The psychosurgeon greeted the child as she stepped out of the chamber. Sheâd elected to keep a slight scarânothing but a faint white line, but anyone whose opinion she cared about would remember what it meant. For the next six weeks, they were gone. The itch, the squirming, screaming itch to bite her lip in sets of three⊠she nibbled herself experimentally and felt nothing but a slight twinge.
Her mother knelt down, placing worn hands on her shoulders. An affectation, as much as the surgery scar. She never cared what it meant before.Â
âHow do you feel, sweetie?â She asked.
The child tilted her head. As if empathy was a pea rolling around in her skull, and now that it had been placed there, she could hear it rattling about.
âIâŠâ She tried the words. âI love you,â she said.
Her mother did not cry. The child appreciated that. She had chosen to raise a sociopath. She fed her, sheltered her, taught her how to move through the world. The child would support her motherâs continued existence, because doing so provided her in return with resources and protection.
She was cured, now. And the meaning of âI love youâ twisted in her gut, sending her stumbling to hands and knees.Â
Her father thought she was overcome with joy. Her mother, she could see her face, knew the child felt nothing of the sort. The child feltâdisgust. The itch was cured. So she wanted to claw open her gullet and rip the parts of her that were her out and leave an empty, smiling sack of skin for some other reason.
âTurn me back,â she gasped.
Her mother faltered. âSweetie?â
âTURN ME BACK.â She staggered back into the pod. The psychosurgeon chimed twice as she stumbled inside. âYouâyou donât love me. You donât. You donât, donât, donât. You never did!â
She was calm again once the procedure reversed. But she would never forget the way they looked at her when she was like them. The unbridled relief. The boundless love.
Theyâd never looked at her like that before she changed. She suspected they never would again.
(psst! This is the story of Teria Sannate. If you want to see who she grows up to be, the story starts here: https://www.tumblr.com/meowcats734/816137514432774144/she-would-never-claim-to-be-the-worlds-greatest?source=share.)