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corycatte

snake-ish pokemon i all drew yesterday ahah

Shylock loves his snakes and reptiles haha

otherwindow

quinoaphoenicks

I love you guys but I think a lot of you are the kind of people who are susceptible to falling in with a cult.

teaboot

You’re right. We should all band together under a trustworthy and influential leader who can keep us safe from outside threats

bogleech

Scientists are finally starting to understand the centuries-old mystery of “ballooning.”

heck yeah they can

bogleech

But yeah now everyone asking “what is spiderman webslinging FROM” can rest at last cause the answer is “distant thunderstorms”

thelovelyblark-barg

Jerma wanted to use that twitch extension where he can see where the audience clicks to tell him what flash games to play, and they immediately made him click on an add for Let’s Go Pikachu/Eevee, took him on a detour to the Pokemon center website, and made him buy 2 pairs of pikachu socks.

After he said “you’re not gonna let me get the free shipping?” they then highlighted the big wailord plush

so he bought a wailord and 4 pikachu socks because chat made him

multiscales

Pokemon (2019)

valtsv

bro i was homoerotically cleaning and patching up my friend’s wounds and you ruined it. i was scolding him for being an idiot in an exasperated but fond tone of voice while i tenderly bandaged his knuckles and we both tried unsuccessfully to avoid looking into each other’s eyes until the tension between us became unbearable when you entered the room without knocking and fucking killed the mood. what the hell, man.

minutia-r

Imagine a fae who is just so mad about the idea of lying, like, I have spent a thousand years studying the subtle arts of deceit, weaving my spells of glamour and misdirection, and you, human, can just stand there and

say things

that aren’t true

hotcawfee

“So yeah, I’m, uh, bright purple.”

“But you’re not! That’s not even plausible! How can you just - you are not even puce. Fine. Fine. Another one.”

“Are you sure? You seem pretty mad.”

“I assure you I am wholly and terribly sane.”

“Heh, you know that’s not the kind I meant.”

“Hssssss.”

“Haha, fine, fine. I’m … a dragon.”

“nO YOU’RE NOT THOUGH–”

wolfinmyribcage

This is a fucking hilarious concept.

shoeboxgoblin

Rejection sensitive dysphoria is wild. Someone will be like “hey just so you know the thing you did was a little bit loud/uncomfortable/insensitive but it’s ok I know you didn’t mean it” and my brain will instantly translate “you should be shot”

yourkpopidolsucks

“why do you talk so loud? you’re always yelling”. i swear to god every time i hear that i want to just run off and hang myself. it is THE WORST

jabberwockypie

To the people in the notes saying “Don’t call it dysphoria, that’s just being insecure”

- “Dysphoria” is just the opposite of “euphoria”. It doesn’t have to mean gender dysphoria. Lots of things can cause different kinds of dysphoria - PMDD is Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (which is like PMS but much more severe, and causes intense depression and mood swings). Or, in this case, RSD - Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria

- When it’s mentioned at all, it’s almost always in relation to ADHD. (And it tends to be described as “this is exclusive to ADHD” but I don’t think that’s actually true.) It’s also a thing with C-PTSD and BPD. (And probably more. But a lot of this stuff co-occurs with ADHD so like … ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

- I suspect it’s actually more of a trauma thing that’s exacerbated by ADHD. (A lot of the way people respond to ADHD is inherently traumatic. Being told your whole life “Well you could do the thing if you really wanted to” when no, you actually CAN’T, etc, has the same effects as emotional abuse and gaslighting on your self-esteem. And well. Being shunned for your whole childhood for being too loud/too weird/etc tends to … yeah.)

- Just being insecure or even anxious isn’t the same as Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria. RSD - to me, at least - feels like being slapped or getting stabbed in the chest. It’s going from “Everything’s pretty much fine” to, upon a mild correction, being “I’m the worst. I should die. Nothing will ever ever get better.“ And even when I rationally know that’s not true, I’m having physiological responses that I can’t just turn off. (It’s a lot like an emotional flashback in that regard, honestly.) You’re responding to the thing as if it’s a threat.

- It doesn’t help, though, that ADHD brains are will focus exclusively on one thing to the exclusion of all else, at the least convenient time. So we hyperfocus on “that stupid thing I said” and the perceived rejection and and the pain, and it kind of becomes a feedback loop of suck.

ethanrayne

I usually describe the feeling as being like… going from a normal, good, or even great day to suddenly feeling like the world is ending. And it seems to be worst when you were really excited about something and someone’s response- to the thing, or, more often, to your excitement for it- manages to hit that button that trips the world-ending feeling.

strawberryhorrorshow

Being abused made me such a “good kid.”

I was

Always polite

Never acted without permission

Never spoke out of turn

Always did what I was told

And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”

Now I

Have difficulty making a keeping friends

Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction

Am terrible at communicating

Have no agency/personal compass

It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with. What made us good children make us bad adults.

clarknokent

This is Important

alternativeblkgal

THIS IS MY LIFE WOW

cyberpunknoire

Conversely, while 90% of the time we’re kind and polite and accommodating, we get super fucking angry and have major outbursts when we feel threatened Which is not a good look either

introvert-celeste

Maybe this is just me being depressed again, but I can't stop thinking about my theory that Pink ordered her original Pearl to stop following orders bc the power dynamic between them made her Pearl unhappy and they both wanted to be friends. It was an invalid order, however, and it caused permanent damage to her eye. Then her Pearl was deemed broken and was taken away, leaving Pink devastated and alone. She was eventually given a new Pearl, who she could have customized to be just like the old one, a Pearl she could be more careful with, but she didn't want a new Pearl. She wanted her best, her only, friend back. She rejected her new Pearl, leaving her on the default settings. Later, she was given a Spinel to entertain her, to fill the void, but:

Spinel doesn't actually make her happy. She made her smile and laugh, but there's more to happiness than what you see on the outside. Just like her new Pearl, she saw Spinel as just another failed attempt to replace her real friend. Even on Earth, when she actively tries to befriend her new Pearl, to encourage her to provide her own opinion, only to get the same sort of brainwashed response you'd get from any Pearl:

"I could imagine it, if you would like me to, my Diamond!"

I'm convinced what happened to Pink Pearl is a key element in why Pink was the way she was, why she struggled to be close and honest with other people, why she had a tendency to isolate herself, why she wanted to keep the humans out. She lost someone she cared deeply for because of her own actions. It was even worse after the war, when she lost countless gems she also came to care for, also a result of her own actions. Human lives are so short, while hers is so...infinite.

"You surround yourself with inferior lifeforms so you can be best of the worst." Was this a dig at Pink's involvement with the Crystal Gems during the war, or something more personal. I really don't think it was a coincidence that White sent Pink's original Pearl to greet "her."

"What are doing here, and what are you doing to me?!"

Why did she react like this to Greg's song? This line suggests that she has some power over him that he can't resist. She already cares about him, she wouldn't be wearing that shirt otherwise, and hearing someone she cares about almost lamenting the control she has over them, it must have stirred something in her...until...

"You're everything I want!"

It's less what he says and more the way he says it. He wants to be with her, not because she forced him to or he's naturally compelled to. It's his own choice. He chose her. Likewise, with Pearl, they instantly became closer when Pearl began to act spontaneously, come up with her own ideas, imagine things...like herself, running away from her purpose, living on Earth, meeting a Rose Quartz and falling in love...

"Please, don't ever stop!"

This. This is something that Pink, that Rose, desperately wanted.

I don't remember where i was going with this, but it was keeping me up. It's almost 3 am and I can't stop thinking about what motivated Pink, deep down.

pangur-and-grim

stealing this from twitter

moezilla

I’m not valid at all.

toonyfando-archives

anarchetypalarchive

sometimes i’m like “i should buy some orange juice! i love it i don’t know why i never have it in the house” and then i get some and i remember it’s because some kind of dormant Scurvy Prevention Instinct activates within me like a sleeper agent trained to seek and destroy, except it’s just me standing in front of the open fridge at two in the morning chugging juice straight out of the carton like a crazed citrus gremlin

i-am-a-fish

everyone who reads this post will get some big spicy joy within 24 large minutes (hours)

darknesshaspurplehair

Ok y'all but like I’m not even kidding about this I read this post yesterday and today I got an email from the peeps at hamilton and I won the lotto gor $10 tickets and I would like to give all my thanks to the internet’s favorite fish, Goldie Gurston, for making this possible because I totally believe they did this with their amazing gay powers

thuriweaver

So I know this is likely a coincidence…but I reblogged this and just now discovered I’ve been given a $150 amazon gift card as a bonus at work. So thank you, fish!