Molly Rocks In My Green Tea

ED content - 18+ f • 26 • 5’2 sw-130. cw-105. next gw - 99. ugw-95

[mollysalt]

The harsh realization that I’m a fucking 5 and I will never lose enough weight to be a 10. I tried recovery for a year and gained everything back despite still eating under what I would need to gain. My body is fucking broken.

[mollysalt]

Welp. Today I weighed myself and I gained 3 lbs despite restricting and exercising. Chewed and spat most my only meal of the day, then yeeted what I could. Locked myself in the bathroom so long my husband left the house. We’re fucking winning, folks.

[velvetvirgo]

i hate when i tell myself i’m gonna recover and it’s literally just a binge 😭💀

[mollysalt]

I feel seen

[mollysalt]

Not me choosing photosynthesis 🤞🏼👀

[mollysalt]

Been staying at my sister’s or my (recent) boyfriend’s house without access to a scale. I have no idea what I weigh, and it’s eating me up inside. Send help.

[mollysalt]

[mollysalt]

When you “ate well” over the weekend and then realize it wasn’t recovery, just very deeply engrained disordered thoughts that weekend eating is acceptable.

Happy Monday my ED bitches.

Love y’all and hope you’re okay.

[mollysalt]

Ooh fam I’m falling in deep with someone I met 8 years ago. Low key I have a ring on my finger.

[mollysalt]

Recently unlocked another goal weight.

SW 130 😭

CW 105 🔓

UGW 97 🔒

Active March 2022

[mollysalt]

Good morning, f*ckers. It’s 3am and I just woke up from hunger and my dumb ass is proud of it. No, this is not a “pro” post, but damn is my mind fucked up. Will I eat? The world my never know.

[mollysalt]

I’m such a fucking poser, I can’t restrict for shit now. How did I ever do this before, and why can’t I do it again? I’m stuck at 112 and my lowest before falling off the wagon was 107. I was so close to my next gw, wtf is wrong with me

I HAVE to change. I have to stay busy enough to not eat. I need to know what it’s like.

[mollysalt]

✨I’m back✨

I don’t think I ever fully recovered but I’m definitely getting worse again. After the holidays and getting sick with colds and THEN covid (a full month of being sick between all illnesses), I was actually eating “normal” amount and without tracking. I barely gained but….I wasn’t “done” losing before I got sick. I had just wanted to eat enough for my immune system to stop being absolute shit.

Well, here we are. I’m starting to mentally track everything again and eat lower and lower calorie meals. I’m mad at myself for it but…I honestly welcome it. I want to lose more still. I’m scared of going my whole life without ever once knowing what it’s like to be thin. Wish me luck.

Active Feb/March 2022

[mollysalt]

I can’t fucking restrict anymore and I simply cannot stay this weight any longer. How do I lose weight again? Eating healthily and being active never worked for me before. The only thing to ever work was restriction and I suck at it now. What the fuck do I do

[ke-ray92-deactivated20201217]

Before January ends, I’m going to magically and extremely be blessed by the universe.

[mollysalt]

[mollysalt]

Nice to meet you. My hobbies include:

-Obsessing over what I wish I looked like

-Counting calories

-Avoiding adult responsibilities by utilizing the first two hobbies as a distraction

[mollysalt]

Home grown ED memes hit different