my words I should be careful.
Dazai finally spoke out.
"Maybe I should try a different technique [Y/N]?"
My eyes widened in panic. What is he planning to do? He isn't in the Mafia anymore but what is he capable of doing to me?
Dazai kept my gaze fixed on his until he finally broke the deafening silence with a grin. "Geez I won't do anything [Y/N]. Who do you think I am?" His eyes softened. Since you mysteriously know me so well I'm guessing that you know that I am a changed man for awhile now" as he spoke his hands escaped the railings with tinted red finger tips from holding on to the railings tightly. He must have wanted answers badly but he had now realised that there is something preventing me from telling him the truth.
His arms began to wave around in a silly manner.
"I'm sorry if I scared you [Y/N chan] ~" he added.
"Now then I guess it's time for me to leave you my lady! I must head out into this wild world all by myself with nowhere to go!" He moaned. "Maybe I'll find a place to commit suicide under the moonlight now wouldn't that be a site! Goodbye [Y/N] it was nice knowing you!" He turned around with his back facing me. His delicate hands slid back into his pockets where the bandages I gave him were placed. His deep dark brown hair danced in the breeze. Hmm his hair is so soft almost like puppy fur which was ironic as he didn't like dogs.
"Wait!" I shouted hesitantly. I was anxious but I just found out that this was Dazai and despite the fact that, he just interrogated me I can't let him go like this what if he commits suicide in our world! I prevented him from doing it once but to prevent it from happening in general I should keep an eye on him until he returns to his own world.
"What is it [Y/N]?" he kept his back facing me as he spoke those words.
"You can stay with me! I live with my friends but I'm sure we could find a spot for you in the house temporarily!" I tightened my fists as I spoke out those words "Please I can't let you go like this...not yet anyway...please will you stay with me until your back in your world" I anxiously bit my lips. A surge of pain surrounded me as I bit a little too hard from worrying so much. My hands began to shake. They always do when I take risks. I hate it. I look so weird standing here shaking in public.
Dazai turned around with his mouth open as he was ready to respond to my words but he froze holding his expression frozen in time as he saw my hands shaking.
"[Y/N-]"
"I know I'm shaking...I'm sorry...I'll understand if you don't want anything to do with me...I'm so strange....I shake at absolutely anything-" I croaked.
Tears ran down my face. My skin became pale like a sheet of snow. I never cry in front of people! How am I crying now? Where are my sunglasses when I need them so that I could hide my teary [E/C] eyes and my runny mascara. I can't show him my vulnerable side maybe he'll use it to get information out of me. Hah. Look at me I look pathetic! I swiftly turned around in attempt to hide myself from Dazai. He is going to leave because I am like this...Hah.
I continued to shake until I felt a presence beside me. "[Y/N] look at me" I refused to look back as my eyes continued to tear up as I gazed at the sleeping ocean. By this point the sun faded away leaving only a speck of light in view.
"[Y/N]" I felt Dazai gently turn my body around. He began to take his coat off revealing his scars. They were all deep and tinted in various shades of pink. The darker shades revealed deeper wounds. Those abstract drawings on his arms must represent his suicide attempts. Each image seemed to tell a story and speak words that a human could never. He never showed these scars to anyone not even his closest friend Oda although I'm sure that he knew it all.
Still crying I once again tried to hide my pitiful face using my arms this time as I forced to look forward towards him now.
"What are you doing Dazai?" I barely managed because of my current state but I spoke out those words.
"Here you could hide your tears using my coat if you don't want me to see. Although I think that those tears are beautiful. So human. I'm jealous [Y/N] that you can express such emotions. Those transparent crystal tears decorate your face. They tell me that your human and that you're a wonderful person with a bright heart." He smiled as he handed over his overesized coat to me. My eyes widened at his words. Beautiful? Are they? And of course! Here I am acting like this forgetting that Dazai never got the chance to be human. From a young age he was taught to reject his emotions and instead become a soulless vessel for a killer. And even now he still doesn't get to express these emotions as he doesn't know how to anymore his emotions have now been corrupted. All he can do is fake a smile here and there instead of showing how he truly feels.
His coat was slightly heavy especially for someone like me. I am a little weak too.
"I'm sorry for crying in front of you like this forgetting about your situation Dazai..."
Dazai's hair covered his eyes for a slight moment until his face was fully visible again. "You don't need to be sorry [Y/N]. Embrace how you feel that's the only way you'll feel better. And I know that I shouldn't say this but..." he reached out to the coat and moved the hood away which hid my face. "I love seeing your humanity [Y/N]. And don't feel anxious about your shaking hands. That's so human. You probably thought about how vulnerable you look. You know that if I were an executive I would say that you are correct to think in such a way. But I am no longer an executive of the mafia and now I could finally tell you the truth rather than a manipulative lie. Your vulnerability is alluring [Y/N]. Those exposed emotions which signify that you're not a skeleton of a human with the same dead expression. You're alive."
My salty tears began to rush in and flood my whole face but now they seemed to drip like a waterfall. Dazai's words surrounded my waterfall with a rainbow. I see so many different colours. Each colour represented an emotion. Which one am I meant to feel? I wasn't sure but what I was definitely sure of was that crying felt good. It felt like medicine. Felt like a drug which made me feel high and happy.
"Well then shall we go to yours [Y/N]?" he placed his hand on my back to get me to shift my body forward.
"Ye...yes" I continued to sob but now I was sobbing because I wanted too. We slowly started to walk away leaving the railings and the bright yellow danger sign. Bright lights surrounded us from every corner. Bright yellow lamps brightened the Ferris wheel. My vision was blurry but I could still make out those warm colours.
"How pretty isn't it [Y/N]?"
I began to rub away my salty tears as I replied back to Dazai "It really is...I love being here at night although I'm normally alone here"
"Well you're not alone tonight" he smiled in a friendly way as he walked beside me only a few inches away.
Dreams Really Do Come True ~ Chapter 6
Dazai X Reader 💞
[Y/N] POV
"Your smile compliments a beautiful lady like you"
I knew that he would say such a thing to any women but it made feel relieved knowing it was the man who I thought I'll never meet "You really are him aren't you" I lightly laughed as he gently let go of me and helped me up. It really did feel like a dream as we stood in the frosty cold air. The clouds began to fade away revealing the bright ball of fire which slowly disappeared behind the chained fencing which separated us from the calm evening ocean waves. Looking over I spotted the sign "Danger no jumping" and once again I breathed a sigh of relief as I looked back at Dazai with a joyous look.
"Oh and here this is for you!" I handed over the plain white bandages to him.
"Thank you" He paused as he slid the bandages away into his large pocket as this coat was a little too oversized on his slim body.
"I really needed those bandages...ever since I got here I've had to wear this super warm coat and at times it's been driving me crazy but now because of this beautiful young lady I can finally take it off." Looking over at you he noticed that there was no element of surprise in your expression. "Hmmm I'm guessing that you already know why I've been wearing this coat." His hand wrapped around his soft silk hair as he spoke out those words.
Looking at him now he really did look otherworldly. He almost looked like a mystical statue. Maybe he was Medusa's lover.
"Oh by the way there has been something that I've been meaning to ask but what is your name beautiful? The curiosity is actually killing me!" His tone of voice changed into the goofier Dazai I knew from the detective agency. "I simply must know the name of the women who is simply perfect for a double suicide with me~"
I laughed as he spoke. "You don't have to flirt with me Dazai I know you do that with everyone but I do love this goofball version of you!"
Dazai looked at me with a surprised look "Oh so you know about how I flirt too? Haha well then what's your name?"
"Yes I do and my name is [Y/N] [Y/S]" I grinned as the heavenly artist behind me painted the sky in a gradient made up of pink, orange and blue as the sun collided with the peaceful sheet of water.
"[Y/N]? That's such a fitting name for you!~"
"Well [Y/N] chan~ would you like to..." he grabbed the Pier railing from both of my sides blocking off any possible exists keeping me at the centre. I could almost hear his steady heartbeat as he kept his cool despite being so close to a woman. He is a womanizer of course it's easy for him but it's not for me. He looked down at me with an intense serious expression.
"Tell me how do you know me [Y/N]? How much do you know?" I tried to move a little away from his face as I panicked. I always panic when I get confronted. "I...I..." Dazai noticed how I was trying to move away so he bought himself even closer. So close that I could see his handsome face in high definition. His hands gripped the railings tighter.
"[Y/N] answer me please." His eyes were determined to get answers from me. It almost felt like one of those interrogations he held back during the days of the dark era.
Nicole POV
"Feeeew she didn't figure out why I was truly here! Hahaha I tricked her" I spoke out proudly with a smirk on my face.
"That was a close one! I can't let her know that I am secretly a Bungo Stray Dogs fan or should I say that I am here to see a certain someone which is even worse"
My eyebrows lifted high into the heavens wiggling. I grinned to myself as I stood at the centre of the milk isle. "Wait why am I in the milk isle? Or should I say the mulk isle haha wow why am I laughing to myself."
"I really am a dumbass at times" as I spoke those words I started to return back to my more timid personality as I started to feel several pairs of eyes gazing at me. Are they judging me? Probably but that's just me isn't it. I tilt my head down to look at my phone to change the song into 'Together Forever by Rick Atsley'. I love listening to him he genuinely makes me feel good. I know I sound basic saying that but hearing him say that 'I will always do what's best for you' makes me all warm inside.
With a slow pace I headed for Rose De Jaune's famous pasta isle with my bright green shopping trolley. Why? Cause my favourite noodles were located there! I reached out to grab the brand which I would normally get with my mum. Honestly I am amazed that I managed to find this isle by myself. I normally follow my mum. Turning around I saw a man with messy black hair and emerald green eyes staring straight into my soul. "Oh my life he is so sexy!"
"..."
Did I just say that out loud?
I said that out loud???
What kind of dumbass am I??
I quickly looked back at my noodles nervously. My eyebrows wiggled without permission. I'm so embarrassing! *I slapped my eyebrows*
The sexy man watched me and couldn't help but laugh hysterically "Why are you slapping your eyebrows? You see I got lost while I was looking for my suicidal maniac friend and here I find you. You. Miss crackhead slapping her own eyebrows? Don't get me wrong." He moves in closer with an energetic smile staring right into my nervous wrecked face. "You are real pretty but you also seem a little funny...but what's even more important is that your grabbing the most finest noodles in town and I love those" he starts to hum a song as he thinks of those delicious noodles.
I began to feel more at ease as he mentioned those words "Yo-...You love noodles as much as me?" I asked shyly as I was speaking to such a perfect man. Sexy and he loves food? He is my ideal type. Looking back at him again I noticed him wearing a basic vanilla white t-shirt. Okay he is basic like me? Love that.
"Now then beautiful Miss" as he spoke he unwrapped the Cadbury chocolate which he was holding since the beginning of this encounter. He must have picked up those on the way to the pasta isle. Then he began to chomp into the bar of sweetness. I gasped. What is he doing? Why is he biting chocolate which he hadn't bought? I was too nervous to ask so all I could do was stand there with an expression full of shock.
"Have you seen my friend Osamu Dazai? He is a tall slender man with brown slightly wavey hair. He has also them typical bangs which frame the face and gather a little at the centre."
Wait.
What did I just hear?
Dazai?
Then could it be?
Could this be who I was looking for?
"Ranpo?" I accidently shouted out.
Blue Wharf ~ Chapter 5
Dazai X Reader 💞
*pant* I'm almost *pant* I'm almost there!
It's so...so hard to breathe...*pant* my body is definitely struggling to keep up with all of this...it's reaching it's limit... I should have listened to my dad when he mentioned how weak my body will become if I don't take care of it by working it through exercise but none of that matters right now I need to get there on time!
Please.
I beg you.
Don't attempt suicide we don't know if you'll be safe...please if that's you Dazai...wait for me!
After sometime had passed I had finally reached the Blue Wharf Pier. By this time the sky wasn't a light cyan blue anymore but rather the sky was painted in the shade of a violent gray which hid the sun from human view.
I bend down trying to get back my breath after running for so long but I knew that I had not completed the task of finding him yet so I had to keep going.This break had to be cut short. As I steadied and lifted myself upwards I started to walk towards the busy Pier.
Exotic colourful attractions filled out every inch of the scene. I could see paint tears on the walls, rides and stalls indictating how well loved Blue Wharf was over the years. Little angels were holding on tightly to the delicate aluminium necks of their magical flying horses which gently lifted up and down. Their rosy cheeks and their small smiles made the whole city brighter and more beautiful.
I could sense a warm smell coming from the stall decorated in blue and white tiled patterns. I recognise the smell. Fish and Chips. My favourite seaside treat. I would love to gulp down the warm and juicy Haddock but right now but I must avoid getting too distracted as I head over to the furthest end of the pier where the sea level is at it deepest by the Pier.
I looked around like a mother who lost her toddler at the supermarket. I looked around anxiously as I wasn't sure if I was late or if that was even him.
No good I couldn't see him.
My tears began to roll out of my gleaming [E/C] eyes without permission.
He wasn't here and I wasn't even sure if I were right. I have no answers. As usual I never get any answers. I could only imagine without any confirmation.
I slouched down near a tourist sightseeing telescope. My makeup started to crease and my eyes became heavy.
Suddenly, someone gently touched my shoulder. "Who are you? Why are you touching me?" I tried to put myself back together as I hate having anyone apart from my parents see me in a vulnerable state as I felt like they could use my state against me.
"I was trying to nullify your ability to make you feel better" his voice said in a kind and comforting tone.
"Huhhh? My ability what do you mean I don't have one" I started to wipe away my salty tears as my vision was blurry so I couldn't quite make out the face behind the familiar voice.
As I looked up I could see his dark brown eyes filled with worry as he glared at me whilst crouching. I could feel the compassion from the eyes alone.
"Dazai?"
His face changed into a more serious expression as he heard that name.
"How do you know my name?" he asked directly facing me whilst be crouched on the ground to my level.
The weight that I was carrying today seemed to disperse from my body. My eyes glowed and my mouth line curved upwards with relief.
"I....I am so happy..." Tears appeared on my face yet again but this time they were full of hope. "Is this really real? Have I finally got an answer to one of my questions? I was right??"
Dazai was looking at me with a puzzled look. He didn't understand what I was talking about or why I was crying but he knew that no matter what you were were feeling better.
He kneeled in closer to you and surprisingly gave you a comforting embrace. As he embraced you he whispered into your left ear "I don't know what caused your tears but I am glad that my ability worked on you. And you should smile more. A smile can compliment a beautiful lady like you"
Rose De Jaune ~ Chapter 4
Dazai X Reader 💞
'[Y/N] go look for him why are you still here?! Maybe he is actually there like come on go girl!'
I rushed out of my house leaving my dark blue coat and my brand new keys in my personal room. As I knelt down to tie my shoes laces I noticed my friend just standing there like an Enderman just glaring at me with bare confusion as I was trying to get my pastel trainers on as quickly as I could. 'Are you okay?' she asked me with an anxious tone.
'Oh yeah yeah I'm fine! Oh the bandages where are they...'
I hurriedly searched around the kitchen for the bandages remembering that I just left in some random spot as I was rushing to call Nicole when I got back. After looking around for 5 minutes I noticed them on the polished white coffee table. 'Aha there you are!' I smile as I look at the 10 pack of bandages.
'Let's go'
To my friend I sounded a bit like a lunatic as I was talking to myself and smiling at this static pack of bandages she probably thought that I was finally going crazy...I mean I've always been considered a bit weird I guess. As I step out into the chilly air I instantly regret leaving my coat behind. I am actually so silly at times.
As the walk to the grocery store is rather long I decided to call Carys as I once again strolled along. 'Hello' Carys spoke.
'Carys! Why do you always start the call so formally this isn't the conference!' I laughed out loud forgetting that I was being watched by several wondering eyes from the nearby road. When I call my friends I lose every feeling relating to anxiety at that moment I feel like I could do anything without giving a single care in the world.
After having Carys remark 'Wow you're going for some guy at the grocery store you are actually bare weird.' I realised that I really am a bit on the strange side at time. Plus I am trying to find someone who resembles my fictional character like? I am actually something else. My excitement went down a little as I thought about that and before I knew it I was back at the grocery store.
I stepped inside the huge store called Rose De Jaune and checked every single isle thoroughly but the more I checked the more my hope became despair I almost felt like Suuchi from Danganronpa. I kept looking around until I saw a familiar face 'Hey thingy majiggy!' I knew who this was it was Nicole that's right we live in the same city. We used to live far apart and now we live only two blocks away from each other. Carys lives near us too but closer to the seaside.
'Hey stop calling me that! And why are you here you literally have a convenience store outside of your house as in opposite your house. That's suspicious Nicole! Also we were literally on a call 40 minutes ago and you told me to find him but why are you here?' I give her the look I know something's up with this girl there's always something.
'Oh it's nothing, nothing at all. Now have you found Dazai?' she responded with a smirk.
'Oh yeah no I haven't yet...I almost forgot why I'm here for a second' *sigh* I'm actually so forgetful at times! *facepalm*
'Well maybe there is another spot he could be in??' she attempted to comfort me during my despair.
'Oh maybe if I go to-'
I rushed out of Rose De Jaune in a hurry...I began to feel anxious...if this is the real Dazai then what if his ability doesn't work in our world and he-
The First Encounter ~ Chapter 3
Dazai X Reader 💞
As I stepped out of the grocery store I continued to stare blankly at the pavement up until the point where something seemed to purposefully block my way causing me to come to a hault.
Looking up my [E/C] eyes come in contact with these immersive brown eyes. After a moment I had realised that must be the same man who bought Japanese yen to the supermarket.
As he was blocking my way his eyed wondered from left to right. It felt like was trying to analyse everything that he could see in front of slender body.
After a moment of silence his shoulders seemed to relax and his mouth line curved upwards.
"I'm sorry miss for blocking your way it's just that your dazzling beauty has been radiating ever since I saw you inside that store picking out them fine bandages" *his slim fingers pointed towards the pack of bandages which I gently held in my hands as if they were the most precious object to me.
Awkwardly I tried to respond back to the tall stranger "Ah haha yeah I need them for something..."
Then as I was about to take the step to walk away he swiftly moved into a different position to make his eyes match with my eye level. The smile is expressed as he froze in that position reminded me of a school boy.
"Ah do I know you? I need to get going..." I quietly spoke out those words feeling awkward not knowing how I should act in this station. Its not every day you have a random stranger act like this.
I once again attempted to walk away but before I could get far enough I heard him speak out again.
"You almost got me thinking that we could commit a double suicide"
I froze.
Those words! They sound like something Dazai would say from Bungo Stray Dogs! What am I hearing? Maybe I misheard what he said?!
I swiftly turn back around this time I was the one who analysed him before I spoke out "what did you just say??"
My tone of voice this time was clear as day. I wasn't speaking quietly anymore as I was determined to make sure that I got the answer that I wanted.
He moved his slender hands into the pockets of his coat as he stood and watched me from afar before smiling yet again and speaking out the phrase whoch I never thought I would hear outside of my anime "You seem perfect for a double suicide!~"
I...I was stunned.
Who is he? He wasn't wearing anything resembling the clothes Dazai would wear in the show. He wore a cheap oversized white shirt with tacky blue jeans, a black wool scarf and a coal black coat covering up every inch of where the arms would be.
This isn't Dazai then why would he mention double suicide to me? Then again now that I have analysed him properly. His hair did seem to resemble Dazai's hair with bangs framing the sides of his face with some covering the centre of his forehead.
The colour of his hair being a deep luxurious brown colour with slightly wavey ends.
His eyes seem to glee at the word 'suicide'...maybe? No no he probably just a lunatic or something? How could he be Dazai! As much I love him he is fictional.
Those words do make my heart sink into the deep ends of my body whenever I think of them. Although I would love him to be real.
"Well I'll get going now!" I ended up speed walking away from the stranger as I was mentally conflicting with my thoughts. The stranger resembled Dazai but he can't be real he just can't be.
I got back into my soft undone bed thinking about every moment that I had with that mysterious man. I've never had anyone say the words 'double suicide' to me.
'Double Suicide'...its all that I wish to hear from someone ever since I started watching Bungo Stray Dogs back in June last year. Just imagine double suicide with a handsome man >~<
*ping*
"[Y/N]! You forgot to call me!" Oh yeah I forgot to call her it was Nicole. I promised to call her after my trip to the grocery store.
*ring ring*
"Hola mi amiga!" I spoke to Nicole for several hours explaining to her who I saw today and I told her about my conflicting thoughts. She told me that it could have been Dazai and I should have said something instead of just walking away. Maybe she is right? If it's not him could this be the one who I've been waiting for? *sigh* "But Nicole how will I find him now..."
Bandages ~ Chapter 2
Dazai X Reader 💞
I was on my way to the grocery store wearing my favourite skinny blue jeans, with a complimenting cotton white sweater, my pastel pink trainers with clean white laces and of course a dark blue coat to complete the outfit.
The long wide pathway seemed to be never ending as I strolled along. I could feel the frigid breeze gently moving my [H/L] [H/C] hair from side to side. The sun waved from across the sky attempting to get my attention as my focus was completely on the solid concrete pavement. I stared at the pavement blankly because I was trying to avoid eye contact with the drivers passing by in the nearby road.
Finally, I had reached the grocery store. I picked up the fresh green basket and went on inside. I knew the reason behind why I was here today. I wanted to create an outfit inspired by Dazai's outfit from my favourite anime Bungo Stray Dogs. I already had a sand coloured jacket, a black top and a white top to go underneath but there was a very important detail missing which were the iconic bandages. I must get those bandages! As I walked over to the medicine section I began scanning the area for the bandages. "Aha! There they are! Hmmm let's see...this one's a 5 pack and this one's a 10 pack...maybe a 10 pack would be enough-"
As I was trying to pick out a good set of bandages I noticed a hand swiftly grab the 10 pack set of bandages. As I looked to the right it was a very tall man with a slender body. As I was trying to analyse his apperance he was long far gone into a different aisle. "Hmm. Well I guess that I'll also grab the 10 pack of bandages" I grabbed the pack and began walking over to the self checkout section.
My [E/C] eyes started to wonder around as I waited in the seemingly long queue. All of a sudden I heard a store worker shout out "Sir, if you don't have the money then you simply cannot buy anything here!" As I turned to see who she was referring to I could see the same slender and tall man looking rather confused. "I have the money! Here!"
I see him hand over a wallet filled with some cash but not a lot it seemed like he wasn't too wealthy.
The store worker stared blankly at the wallet before releasing words which I didn't expect 'This...this is Japanese Yen! This isn't Japan Sir!" The man's eyes widened "You don't accept my money here? Where am I?"
The young women sighed. "Sir, it seems your either not in the right state of mind or you are pranking me but we are in [insert the country you live in]."
The young man seemed to enter a state of grave shock as he left without a word leaving the bandages at the store.
My Life In a Nutshell ~ Chapter 1
Dazai X Reader 💞
It was a usual morning.
I woke up and attended my 3D modelling class. It was 9am and I almost fell asleep as I was waiting for my turn to speak up. As much as I loved to 3D model this class felt like I was imprisoned by expensive high quality bars of iron. It was a fancy experience where I lost my freedom. All of a sudden I heard my name "[Y/N]! Are you even listening to me? You'll never pass like this!" My face turned into a pale soulless expression as I watched my teacher speak such words. I showed him what I had done and rushed back to my bed grabbing on tightly to anything that I could grab onto like my pastel blue dinosaur plush Coco, my pillow and my messy blanket.
"I don't want to feel like this but I just can't stop...no matter what I I could never satisfy anyone...if only...just only I could escape..."
I gently reach out for my phone and search 'Dazai Clips'on YouTube. My mouth line curves upwards as I see his brown soft hair, those immersing eyes and those bandaged arms which love to wave around. Then suddenly a clip of him singing his favourite song turns on. I laugh as my friends pass by my room. I hear my friend shout out "What's so funny at 10am [Y/N]?"... I put my hand near my mouth "Oh its nothing it's just....it's just my favourite boy from my favourite anime" I continue smiling up until the point where I hear my friend say "Oh haha of course... well I'm off to see my boyfriend at his place see ya!"...My mouth line all of a sudden became straight as my heart sunk just a little bit. "Yeah have a good time" I smiled but really I'm lonely. I've been trying to find someone for me but it never turned out well. Once I liked this guy who was rather similar to me. Whenever our eyes would meet time would freeze and I know I know that sound's cliché but for real it was like that. It was not a fantasy but a reality up until everything went wrong. I miss him but I know that he would be here if he loved me the way I loved him.
Now I just sit around here trying to distract myself with anything that I can. I've got several hobbies. I love to draw. Animals, characters, anything really it just makes me happy. I've even managed to create a whole world filled with characters with my friend. And I must say my character Ace is one heck of a man haha. I also adore fashion. Like putting together outfits from the clothes I own its so fun! I would recommend it to anyone who would love to try it! Photography is great too. I often go out for walks at the beach to capture moments to show to my parents later. I just love seeing their genuine smiling faces as they look through the photos. It fills me with a warm feeling inside where I feel like I can do anything at the moment that's how happy I get. My parents are the ones who have been here for me since forever and it breaks my heart how they have to see me in that state where I feel like I shouldn't be in this world... They've done so much to keep me happy and yet I easily go back into that state.
Finally I also simply love listening to music and editing music videos. Music makes me makes me feel strong and motivated. I also often feel like a protagonist from some anime but... music also played a big role in my previous love story and all I can say is that it definitely made me fall harder.
*Ping*
Hmm? Who would be awake at this time? 'My maths teacher is actually a wet towel like he just gave me an assignment to get done in two days...in two days what is this?? Who does he think he is?' Oh haha I know exactly who it is. It's my best friend Carys. I laugh a little but I try to act serious as I reply 'Damn what the heck why! *insert angry emoji*. Then I receive another *ping* it's from Nicole...of course it's a voice message. I normally hate receiving voice messages because it takes so long to listen to them but despite what I say it does cheer me up. It's just that...hearing her reaction is so funny to me it's like listening to my favourite YouTuber. *ping* Carys sent a voice message back. As I lie on my soft bed I listen to their voice messages. They are both funny to listen to. This is what I needed to hear my friends.
I've always tried to find friends like these. I've been in several friendship groups but none of them made me this happy during an early morning.
We have Carys who is actually such a sassy queen at times and I love that about her like her lines are all so iconic. I remember in college I couldn't stop using her lines haha. She is also such a kind soul like as soon as I feel like the world is collapsing in front of my eyes she sends me such sweet message like if someone were to walk into my room whilst I read them they would just see me both laughing and crying as she often inserts a few of our inside jokes here and there. Haha even thinking about it makes me happy so happy.
And then we have Nicole who I originally met on Instagram. She is so funny and I love hearing stories about her life as she is such an exciting person and yet she still doesn't believe me! She has been here with me through my mistakes and more and she is the same friend whom I made a world of characters with like imagine having a friend who you can make a whole world with?
These two have kept me going and smiling and I couldn't ask for better friends. If I ever lose them I don't know what I would do. I would be crashed they are way too precious to me.