I’ve just realised that, I was used by my one of my “best friends” just because of his needs.
He was never interested in coming back to my life because he was interested in me, he came back to my life because he was alone and he needed someone to make him a favor.
And then, I was there, in the front row of losers waiting for him to realise, and to remember, that I’ve been in love with him for almost 5 years, and he being aware of that for all this years, and me, waiting for him for a mill of love and empty interest for me.
After I helped him, I lost sight of his life once again. He decided to disappear from my life once again, this was the 5th time that he did that, he likes to do that.
It is true that people just come back with his ghosts to hunt people from time to time, and just to make sure that, I’m still there, alone, waiting for him to look back at me and to remember my existence.
And after all these years, I already know how things work with him, with this “special kind of person”.
But you know what? I’m already so tire of waiting for fake hopes and living with illusions.
I let you free, my love. And I hope, you’ll find someone you might love so much, and that deserves all the beautiful things that I once dream to have with you.
I’ll always wish you the best, and I hope that, maybe, by the day that you’ll come back to my life, I’ll be so full and happy that your return won’t break my peace once again, and you’ll understand that, the best thing that you can do for me is stay away from me and don’t hurt my feelings once again, feelings that were so real, by a heart that once loved you so much, so blindly and pure.
I love you, forever.
