Mocah

Canadian AroAce She/They 🍉🍉 I was born on October 12th! p000507/MILGRAM fan-page

[mocah439]

Hi! My name is Mocah and I'm a AroAce canadian fanfic writer (I'm also the writer of the 'Wishes Granted' and '13-SET' AU!) I mainly write on AO3 for MILGRAM! (My favourite characters are the wardens!)

I've come to feed this fandom with some dark/toxic fluff. In other words I write dark AUs. (Thanks dark SBI for being my inspiration.)

(I do NOT condone nor am I trying to glorify ANY of the actions in my stories. These are supposed to be unsettling and I will treat them as such. Which is also why any proshippers or darkshippers who appear will be blocked.)

> Feel free to request stories/headcanons (or just wanna talk to me or send something) in my askbox

(Reminder that most of my stuff is Es-centric! I mostly do p000507 stuff after all.)

Things I will not do below

No!

- Smut

- R*pe/non-con

- Proships/comships

- Ships (just not good at writing ships thats all.)

- X readers

- X OCs

[theloverislost]

as we are rapidly approaching pride month, here’s an obligatory reminder!

AROMANTIC PEOPLE

ASEXUAL PEOPLE

AND AROACE PEOPLE

ALL BELONG IN THE LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY

I WILL REMOVE EVERY BONE IN YOUR BODY IF YOU SAY OTHERWISE

[mocah439]

I need to lock in

I've been writing lots of fluff lately... I'm letting my dark fluff audience down...

[mocah439]

guess the fic idea I'm writing

[mocah439]

I need help to get out of writers block..

So my inbox is open! You can send headcanons or requests in there if you desire, I mostly write Es-centric dark AUs (Novel characters can be included), but I will do fluff and angst👍

This has helped me get out of writer's block before, so I'm hoping it works again!

[milgram-polls-for-fun]

Which Es design do you like the most?

T1

T2

T3

Voting ended onJun 5

[mocah439]

I need help to get out of writers block..

So my inbox is open! You can send headcanons or requests in there if you desire, I mostly write Es-centric dark AUs (Novel characters can be included), but I will do fluff and angst👍

This has helped me get out of writer's block before, so I'm hoping it works again!

[existence-error-y]

T3 Ending theory

Not gonna talk about voting discourse or give opinions on how anyone should/shouldn't vote. But I will talk about hypothetical voting results. Not a groundbreaking theory, probably has been said somewhere. But I randomly thought of that so I wanted to say it.

Remember how we were told we'd be given hell if we forgave everyone in T3? Maybe to begin with the intention is that Es rejects the results of our voting and they themselves chooses to forgive everyone. However, if the way we vote overlaps perfectly with Es' personal decision (everyone forgiven), then doesn't that inadvertently become 'proof' of Es' lack of choice/will?

"Oh they just share the same opinion as majority" yeah but knowing the nature of Milgram, will that really be taken as an explanation even though it's reasonable (as in, if you picked someone random from a crowd, most of the time they probably are part of some kinda majority). As long as Es does not have a strong definite way through the prisoner verdicts to prove they are their own person, it is a possibility that we doomed them to forever be locked into the role of being a warden vessel against their own wishes.

Feel free to add to this. I might come back to this idea if I see anything promising. And hey, even if I am completely off the mark, I'm sure someone will like the concept of this.

(Note: Please do not bring up voting discourse. And I am not encouraging that we vote in any particular way or even the abstinence of voting through this speculation.).

[mocah439]

Everytime I see a post regarding the hypothetical t3 ending, I gotta bring this up.

I don't know HOW similar the novels are to the web project but...

SPOILERS FOR THE NOVELS!!!

It is stated that it is against MILGRAM's rules to vote everyone innocent, and that wardens will be purged if they do.

[existence-error-y]

Thanks for bringing it up!! I've considered the novel stuff but I guess I'm a littleeee hesitant to think music project strictly will have to stick to the rules that were established in both novels...

Some spoilers for the novels beyond this point:

Not just cuz the format by design is really different, but also cuz music project Jackalope is higher rank than both novels' Jackalopes (and how Sumi and music project Es adapts to 'being Es' is quite different, what the Jackalopes may or may not say would depend on that).

Not to say we should discount the novels tho! Definitely worth thinking about when speculating, again, thanks for bringing it up. I definitely want some hopeful ending like the second novel...

[mocah439]

Completely fair! I'm unsure how much the web project will stick to the novels as well. So I also take the idea with a grain of salt. I just like to bring it up because you never know!

And I just like talking about the novels in general lol

[existence-error-y]

T3 Ending theory

Not gonna talk about voting discourse or give opinions on how anyone should/shouldn't vote. But I will talk about hypothetical voting results. Not a groundbreaking theory, probably has been said somewhere. But I randomly thought of that so I wanted to say it.

Remember how we were told we'd be given hell if we forgave everyone in T3? Maybe to begin with the intention is that Es rejects the results of our voting and they themselves chooses to forgive everyone. However, if the way we vote overlaps perfectly with Es' personal decision (everyone forgiven), then doesn't that inadvertently become 'proof' of Es' lack of choice/will?

"Oh they just share the same opinion as majority" yeah but knowing the nature of Milgram, will that really be taken as an explanation even though it's reasonable (as in, if you picked someone random from a crowd, most of the time they probably are part of some kinda majority). As long as Es does not have a strong definite way through the prisoner verdicts to prove they are their own person, it is a possibility that we doomed them to forever be locked into the role of being a warden vessel against their own wishes.

Feel free to add to this. I might come back to this idea if I see anything promising. And hey, even if I am completely off the mark, I'm sure someone will like the concept of this.

(Note: Please do not bring up voting discourse. And I am not encouraging that we vote in any particular way or even the abstinence of voting through this speculation.).

[mocah439]

Everytime I see a post regarding the hypothetical t3 ending, I gotta bring this up.

I don't know HOW similar the novels are to the web project but...

SPOILERS FOR THE NOVELS!!!

It is stated that it is against MILGRAM's rules to vote everyone innocent, and that wardens will be purged if they do.

[existence-error-y]

Thanks for bringing it up!! I've considered the novel stuff but I guess I'm a littleeee hesitant to think music project strictly will have to stick to the rules that were established in both novels...

Some spoilers for the novels beyond this point:

Not just cuz the format by design is really different, but also cuz music project Jackalope is higher rank than both novels' Jackalopes (and how Sumi and music project Es adapts to 'being Es' is quite different, what the Jackalopes may or may not say would depend on that).

Not to say we should discount the novels tho! Definitely worth thinking about when speculating, again, thanks for bringing it up. I definitely want some hopeful ending like the second novel...

[existence-error-y]

T3 Ending theory

Not gonna talk about voting discourse or give opinions on how anyone should/shouldn't vote. But I will talk about hypothetical voting results. Not a groundbreaking theory, probably has been said somewhere. But I randomly thought of that so I wanted to say it.

Remember how we were told we'd be given hell if we forgave everyone in T3? Maybe to begin with the intention is that Es rejects the results of our voting and they themselves chooses to forgive everyone. However, if the way we vote overlaps perfectly with Es' personal decision (everyone forgiven), then doesn't that inadvertently become 'proof' of Es' lack of choice/will?

"Oh they just share the same opinion as majority" yeah but knowing the nature of Milgram, will that really be taken as an explanation even though it's reasonable (as in, if you picked someone random from a crowd, most of the time they probably are part of some kinda majority). As long as Es does not have a strong definite way through the prisoner verdicts to prove they are their own person, it is a possibility that we doomed them to forever be locked into the role of being a warden vessel against their own wishes.

Feel free to add to this. I might come back to this idea if I see anything promising. And hey, even if I am completely off the mark, I'm sure someone will like the concept of this.

(Note: Please do not bring up voting discourse. And I am not encouraging that we vote in any particular way or even the abstinence of voting through this speculation.).

[mocah439]

Everytime I see a post regarding the hypothetical t3 ending, I gotta bring this up.

I don't know HOW similar the novels are to the web project but...

SPOILERS FOR THE NOVELS!!!

It is stated that it is against MILGRAM's rules to vote everyone innocent, and that wardens will be purged if they do.

[mocah439]

I always worry when posting stuff about my AUs online cuz I get worried I'll get flamed for making the characters too ooc...

[kunaigirl]

Me: "Damn people are REALLY BAD at knowing when to tag their eyestrain art/images...either that or they just don't care about photosenitive epileptic people like me. I feel really sad now." Person: "But Allison, what if they just don't know or understand what qualifies as eyestrain and what doesn't?" Me: "You know what? That could be a factor...While it is always better to be safe rather than sorry (so YES people should always tag eyestrain even if they're unsure if it "counts" or not) maybe you've got a point?"

Anyways! HERE'S YOUR HANDY GUIDE TO WHAT CAN COUNT AS EYESTRAIN! I'm pulling this straight from the Artfight rules page about what needs to be labeled and filtered as eyestrain because it's VERY helpful and VERY accurate! I also know not everybody has an AF account and might not always have access to this handy guide, and this is an important resource; That's why I'm sharing it here! (under the cut)

PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!

Full eyestrain AF page link

"But Allison! How were you able to screenshot that example if you're so sensitive to eyestrain?"

I dimmed the HELL out of my computer screen and looked away while taking the screenshot and did the same when putting it into this post, that's how lol. BUT YEAH ANYWAYS!!! Once again:

PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS ABOUT THE HEALTH AND SAFETY OF OTHERS!!!

[rightdownright]

by the way this is medical. this could save somebody from a migraine all the way to a seizure. this has always been serious. treat this seriously.

[psych0delic0]

So im thinking about an Es post-milgram (IF they survive????) with milgram being like the standford experiment and everyone just fell onto the roles that they were just prisoners and guards and stuff but, like

how do you even cope with something like this?? How do you even cope with your entire life being a lie??? Your name isnt yours, your actions arent yours, your body is barely yours, your choices arent yours then what exactly are you??? Are you the one before Milgram? Or are you still stuck in Milgram, hours days months and even years after it finished, but youre still stuck behind bars and youll probably be!!

Three people died because of you. And if everything was just an experiment with roles and backstories, then "your" choices really took a kind boy, a loving father and a lovely girl out of this world, and everyone is miserable because. of. you.

And your life! Your life isnt yours, not anymore. Whatever they did to your brain rewrote your entire being to a blank slate only for a silly unethical experiment because????? Just because???? And then you have to go back to your life but youre a warden, not a simple high school student and people talk about you and maybe what you liked and disliked and they know the Before-Milgram-You but not the After-Milgram-You. The Before-Milgram-You loves rabbits and animals but the After-Milgram-You cant see them without searching for antlers in their head. You used to dream of being a lawyer, but now even read a law makes you tear up. You liked sweet things but you cant eat anything sugary without thinking about bad pudding and pancakes and stolen crepes. Everything stopped having the same meaning.

There's not even the prisoners to console you because thats just traumatic, and they have lifes and family and you cant go and remind them to the hell they were for years, even if theres a posibility they would be glad to see you. You dont know you are dear to them the same way theyre dear to you.

So in the end, youre alone. Milgram will never leave you.

[hectorthedoggo]

SO this is why we should put them out of their misery, and kill--- /j (this is a better option actually.) (me and my friend were hanging out and every 6 minutes i would bring up evidence for es' future death. poor girl.)

ok jokes aside. YESSSSS YESSS YES. yes, yes very correct. I think the memory loss adds such a horror to it. Why was their default to grab that hat? Why would they hurt people like that without questioning it? (Milgram experiment reference) They can just blame it on who they are not; the things controlling them. But then that solves one problem and creates many more: what are they? are they human? where do they start and the voices begin? are they a murderer themself, hearing this?

also mind you: MIND YOU:

they are supposed to be . they're supposed to be finding themself right now. and everyone is telling them who they should be . they should be someone to punish. they should be someone that can save everyone. WHY IS THE PERSON TO SPUR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT A 15 YEAR OLD??? Their angry outbursts were culled by their intense sadness at the deaths (as stated in amane's vd). and they really care about everyone. and they have to keep moving on and prioritizing themself. what happens after this?

I want to write es haunted by those around them. I want them to wake up and feel sickened by the sight of food. To fear crossing the street. To put too many bandages on as if possessed. because these people made SUCH AN IMPACT on their life. a kind boy, a loving father, a lovely girl. everyone who died did nothing but love. and goddamnit, either you killed them, or "you" killed them. and there's a "you". gadDAMN it's hard enough to figure yourself out as a kid. but like?? figuring out yourself through THE ENTIRETY OF TWITTER IN YOUR MIND??????? TALKING ABOUT HOW YOU MIGHT BE A ROBOT OR AI OR GENETICALLY CREATED OR- nightmare material. being watched your entire life? truman show was traumatizing for a reason.

it's funny. it's a social experiment. but you had no confidentiality, protection from harm, debrief, and i really don't think the IRB would approve that. And they don't even have parents (anymore) to assent for them. (i just took AP Psychology. those are the ethical guidelines a study has to follow). And the most they would probably get is like a 50$ consolation prize. and a sense of self built around helping people through their trauma. That is, if their life doesn't end. BONUS POINTS if a prisoner sacrifices themself so they can get out.

look back to the "haunted by people around them". the dead trio never disappears. ALSO I THINK THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH MUSIC WOULD BE SO... interesting. because like. the music they used to make deadly assumptions. i wonder if they would still like singing. they have a beautiful voice, after all. (if they did get out, imagine them making trial 3 songs for haruka, shidou, and mahiru?)

imagine them hiding from people who could care for them. like they downplay their own contributions. you can take the kid out of milgram but you can't take milgram out of the kid. (someone said that but idk who)

[mocah439]

I need to start posting about the other fandoms I'm in oml I'm confined to my milgram shackles at this point

[mocah439]

Making a milgram themed cards against humanity if anyone has any ideas feel free to tell me

[mocah439]

The thing I love about writing AUs is the personality I write for the characters. Such as how in the hsr AU Es is much more aggressive when questioned, or in the WG AU where Es acts more freely like a teenagers

[mocah439]

What a lifetime of pain and suffering does to a mf