I PROMISE I NEVER DIED sometimes the void just swallows me and wifi isn't working there 🥹 i'm doing fine, thank you! hoping it stays that way and hoping to write again 🫶
hihii, i was wondering if this account is still active? I haven't seen any uploads or anything in a while and I wanna know if you're doing well !!
You don't have to answer this, just checking up on your wellbeing and reminding you that its okay to take breaks!!! !(^o^)! take care of yourself!!! 🫶
aa thank you for checking up on me! i am seeing this late but i really appreciate it 🫶 i am slowly getting my life back on track after some rocky months and i plan on becoming active here again, just struggling to find words to write!
Hello-hello! How are you? Are you still running your blog?
hi! honestly, life is a wild ride but i somehow got out! i am planning on becoming active again, just need the writing juices to flow (which is hard i guess)
i'm fully aware that i'm not the first one to draw this and i am likely not the last one, either. but i had to do this. (confession time, i never saw the barbie movie but this hoodie was legit everywhere lol) i drew this a while ago but never posted it.
I'M NOT A PRACTICED ARTIST EEE. DON'T JUDGE TOO HARD PRETTY PLEASE.
i have no words i posted and vanished AGAIN i am deep into the void but but BUT i am good !! i have SO many things to say so i think it's time to become a regular here again and torture the tags :0
i am not a practiced artist and i don't draw often but i couldn't sleep again and i kinda just decided to pick up my pencil and draw kaneki. is nothing special i know but have a sleeveless turtleneck kaneki nevertheless !!
kaneki with a reader whos love language is giving physical touch? SIGN ME UPPPP 💳💳💥💥💳💥💳💥💳💥💥💳💥💳💥💥💳💥💥💳⁉️⁉️
anon you awakened my brain <3
RESURRECT THE SUN.
— pairing ; kaneki ken x human!gn!reader
— summary ; kaneki's life was shrouded in misery, but your way of loving him shines a little light on his forever darkness.
— cw ; fluff, just fluff, kaneki is a little touch-starved, i went with headcanons ( i don't even know if this was intended as a request but i don't really care, if someone feeds me kaneki brainrot i write )
there wasn't much reason to be happy for kaneki.
his life was a mess. he was a mess.
his pathetic state was a result of torment and pain, everlasting misery piling up from one trauma after another.
and then there was the loneliness that came with it. half ghoul, half human; torn between worlds, he felt like he didn't fit in anywhere.
until he met you.
a silly human who somehow accepted his every side, who embraced his ghoul side just as much as his human side. you didn't treat him like a monster, you treated him as if he was your equal.
falling in love with you was so easy for him, and much to his surprise, it wasn't unrecruited. you had such a big heart, big enough to let in a self-proclaimed monster.
and suddenly, his life got a little better.
unexpected rays of sunshine fell upon his path as you lit up his days with simply your smile alone. he thought he didn't need more than that. but as you grew closer and more comfortable around each other, you developed a new way of showing your love.
physical touch.
kaneki never expected himself to be so touch-starved, but as you open up and grow more clingy, he comes to find how deprived he has been throughout his life. no one ever really showed him love, and he basically only knows pain and torture.
so for you to touch him with such tenderness and love, a whole new world opens for him. a world he thought he doesn't deserve, but you tell him the opposite and never cease showing him exactly that.
whether you hug him, cling to his arm, pat his head, ruffle his fluffy pale hair, hold his hand and play with his fingers absentmindedly, he loves it all.
he melts against you, leans into your touch like a lost puppy, finally finding it in him to relax even just a little. his troubled mind calms in your embrace and he almost feels human when he's with you.
you're not holding back with physical touch, showering the half-ghoul with affection he's never gotten before. it just works so well; kaneki is so insecure in a relationship since he truly believes he doesn't deserve love, and the fact that your love language is physical touch gives him the reassurance he needs.
your way of loving him is open and sincere, and the fact that you're never hesitant to physically show him how much you love him slowly helps him believe that he too deserves it.
Indeed the chair kicking man, forniture doesn't last that much at his side
he intrigues me to no end.
regretfully i never got far enough into the manga to encounter him (when i get my wage i will go feral and buy manga to pick up where i left off) but he's just hot and i never wanted to be a piece of furniture so badly i am joking ofc.
there's just something about him. no longer silly little troubled neki. still a snack, though. i love kaneki in every form and shape and personality and what more. he will always be my skrunkly.
— summary ; it had come to your attention that kaneki started to wear black nailpolish, so you insist on doing his nails. yes i know his nails aren't black because of nailpolish but let's pretend for the sake of my fluffy brainrot.
— cw ; fluff, incorrect lore but i don't care, est. relationship
“i still don’t understand why you insisted on doing this,” kaneki mumbled, staring at his hand that currently rested in yours. “it’s a tedious job, if you’d ask me.”
“and yet you do it every few weeks or so,” you countered mildly. “i just wanted to do it for once.”
honestly, ever since your boyfriend began to wear pitch black nailpolish on his fingernails, you’d been itching to do his nails, even if it was just once. you weren’t all that into make-up and stuff, but painting his nails just seemed fun to you, for some reason. it was a silly little thing you could do together, a shared moment that felt human.
dating a ghoul – okay, a half-ghoul – brought forth quite some drama. kaneki’s mental breakdowns, the times you had to patch up his injuries (you knew he could heal himself, but your worried self just wanted to tend to his wounds, just in case), the random moments of realization that he ate people, the knowledge that he had so many enemies who wanted to see him perish. barely a day went by peacefully, and your stress levels had risen dangerously since you started dating kaneki.
it was okay, you always told yourself. you regretted absolutely nothing. but you couldn’t help but crave some mundane moments every now and then. moments that would feel human, enjoying the simplicity they brought along. now was such a moment, and you felt delighted to simply do his nails.
the bottle of pitch black nailpolish stood on the kitchen table, and you held the cap between your thumb and index finger while the other hand supported kaneki’s. it rested in the palm of your hand delicately, as if he couldn’t actually believe you were about to do this – the weird look in his eyes gave it away; he didn’t understand why this brought you so much joy. but he gave in with a small sigh.
“well, go on, then,” he said, wiggling his fingers to draw your attention towards them.
you let out a quiet yay and then got to work. the brush swiped over the nail of his thumb, and you did your very best not to mess up and spill nailpolish all over the skin surrounding it. you weren’t at all experienced when it came to this, but you were determined to make it look good.
as soon as his thumb was finished, you moved on to his index finger. his hand was cold in yours, but it brought you a strange sense of comfort; it was such a kaneki-thing, the way his cool skin made contact with yours as he let you hold his hand. this is what you were talking about. it was such a simple and sweet moment, one you would cherish for a long time when it was over. you’d think back to it with a smile when times got rough again.
with one hand finished, you now brought your attention to the other. kaneki placed it in yours gently and watched intently how the brush danced over his nails not-so-gracefully, leaving a trail of thick, black nailpolish.
the entire ordeal didn’t take long; you were finished before you knew it.
“all done,” you grinned, screwing the cap back onto the bottle and taking a moment to admire your work.
frankly, it was a mess, but kaneki smiled at you regardless. he was such a nice guy, too nice to tell you that his nails looked like some sort of crime scene. he’d probably have to redo it himself, but that didn’t matter. it was the moment that counted, and it had been worth it. you had fun painting his nails.
little did you know that the half-ghoul hadn’t taken his eyes off of you for a moment, for you looked absolutely adorable in his eyes. tongue poking from between your lips as you were fully focused, the smile you offered him when you were done. he, too, had enjoyed it, for reasons that were so different yet the same. he still didn’t understand why painting his nails had seemed to fun and important to you, but he was happy you insisted on doing it.
he’d definitely let you do it more often, when another moment of peace presented itself.
