Life update i guess cause i'm not online right now from still not having motivation to draw, mmd, or just talk in general. I seperates from my ex i have been with for 10 years, 2 months ago, and i am now living with my mom🥺🙏😭❤️❤️
And ny health? It's not good. This healthcare in my town dissmissed me from getting stronger medications for acute pain cause i have been lifting heavy sh*t when i moved in, i got nothing, i noticed just a few weeks after they didnt give a shit about helping me that ny pelvic have moved och is stuck like crooked/tilted to the left, like when i stand with a straight back one could see emediently my body is left leaning from my pelvic moving. No clue how they are gonna fix this for me, but i bet a correction surgery cause there is no way in hell someone could manipulate it back in place, its been stuck like this for lile 2 months now cause this healthcare here sucks AF, it's a nightmare and i am so so fatiged and exhausted to even fight for help. My pain have gotten much much worse and it's been spreading to my right side, so kinda like my pain is eating away at my body, it's taken over larger areas like ny whole pelvic, hips, even worse back pain, neck, ribs, legs, feet, arm and hands. My whole left side is affected by pain and loss of sensation. My leg is so vad i cant even tell if it's hot or cold when touching ny legs and my reflexes are slower than my right side. Only positive that came out of this was that my P.T that examined my pelvic, hips and back noticed it's gotten worse by only 2 months, and she confirmed it's been spreading out, she gonna contact me after next week after my doctors appointment to look over my medications and plans on what to do with me. Despite all this, my doctors refuse to give me stronger meds even with all this k have written, like dude how much more are you gonna torture me, my pelvis is fkn stuck to the side and makes me left leaning, and it is cutting off my nervroots and squeeze them, which has caused this whole mess with my leg not having any sensation and brutal pain. It's just a mstter of time before something happens to my right leg, cause it's slowly for everyday passing getting more painful to walk on it too cause it's been over worked and i am putting all my weight on it cause i cant walk properly with my left. I csnt support on the left one at all cause it hurts so bad i have fainted for a few secs outside when i tried to walk my dog. I cant go longer than passing by my neighbours house cause my body is so effed up st this point, idk how these idiots managed to destroy my body further and getting it in a pretty bad state within 2 months only, god only knows how this is gonna look like in 2 months. Medical neglect is fkn insane. My old healthcare gave me morfin for akute pain to get me to walk ASAP do i dont destroy my other leg and so i could sleep. I am sleep deprived from this also, cause i cant sleep when i'm in constant pain and yet they dont do anything. Like not only this but i have sinus takycardia which is your heart/pulse is beating way to fast, and i am medicated for it, and it is important i have my heart meds especially since i am on ADHD medication. I called last week they have to prescribe my old heart meds i had before (the new on made ne choke and couldnt breathe, it was a mess, i got breathing problems from it), and wheb i walked to the drugstore to fetch my meds they still havnt given me my heart medication prescription, so i had to call them and scold them out like dude i asked you guys A WEEK AGO TO FIX IT, CAUSE I HAVE HEART PROBLEMS AND I'M OB ADHD MEDICATION AND THIS IS NOTHING TO SIT AND IGNORE CAUSE I WILL END UP IN THE E.R AGAIN FOR MY HEART. I hate this. I am struggling a lot IRL, and i'm sorry i havnt answerd anyone or posted new art or mmd videos but i am so do drained and exhausted from the break up and we moved apart, economic problems, heatbreak, crying, panic attacks, stress, all my apointments, and being stuck in my old town with a healtcare that dosnt do shit to help me besides sending me to my P.T all the fkn time and get tortured from her examing me (they have to irritate injuries to see how bad it is, where it is, text reflexes and so on)
I am just so tired, and i apologize if anyone thought i was mad, i promise i'm not, i'm busy IRL and have barely interacted with ppl. I'm pissed & tired. And i am in so much pain idk what to do with myself anymore, i cry daily and even cry my self to sleep but that wont last long, this pain keeps waking me up, and wont let me fall asleep.
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