“to the girl who the boy i’m in love with will eventually love, i hope you know his favorite songs, shows, cereal, even his favorite way to cook an egg - hard-boiled, in case it hasn’t come up, it took me three years to learn that. i hope you know the little things about him and that you’re eager to learn more, because he’s a puzzle that you want to spend your whole life trying to solve. i hope you know how lucky you are. i hope that you love him so much that your friends get annoyed with how much you talk about him, since he occupies your every thought. i hope you never let him fall asleep thinking he’s unloved. i hope you love every bit of him so much that you write sonnets about the way he ties his shoes. i hope that you fall more in love with each other every day, that he’s doing something ordinary like walking or talking or eating and you’re overcome with so much love for him that you can feel the warmth of love in your toes. i hope that you have beautiful moments together, the kind from movies. i hope that you’re so overcome with happiness and love while you’re cooking that you dance around the kitchen, grinning as you twirl around, not caring the food’s burning. i hope you have moments like that even when you’re eighty. i truly, truly wish you both happiness. now for some selfishness. i hope i never have to hear him talk about you. i hope i never learn your name and he never tells me how he’s so deeply, madly in love. his name, once the sweetest sound i’d ever heard, has become bitter and acidic on my tongue, and i think having to say yours would feel like someone was taking a grater to my tongue. i hope he mentions me. maybe he won’t, since even though he’s my entire goddamned universe i’m only a star among the galaxy of other girls in his life, but god do i hope he does. i wonder if my name on his lips makes you jealous. don’t be jealous, because we were never in love. we were never in love, but oh my god, i was.”
— i wrote this (slam) poem five years ago and we haven’t talked in three years - 2 (via myoverflowingsoul)
