shitty weird doodles and feelings

bad draws from a emotionally unstable pansexual non-binary boy || sumbissions accepted! ||

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I’m participating on  #DFel_creation !

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that’s all I am

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Future plans

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Fading...

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types of breakdowns (a personal compendium):

the standard, classic, timeless DUDE HOLY FUCK EVERYTHING SUCKS AND I WISH I WAS DEAD 

time to self harm not as a cry for help or some shit but because i fucking deserve to be in pain

everything is making too much noise and  i’m crying and people are yelling and it just makes it worse

breathe in my direction and youre dead to me

bro. bro listen. nothing i experience is meaningful in any way on the cosmic scale. bro, were all going to die and well be reduced to the nothingness that we clawed our way out of. bro? bro?

only one (1) thing has gone wrong but im crying anyway

time to cut off all my friends and remake my personality because the one i have is horrible and i cant keep disappointing people

flashback til i puke! a new hit single

irrational anger & violence

listen im well aware that someone needs to be responding to this situation in some way but youve got the wrong guy. possibly the correct fleshsuit, but the wrong guy

hhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH

feel free to add more

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Depression and dismotivation make me feel like this

Idk if this is common but I’m really disorganized and I can’t have my things like I wanted to cause I just don’t know how to do that, like I see other people in school with organized resumes and people with organized rooms and people who can watch series and movies and read and listen to music and like just do things, if I see a whole movie after maybe 3 months without seeing one I feel so so realized for 5 minutes and then I remember there’s people who can do things so easily and organize their time and I feel like I just spend my whole life under this disorganized rock, and I am so fucking annoyed with that, I feel disgusted about me

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Actually, not really

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Okay I know I am shitty for thinking like this but

When someone that I REALLY REALLY REALLY care, and attention, I Just have like 3 of that people in my life, and use the wrong pronouns, I don't know what to think but three things come to my mind 1- the don't see me as a boy, um the end for them I am sill a girl and will always be 2-auto-corrector or just habit of talking more to girls thank boys 3- they lied and actually think I am lying but the love me so they respect and treat me as boy whenever they can so I wont be sad but in the wndd they'll always and always see me as a girl and they dont like that much that i feel like a boy So I get pretty sad And I get paranoid

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Sometimes I am alone in bed at night, nothing wrong happened, but all the hope and love and motivation I still have disappear and the meaning of life gets more and more blurry, I can´t think straight and I don’t want to live, be in this pain, cause if I can’t feel a conection to the one I love, if I am so unstable that one hour all I want is love and the other I am making everyone who loves me hate me, and I don’t the see a point in the future, if my hope and motivation just die ... 

Then what the hell am I even doing here!?

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I don´r really care anymore you know

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not much