Calm like moonlight

Akagami No Shirayuki-hime OC blog. Name: Kazumi Taru Occupation: Physician and healer Written by Roman

[messyheartsuggestions]

When I come across a storm in the middle of the ocean, you bring me back to shore.

[kitsune-rp-help]

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[moonlit-healer]

@shadowofaprince

Kazumi couldn’t sleep again. It happened more often these days it seemed like.. He wasn’t sure why. Honestly he should be sleeping better if anything, but sometimes, he’d wake up in the middle of the night, and just couldn’t fall asleep again for a while. 

Obi was actually asleep next to him, a short distance away, or at least it seemed that way, so he got up, being extra quiet, and wandered away from the camp, heading towards the little lake nearby. Maybe a cool bath would clear him of whatever was messing with him. 

He stripped himself of most of his clothes, though not everything, since it was a lake and not an actual bath, and slipped into the water, the moonlight shining off his now wet skin. Kazumi closed his eyes, and gave a quiet hum of approval. The cold water really did feel nice, and he sort of just laid back, his head and back resting against a rock that was half submerged.

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“I wanted, in a messy, maddening way, to go on forgetting myself and yet, to find myself too.”

— Lighthousekeeping by Jeanette Winterson (via decreation)

[santapescadora]

“I love you, finally, with a calm, giving love and I love you, furthermore, present in the longing I love you, finally, with great freedom within eternity and every instant I love you like an animal, simply with a love without mystery and without virtue with a solid and permanent desire”

—

Vinícius de Moraes, Soneto do Amor Total

“Amo-te afim, de um calmo amor prestante E te amo além, presente na saudade Amo-te, enfim, com grande liberdade Dentro da eternidade e a cada instante

Amo-te como um bicho, simplesmente De um amor sem mistério e sem virtude Com um desejo maciço e permanente”

[promptfairy]

𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓 / 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓   ♡   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

    change any gendered language to your needs.  ♡

“   you  don’t  have  to  hide  your  tears  from  me .   ” “   you’re  doing  great ,   okay ??   i mean it .   ” “   you  are  so  strong .   ” “   please  don’t  ever  give  up .   ” “   i  will  always  believe  in  you .   ” “   why  do  you  always  think  you  have  to  do  everything  on  your  own ??   ” “   it’s  okay ,   i’m  here .   i’ll  always  be  here .   ” “   you’ve  always  been  strong  for  me .   let  me  return  the  favor .   ” “   just  listen  to  my  heartbeat ,   okay ??   ” “   come  on ,   take  a  deep  breath .   it’s  gonna  be  alright .   ” “   please ,   just  hold  me .   ” “   you  always  meant  the  world  to  me .   i’m  sorry  i  let  you  forget  that .   ” “   i  never  stopped  loving  you .   ” “   you’ll  feel  better  if  you  talk  about  it .   i’m  here  to  listen .   ” “   you’re  so  much  more  than  the  mistakes  you’ve  made .  ” “   i  forgive  you .   ” “   you  are  so  fucking  powerful .   ” “   i’m  not  leaving  you  here .   ” “   i  trust  you  more  than  anyone  else  in  this  universe .   ” “   it’s  okay  to  be  confused .   nobody  has  all  the  answers .   ” “   i’m  so ,   so  sorry .   you  didn’t  deserve  that .   ” “   healing  is  not  linear ,   but  it’s  always  moving  forward .   ” “   you  can  admit  that  you’re  hurting .   it’s  okay  to  not  be  okay .   ” “   hold  my  hand ??   ” “   you  are  my  home .   ” “   no  matter  what  anyone  else  says ,   you  are  so  important  to  me .   ” “   don’t  worry .   i’ll  protect  you .   ” “   shh ,   it  was  just  a  nightmare .   you’re  safe .   ” “   don’t  talk  about  yourself  like  that .   ” “   just  say  the  word .   you  know  i’d  do  anything  for  you .   ” “   you  are  loved .   ” “   i  just  need  a  hug .   ” “   i’ll  destroy  anything  that  so  much  as  thinks  of  harming  you .   ” “   don’t  ever  let  anyone  make  you  feel  ashamed  of  who  you  are .   ” “   you’re  not  alone .   you’re  stuck  with  me  forever .   sorry .   ” “   well ,   hello  sleeping  beauty .   you  fell  asleep  on  me .   ” “   if  you  don’t  take  your  butt  back  to  bed ,   i  will  carry  you  there  myself .   ” “   i’m  sorry  to  wake  you  up ,   but  i  really  need  someone  to  talk  to .   ” “   i  hate  seeing  you  like  this   …   please ,  let  me  help .   ” “   you  are   &   always  will  be  precious  to  me .   ” “   i  can’t  believe  that  asshole  said  that  to  you .   it’s  not  true ,   you  know .    ” “   you  want  me  to  punch  him  in  the  face  ??   ” “   you  deserve  every  good  thing  in  the  world .   ” “   you  know  i  always  have  your  back .   ” “   you  don’t  have  to  worry  about  anything ,   as  long  as  i’m  around .   ” “   stop  apologizing ,   okay ??   i’ve  already  told  you  i’ve  forgiven  you  a  hundred  times now .   ” “   don’t  beat  yourself  up  over  this .   be  kind  to  yourself ,   it’s  not  your  fault .   ”

[whatnotmemes]

——————–LOVE SENTENCE STARTERS change pronouns as needed.

“Do you love me?” “You don’t love me.” “Have you ever been in love?” “Do you still love him?” “I love this.” “I love you.” “I love her.” “I think I’m in love.” “I’ve never been in love.” “This isn’t about love.” “I’m not looking for love.” “I’m not in love.” “I don’t want to fall in love.” “Don’t fall in love with me.” “I have so much love to give.” “I look at you and all I see is love.” “Do you think you could love me?” “I never loved you.” “I never stopped loving you.” “I’m falling in love with you.” “I fall in love too easily.” “I’ve never been in love before.”

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“…” He was silent for a moment before tears welled up in his eyes. “…I…yes…yes…I’m scared, so scared, but yes…” He reached up and tried to wipe at his eyes, but the tears just kept falling.

“…Kazumi…Kazumi…I love you…”

Kazumi got up, and took Obi’s hand, slipping the ring onto his finger, and wrapped his arms around his now fiancé, pulling him close. “I love you too. And you just made me the happiest man in the world right now.” 

He honestly couldn’t stop smiling, and outside of the windows, some of Kazumi’s staff who had been helping and watching just as anxiously for the answer, had started quietly clapping for them, making Kazumi blush. “Should we go home now, love? I got us some dessert to take home to celebrate, in case you did say yes.” And yes, it was chocolate.

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

He turned to do so and stopped, eyes widening, blinking at the message staring at him from the window.

“Ka…zumi…?” His cheeks colored, heart pounding and he turned around again and found his boyfriend on one knee.

Oh lord.

“…You…really wanna marry me?” He asked in a small, hopeful voice.

The look on Kazumi’s face was one of calm certainty, at least amidst the nervousness. He really did want to marry him, and he put a lot of planning into this, clearly, and even spent time while he was away for the conferences shopping for the perfect ring. 

“Yes, I really want to marry you.” A small chuckle, amused, but Obi could probably still hear the anxiousness in his voice. Obi still hadn’t given him an answer. “I’m sorry for making such a fuss, but you deserve to have a big deal made out of this event.. Whatever your answer ends up being.”

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“Yeah, lets go. And that’s fine, I have my work clothes on me, so it shouldn’t be a problem to go in tomorrow.”

If Kazumi had called him off, he obviously had no idea.

“You look nervous. Is everything okay?”

The drive to the hospital would be a fairly short one, so that was a plus. At Obi’s question though, Kazumi just beamed at him, giving an awkward bit of a laugh. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just a bit anxious myself I guess since I haven’t taken you out for a while and I know I already made you anxious. So I just want the rest of the night to go well.”

That wasn’t even a lie, though he was definitely focused on the road as they made the drive to the hospital. He got to use staff parking of course, and he’d let his staff know with a quick text that he and Obi were heading up. He slipped an arm around Obi’s waist as they headed up the elevator to the floor where his office was. The blinds were actually up on some of the windows to the hallway, which was semi unusual, but then it could have just been because Kazumi had been gone. The cleaning staff could have easily left them up. He tugged Obi over towards his desk, facing away from the windows, as he dug around in one of his drawers, pulling out a file and glancing over it, as well as a key he’d left on purpose. 

He glanced up briefly, and saw that things were ready, and so casually, he made eye contact with one of the staff members outside the window. There were a few that had chosen to help him, and they were holding up signs pressed against the windows, which spelled out the words 'Marry me, Obi?’ across them in big, hand drawn words, his staff hiding behind the signs.

“Hey, babe, can you go close the blinds on the windows really quickly before we leave?” He was still seeming to be looking at the patient file he’d pulled out, and then moved to put it away, pulling a ring box out of his pocket once Obi turned away..

And then once Obi really had faced away from him, Kazumi bit his lip nervously, and he actually got down on one knee, with the ring in his hand, waiting for him to turn back around. Gods, he was so nervous, but he wanted this so much.. 

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“Good,” the wait for their food started and Obi seemed to calm down a little, ordering a refill for his drink and sipping at it with a happy, calm flush to his cheeks when the food arrived.

He managed to eat half of it before saying he wanted to bring the rest home.

He was glad that his lover seemed to have calmed some, and it didn’t take Kazumi long himself to finish his food. He’d ordered something a little lighter than usual because he too was anxious, but he had good reason to be.

“Are you ready to swing by the hospital? You should come in with me, since it might take me a minute.” They were going up to his office, and Obi had been there before, so it shouldn’t make him too nervous. He also ordered a dessert for later, since he planned to bring Obi back to his place after the hospital instead of Obi’s house. “We’re going to my loft after the hospital, so if you need to pick anything up from your house, we can.”

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“If you say so…” He wasn’t sure he trusted that, given his boyfriend’s track record, but well…there wasn’t much he could do about it was there?

“…Afterward, I wanna go home and snuggle though.”

Snuggling afterwards sounded like a very good idea, although he sort of had a feeling Obi would want to go home afterwards anyway, for a different reason. “Yeah, we can do that. I very much like the sound of that.”

Honestly, Kazumi felt bad for stressing him out, but he knew Obi would be very glad of all of this once he found out what was really going on. He was planning to text his staff at the hospital once they got there, because he’d included them in his planning.

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“…You know I don’t like surprises…it’s making me nervous, which is making me nauseous.” He didn’t want to seem like a buzzkill, but he couldn’t help his body’s reaction to things. “…So I…I’m sorry…I’m trying…you know I am…”

He felt bad, but…

Yes, he did know that, however this wasn’t really something he could avoid surprising him with. It sort of required being a surprise, so Obi would have to deal. “I know, love. But currently, this really is just a very nice date.” He reached across the table, to brush his fingers over his partner’s cheek.

“Although I promise I am not going to be surprising you with something else like a house or a car. I was gone for a while, and I wanted to do something nice for you, by taking you out for a really good dinner date, and spending time with you.” Hopefully that would help him relax, and throw off some suspicion that something was actually going on.

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

“Sure. Did you forget something there?” He still didn’t understand what was happening and likely wouldn’t until it was shoved in his face. Their drinks arrived and Obi was quick to take a sip to calm his raging nerves.

“…” There was nothing cheap on the menu, so he decided on a steak dinner.

Ahh, yes, there was something he wanted to look at, but he’d intentionally left something in his office, for an excuse to have to go back. “Yes, there was something I forgot I needed that I left.” 

As per usual, Obi really didn’t have to cheap out on food, he could order whatever he wanted, but honestly, Kazumi hadn’t expected any less. His lover had been pretty much traumatized and trained into not taking up space, when honestly that whole sort of thing was a load of bullshit. But it would take time to unlearn, and some habits never were broken. “This is a date you know. You can enjoy yourself, love. I want you to.”

[moonlit-healer]

shadowofaprince​:

The problem about this whole thing was–Obi did not like surprises. He was very on edge, though he smiled lovingly back. “I missed you too…”

He didn’t have to drive obviously, so he didn’t hesitate to order some alcohol with his dinner, hoping it would take the edge off his nerves.

Well, in this case, he had a feeling Obi would like the surprise, but Kazumi was doing a great job at hiding what it was that he had planned. And he could tell his lover was anxious, so he didn’t say anything about the drink, it wasn’t like he wasn’t going to sip on some wine himself. 

Luckily enough for Obi, dinner was meant to be fairly relaxed, it was just dinner at a nice place, since Kazumi could afford such things. He had other plans after this. “I’m glad. By the way, can we swing by the hospital on our way back from here? I wanted to grab something from my office.”