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My Dear Cory

Today is about celebrating your birth… So, I’m gonna try and push all the “whys”, “what ifs” and how much you’re missed to the side and concentrate on the fact that you were born.

We were blessed with your presence in this world. Your talent, your beauty and your heart made - and continues to make - a difference in so many lives. You brought so much light into our hearts. I hope we can learn from you how to appreciate each opportunity, each moment, each accomplishment and each person in our lives! You taught us gratitude! You taught us compassion! If we could live how you lived this world would be a better place, we could make a difference!

You were among us for a very very short period… But you made every second of it worth it!

I love you forever!

Happy Birthday, my angel!

#Cory Monteith #i'm back just for this

#i don't know what this is #but I felt like saying it #don't mind me

My dearest Lea!

You're probably never going to read this… But it's your birthday and you deserve to be celebrated even if you don't get to see it… I hope you feel it!

When I think about why I became a fan, I think of the first time I saw you, bringing life to the amazing, peculiar Rachel Berry. Your talent as an actress made me fall in love with her the minute I saw her "crying" at principal Higging's office in the pilot. And then I heard you sing. What a powerful voice coming from the tiniest woman.

And time went on and Glee became a huge success and I got to 'know' you better. And the list of reasons to admire you got bigger and bigger. You are an inspiration to woman all over the world, because you embraced your unusual beauty and became an icon. You always use your best features in your favor and you are an example that sexy and classy can coexist.

You use your position in the spotlight, as a celebrity, to bring attention to causes that are important to you and you make sure those make it to the public eye. You are passionate about every project you get involved with and that shows what kind of a professional you are. You're an expert in talking to the press and your interviews are always amusing. You found the perfect balance between your private life and the information you give to your fans and the media. You are sweet, you are brave, you are compassionate. You are such a fangirl. Your laugh is so contagious… your smile is so bright… And your voice, oh my god!!! Every time I hear you sing I get overwhelmed.

I wish you all the best there is in the world. May you receive in your life all the light you bring to everyone around you. Thank you for making this world a brighter one!

I love you!

Happy Birthday Lea.

#lea michele #the pictures are not mine #i tried

I just miss Cory.

#it's simple as that

I’m gonna warn you that this is a very selfish post, so don’t get mad if you decide to keep on reading.

But, that wasn’t all that I lost. After days like this one I just had, I relied on Glee, Cory, Lea, twitter, tumblr, Finn, Rachel, Finchel, The Glee Music. I loved being able to disconnect from my job and it’s problems. One may say it’s a scape and it’s a weakness to replace real world for a show and internet stuff… But once you deal with people on the margin of society on a daily basis, people whose mental illness is the least of their problems, that escape is much appreciated.

And now I don’t have that anymore. The fandom is heartbroken and dealing with everything, each of us grieving the best way we can. People are sad. In my opinion Glee was Finn and and Rachel - together and separate - so obviously, half of it is missing. I still can’t bring myself to listen to Cory singing. If I think about what Lea is going through I will turn into a mess and that would not help.

When I lost Cory I lost so much more than just and idol. And I really don’t know how to get passed it.

All this talk about grieving made me think and only gave me proof that it’s personal and reasoning has nothing to do with it.

#i don't know what this is #i'm sorry if i don't make sense #today was just one of those days #don't mind me

I can't believe it. I'm trying to read the articles but it just doesn't make any sense. And it's strange and I feel conflicted... Because the thing I always admired most about Cory is how "human" he seemed. He didn't have that celebrity aspect that set him apart from all of us. And now I'm sitting here refusing to believe he's gone. Like something so mundane and ordinary as death wouldn't happen to him. From what every one who knew him is saying he never wanted us to see him like like this untouchable celebrity. And I'm failing him.

Being brazilian I remember when Ayrton Senna passed away. I was 14! He was my first "famous" grief. I cried for a week! I watched every TV show in his honor, I read every article. It was like a relative had tragically died. Until this day, when I hear his victory theme I break down. Nobody ever took his place in sports. And I never ever thought anyone would reach that status again. Boy I was wrong. And I wish with all my heart I weren't. Cory will forever be my favorite Canadian. I'm heartbroken! I hope his family and Lea can find solace in his presence on this world. It was too short, but it was a very strong one.

#i'll just leave this here #i don't know what i'll do ti this blog #i need time to process things