Niko/Shadow Milk

They/them, he/him, it/its, and xe/xem Genderfaun, almondromantic, and graysexual Panic AU N and Shadow Milk Cookie fictionkin Autistic, ADHD, and OCD Fandoms: [MHA] [KNY] [TADC] [MD] [TSAMS] [Hazbin Hotel] [Helluva Boss] =DSMP= =BSD= [[CRK]] {Undertale} {Deltarune} {BATIM} {Cuphead} {BABQFTIM} ("[]" means currently active in to some extent, "=" means need to learn more about, "[[]]" means hyperfixation "{}" means used to really be in, not active but hasn't left the fandom completely) Plurality system with: Niko/Shadow Milk (host/core) Eclipse Star Glitch (Error Sans fictive) Bloodmoon (Unnamed) Tomu (redemption AU Tomura Shigaraki fictive) And Nyx (Nyx MD panic AU fictive) Hiya I'm just some random idiot looking to share my artwork and stuff !!I DON'T TAKE COMMISSIONS!! But requests from friends are alright !!!DNI if: Ableist, racist, homophobic, a trump supporter, proshipper, inc*st shipper, anti-plurality, anti-alterhuman, or anti-endo!!! Basically just don't be a jerk Random quote of the day: “So shiny so STROAANG”

[moonxx-v]

HELLO

Hello everyone! I am Niko or Shadow Milk, whichever you call me. I'm a digital artist that wants to just post things for fun!

Feel free to ask any questions to me! And soon, once I have a little more motivation, I shall do a Q&A thingy with my OCs :3

That'll be fun, won't it?

Anyways, bye bye~

(A/N: Feel free to roleplay with me as well, I love doing so!)

[amberisnothere]

Hah...angstslop

[moonxx-v]

Hah..ahaha..... Yay...pretty sure I found...something canon.. To my timeline.. Haha...

Must be why I'm so.....broken...

He left once

He didn't stay

He broke his promise

He lied about staying

He....

Lied.......

[asknillamilkfam]

Had a bad day so doodled some sleeby snuggles to cheer myself up

[moonxx-v]

IT'S NOT A WANT IT'S A NEED-

@cacaofawnie

(don't mind me casually tagging ya-)

[moonxx-v]

Idk tbh just something random I thought of

~shadowvanilla 💙💛 | Stardust and moonlight cookie, Stardust cookie banner, Shadow milk cookie computer wallpaper

Two animated characters from "Cookie Run: Kingdom." On the left, there is a character with a large, golden shield and a blue flower emblem.

(if there's text on the pic ignore it I put it on directly from Pinterest)

Most ppl can take this as a somewhat weird-ish shadowvanilla thing, but this is also for a very specific person (@cacaofawnie specifically hehehhehehehehe)

This is a bit of a songfic cuz uh yeah idk how else to put this so uhm yeah expect some like cinematic shit or something cuz I like imagery

ANYWAYS-

Song: Aishite Aishite Aishite English cover by Will Stetson

I don't know how long I've been wandering, crying alone, broken, but it's been a long time. I've had nobody, no one, not a soul, not a true home, just an endless cycle of deceit and false loves

Far away, far away, distant and out of place

There was a necklace shaped

I've been alone far too long, I've lost my way, it seems. I think these words as I sigh and look up at the stars, tears glistening in my eyes, unnoticed by anyone but those looking close enough

I just want a home, I just want a home

It cried through the night, feeling sad and alone

I spot your light, shining brighter than the stars I gaze upon, and feel a sense of fear. Your words so kind, your touch so gentle.. It's too good to be true. I tremble, afraid, not of you but of myself, and of the possibility of being cast aside again

Please don't angry

Don't leave and abandon me

Crumbling, cry to be free

I clutch my chest, as if in pain, though it seems more emotional than physical these days

So come tie it tight

Til the bile inside you

Overflows, warding the ones you call close

That was when my eyes shown with a madness few experience but many have seen reflected in others, in stories and in reality

Isn't this so much more fun?

So kind, a lie I'm your only one

It's unclear whether or not you saw my madness, but your smile shone

Charming and bursting with love

I'm kind and meek

Why can't you see?

That's when I smiled back, though I clutched my chest tighter

It's hurting me

My sweet

My thoughts, though unsure of the feeling you call love, seemed to spiral out of my control

Give me your love, give me your love, give me your love

More, oh, more oh

Give me your love, give me your love

Going insane by love so much

The tears returned, flowing down my cheeks like miniature waterfalls, glistening in the moonlight

Drowning in pain, drowning in pain

Curse in the brain

Take it, please, take it AWAY!

That was when I chuckled

But it seems you're far too late

I walked closer, my steps silent against the grass, slightly wet from evening rain, but you seemed to know I was there anyways, as you looked at me with that kind smile of yours

Though you may grow from your head to your toes

Still this small little necklace shows

I then, for once in years I cannot count, let my vulnerabilities be laid bare

I still feel pain, but I can't contain

These ignorant people or boring to taste!

You listened, but doubt lingered in my mind. Were you real? Were you true? Did you love me? Or am I deceived again?

I won't be bested

By all of the rest in this

Pitiful class, I'm the head

I tried to shake away the thoughts, but they lingered like a parasite in my head

And more than the girl, oh

Much more than the girl, oh

I want the eyes of this whole rotting world and-

Meet me in back of the gym

A letter penned with charm and wit

Somehow the feelings don't fit

My love for you was just too big

You filthy, detestable pig!!

You took my hands, still with that gentle smile, and my tears seemed to flow even free-er. I trembled.

Give me your love, give me your love, give me your love

Take it, all of me

Let me be yours, and you'll be mine

Take my grief and bury the key

You moved closer to me, one hand moving to my face. And at that moment, I guess hearts might've formed in my eyes, though I don't understand love

But I want more, you're such a bore

Still I want more, more than you bargained for

AHHHH!

Sorry for what's coming!

You then kissed me, just on the cheek, but it was enough to crumble what was left of the walls I've conjured around myself to live.. And then, everything burst out, unable to be held back by me

Give me your love, give me your love, give me your love

More oh, MORE oh

Give me your love, GIVE ME YOUR LOVE

Going insane by love so much~

Drowning in pain, keep it the same

Drowning in pain, more, oh more, oh

People call these happy days?

Everything seemed to melt away, even just for that moment, as you embraced me

People call these happy days..

And that's when I knew......

I've truly found my home

~~~~~~end~~~~~~~~

Sorry it's long, and sorry if the structure and things don't exactly make sense, this is the first time I've tried to pack meaning into basically anything..

Also sorry if it seems like mischaracterization heh..

[moonxx-v]

Just a little thing

Just some stuff I'm like 70% sure I might remember faintly, mixed with some current things

Feel free to use as headcanons :D

[moonxx-v]

Fearful thoughts of someone afraid of getting attached

.....

I'm afraid

Very afraid I'll be left alone again

It's so hard to trust

But I want to

I want to trust you

......but am I truly worth loving..?

[moonxx-v]

Ultimate Harbinger of Chaos, Moon

I decided to make a "ultimate" form of my persona, so here it is!

The bottom pic is "normal"-ish ultimate form, the one with the insane amount of eyes on the left side of the face is full ultimate identity loss version, and the one with the ghostly eye on the bangs is the real Moon trying to peek out.

Basically, this version of Moon has gone completely insane and now wants nothing but chaos and destruction

[moonxx-v]

New CRK OC, Lavender Cream Cookie!

Used the same base as last time but moved it around slightly so the pose would be a little different lol

Here's the GL2 version I made and used for reference btw. I forgot A few details but oh well

[moonxx-v]

Just some lyrics from songs I heavily relate to

Don't mind me just gonna plop down the most relatable parts of some songs I know cuz I'm doing terrible but have no idea how to vent without sounding like a pick me or something, so feel free to ignore..

Anyways

Blue + italics = lyrics just so ya know

Black = Mini explanation as to why if I provide one

Purple + bold = Song name

TWs: Dehumanization, implied obsession, implied insanity, identity loss/crisis/issues, mention of fire, implied death/suicide mention, mention of forgetting, blood mention, mirrors, broken glass mention, and a few swears

Reboot as soon as I am a-a-a-able..

Every other day I'm wondering

What's a human being gotta be like?

What's a way to just be competent?

These sweet instincts...ruin my life

Every other day I'm wondering

Was it a mistake to try and define?

What I'm certain's mad incompetence

These sweet instincts...RUIN MY LIFE

Just Be Competent

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You can't wake up, this is not a dream

You're part of a machine, you are not a human being

With your face all made up, living on a screen

Low on self-esteem, so you run on gasoline

Gasoline

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I know I know I know, I'm always in your place

But don't you see my dear? I am your doppelganger~

Have your face so-

Love me love me love me love me

Love me love me love me love me

Love me love me love me love me more~

Than you possibly can

It's not that complicated, no matter what they say

You'll never meet another me~

It's not that difficult to get your head around

You'll never meet another me~

You'll never never ever never ever meet another me

Stalker's Tango

This and the next one are related to my long-distance bf and possibly fictionkin related feelings

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Give me your love, give me your love, give me your love

More, oh more, oh

Give me your love, give me your love

Going insane by love so much

Drowning in pain, drowning in pain

Curse in the brain

Take it, please take it away

But it seems you're far too late

Aishite Aishite Aishite (Will Stetson English cover)

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Am I a robot or a doll?

Am I anything at all?

Maybe a soul like me

Doesn't yet deserve to know

Am I big or am I small?

Hunching over, standing tall?

I lost my identity oh so very long ago

1s and 0s, true or false

Reset system to default

Making the best of it

But I can't remember why

On my knees, I try to crawl

Fire-charred collapsing walls

Crying out for somebody

There is no one to reply

Language of the Lost

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Should, I choose, a noble occupation?

If, I did, I'd only show up late and sick

And they, would stare at me with hatred

Plus, my o-nly naturally talent's wasted

My Alcoholic Friends

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The world's greatest actor doesn't need a stage

Cuz they're so good at their craft that nobody knows their fake

The fools have no clue that the one they knew was just a fraud

The master of pretending to be something that they're not

But as the years go by, the actor starts to change

As day by day they live their life like all the world's a stage

Their true self mutilated by their permanent new mask

But by the time they realized, it was too late to turn back

The world's greatest actor despises their new form

Through their practiced sacchrine smiles they got much more than they bargained for

For as they turn back to their unsuspecting crowd

They thank them for their patronage and take their final bow

The World's Greatest Actor

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They tell me that I'm special, I smile and shake my head

I'll give them stories to tell friends about the things I said

They tell me I'm so humble, I say I'm turning red

They let me lie to them and don't feel like they've been misled

They give so much to me

I'm losin touch, get me?

Served on a silver platter, ask for seconds they just let me

They tell me I'm a god, I'm lost in the facade

6 feet off the ground, at all times I think I'm feeling odd

No matter what I make, they never see mistakes

Making so much bread, I don't care that they're just being fake

They tell me they're below me, I act like I'm above

People blend together but I would be lost without their love

Can you heal me?

Have I gained too much?

When you become untouchable, you're unable to touch

Is there a real me?

Pop the champenge!

It hurts me just to think and I don't do pain

My Ordinary Life

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Little voice ruining my sanity, evil dreams haunting me, don't you ever look my way

Little voice ruining my consciousness, nothing left to remininece, I would rather run away

Lessons learned from the page, lore is written to the day, all this pain will make me suffocate

All my thoughts ever strange, free me from the mental cage

How could I forget my name?!

Vibrant Eyes

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Tears laced with cyanide flow through the cracks of a mirror shattered long ago

And sure I'm the one who swung the metal bat

But hey I can't control the urge, nobody's gonna blame me for that

Impossible, impossible

Twist and turn it right around, the details never safe or sound

The truth projected through a lense with nothing proving otherwise

Now take the time to realize despite what you believe

The victim of a massacre was none other than poor me

Surely you can see the problem, I don't wanna lose my own reflection

A deplorable perception of me, was none other than an image of you

1 2 3 break

You're making a wreck of broken glass and leaving me a fucking mess

Bending in a way that shows exactly how the story goes

Whimsical dear your lies are clear. Now who the hell would've ever guessed?

Play my games and abide my ways, there's no way you can compensate

A monster, monster, monster, monster

Now run away, run away, run away

I-I'm a monster, monster, monster, monster

Now run away, run away, run away

Now you're the monster

A glimmer of betrayal changes my mind, the odds against your favor forever

Ignorant atrocities and cowerless apologies

This isn't what it looks to be, I'm not as cruel as you see me

Now take the time to realize despite what you may see

The mirrors cracked themselves, and I was cut on the broken shards

And how I bled

Stuck in a spotlight brighter than the smile no one ever saw

Bending light in a way that shows the truth that left our friends in awe

Whimsical dear your lies are clear, now who the hell would've ever guessed?

Play my games and abide my ways, there's no way you can compensate

Madness, it's madness

oh oh it's sickening, it's sickening

You know it's unfair, it's unfair

How you distorted my reflection

In all this madness, it's madness

Oh-oh it's sickening, it's sickening

You know it's unfair, it's unfair

how you distorted my reflection

You know it's too late

The Distortionist

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And that is all..

DISCLAIMER: I own NONE of these songs they all belong to their rightful owners

Byeeee

-Niko/Shadow Milk

[moonxx-v]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

Semi WIP we may not finish, since I'm a bit tired and didn't really wanna draw the lines, nor did I have enough energy to get our flags, so I apologize for the stupid little things taking the flag's places..

But me and 4 of the others have all drawn themselves digitally! On paper, though, everyone drew themselves

Here's the traditional ones

Niko/me - Almondromantic, gay, trans, genderfaun, graysexual

Eclipse - Bi

Star - Lesbian, demigirl

Glitch - Gay

Nyx - Pan

Tomu - Gay, demiboy

Cosmi (the previously unnamed one) - Non-binary

[ribbon-system]

reblog if you're ok with your singlet friends asking you questions about plurality and/or your system

[moonxx-v]

Random

So uh for no reason in particular, we've decided to start a journal/chat room for ourselves here among the other things we have planned for our little corner of the internet

Now, temporarily, this journal/chat room will just be on this blog, just until we decide if we want to make a sub-blog or not

On a side note, feel free to ask us all ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING!

The ones you can ask (at least, that we know), are:

Niko/Shadow Milk - The host and core. They/them, he/him, it/its, and xe/xem. N (Murder Drones Panic AU), Shadow Milk Cookie (CRK), Lucifer (Hazbin Hotel), Caine (TADC), Ruin, Cosmos, Jack, Moon (TSAMS), and Deku (MHA) fictionkin. Mental age unknown for now.

Eclipse - Yandere, gay, femboy, the "fun" one, loves memes. He/him. 15.

Star - Logical, analytical, little to no emotion, lesbian. She/they. 18.

Bloodmoon/BM - Cannibalistic (don't worry he's only ever done so in the headspace), psychotic, has kuru, dumb, slow, silly. Bloodmoon (TSAMS) fictionkin. He/him. Age unknown or he can't remember.

Glitch - Tsundere, a little anti-social, big introvert, HATES touch. Humanized Error Sans (Undertale AUs) fictive. He/it. 17.

Tomu - Protective, a little reserved, gamer, hates society. Redemption AU Tomura Shigaraki (MHA) fictive. He/xe. 21, but due to canon, xe's around 5-10 mentally at times, but should still be treated as an adult.

Nyx - Crazy, annoying (to Niko at least), teasing, sometimes flirty. Nyx (Murder Drones Panic AU) fictive. He/it. Ageless

Unnamed one - LOVES beanbags, silly, childish, autistic, has a fear of dolls and mannequins. Cosmos (TSAMS) fictive. They/he/xe. 11-13, we're not sure of their age yet.

And that is all we know of currently!

Bye-bye!!

-Niko/Shadow Milk

[moonxx-v]

Just a little comic we made

Star, Eclipse, and Bloodmoon each individually drew themselves, though BM had trouble with the hands

I tried..

I know, you did good! ^^

Yay..

[nonegender-leftman]

The Satellite-Moon System's Epic Plural Ask Game!

Welcome to our ask game! Wei made this in order to force ourselves to interact with plural community, and hopefully make some plural mutuals/friends! SO for every single person/system that reblogs this post, wei will send them an ask! That's right, every single one! AND if you send a screenshot as proof that you've sent someone else an ask, wei will send you another one! That's right, another one! So remember to be polite and send an ask to the person you've reblogged from! (Excluding meus unless you want to, wei would love to answer of you do)

Notes: Wei've used 'alter' instead of headmate due to personal preference. Wei used 'y'all' to refer to the system and 'you' to refer to the current fronter. When wei say "everyone" or "alters" big systems feel free to only do a few alters. Obligatory only answer what y'all are comfortable with

💼 (suitcase): Anyone(s) with a coworker relationship/who describes themselves as coworkers?

☢️ (radiation): Who would y'all trust with the nuclear codes?

🌗 (half moon): Is the system as a whole more moon-coded or sun-coded? Does anyone(s) fall outside of this, ie a sun-coded being in a moon-coded system?

⌨️ (keyboard): Does anyone(s) have a near illegible typing quirk (needs a translator)? No shame!

👽 (alien): Put the alters on a scale from The Creature to A Guy

🌑 (new moon): Some say every system has a "black void being with no mouth". Is this true? If so, who is it for y'all?

🏄‍♂️ (surfer): Who's the most "unemployed friend" coded? (Someone who's chill and casual but has a crazy secret(?) life where they do the most insane stuff)

🤡 (clown): Who's guilty of only using text/discord etc for sending memes/tiktoks?

☕️ (coffee): How does everyone make their hot chocolate/coffee/tea?

🤠🏴‍☠️ (cowboy pirate): Let's ask the real questions. Pirates or cowboys?

📓 (notebook): Who has/would made/make a million sideblogs?

📄 (paper): Who (would) takes surveys "for fun"?

🖤 (black heart): Anyone(s) feel like they fall into any tropes (doesn't have to be plural tropes)?

💬 (speech bubble): If you put everyone's initials together, can you make a name out of it? Or any words? If so what is it/are they?

🧍‍♂️(standing man): If y'all have a singletsona, are they moreso based on one alter, or the collective? If y'all don't have a singletsona, imagine y'all had to make one? Would it be based on one alter or the collective?

🏳️‍⚧️ (trans flag): Who's got the MOST pronouns? (You don't have to list them of you don't want)

🍳 (frying pan): Anyone got a weirdly specific talent/skill? As in its cool, but wouldn't be helpful most of the time? What is it and who's got it?

🐕 (dog): Pets! Tell us (with pics if you want!) about your physical world ones! How about insys pets? If y'all don't have one, would y'all want one? If so what kind?

🎂 (birthday cake): Does everyone have birthdays? Does anyone share a birthday with the bodies birthday? Do you celebrate when you were first discovered instead? Do y'all have a "collective birthday"?

🏳️‍🌈 (rainbow flag): How many bisexuals yall got?

🍝 (pasta): Have y'all ever fought over what to eat/make for meals?

🧛‍♂️ (vampire): We feel like so many systems have vampires. Does y'alls? If not, who's the most vampire-like?

🧚‍♀️ (fairy): A fairy and a walrus show up at y'alls door. Who are you letting in?

👨‍🦲 (bald): Vanilla extract OR I'm bald?

📖 (open book): Drop a funny system story, if y'all've got one

🧩 (puzzle piece): Say the system had to work together to solve an escape room (no other people). How long would it take? Would y'all still be there today?

🎁 (present): Have y'all ever bought something for someone who's never fronted/never will front?

🤜 (fistbump): Pick a random fictional character. Would anyone in the system be able to beat them in a fight? Who? Or are y'all cooked?

💻 (laptop): Have/would you(current fronter) put any fellow alters in Tomodachi Life (if you don't have the game, consider this a hypothetical)? Why or why not?

🎈 (balloon): Share something that brought y'all joy! Something that helped y'all or made y'all happy!

[moonxx-v]

Ok I'll do this since I do have a few alters (whom are called the "headspacers") up in here (I'ma exclude the emojis for what I don't have)

☢: Star, probably, they're the smartest

🌓: Tbh we're like... An eclipse, in a way, since we got both

⌨: Bloodmoon does sometimes

🤡: Eclipse: GUILTY AS CHARGED

☕: Decaf. Not allowed caffeine. Star likes theirs with honey-

📃: Me (Niko or Shadow Milk, either is fine) and probably Eclipse

💬: Absolutely!! Or quizzes! Mostly I do, but I'd let Eclipse if everyone else wasn't so like "oh we're not really gonna llike take over unless we wanna talk to people online"-

Uh trans flag since I ain't got one: Me probably- I go by they/them, he/him, it/its, and xe/xem

🍳: Eclipse can piss people off well lol

🐕: We got a cat! His name's Beamer!

🎂: We really only just do when I was born, the headspacers are chill with it

🧛‍♂️: Bloodmoon dude- he'd eat an arm or something if he could ngl

🧚‍♀️: Walrus ehehe

🧩: We're cooked unless Star would help

🤜: ....yeah we're cooked again everyone

💻: 100%! :D

Also to uh finish this here's like a little thing:

Me/Niko/Shadow Milk: They/he/it/xe, gay, trans, main person/original

Eclipse: He/him, gay, femboy, yandere and meme lord

Star: She/they, demigirl, lesbian, logic and knowledge

Glitch: He/it, gay, Error Sans fictionkin, tsundere

Bloodmoon: He/him, bi, cannibalistic, silly, dumb-ish

Those are the main ones, since most others have left or have been dormant for months-

That's all!!

Also we're new to knowing we are/might be a system, so uh...yeah

[moonxx-v]

Mini lyric vent feel free to ignore..

"I forgot my name again I think that's something worth rememberin'.."

-Devil Town by Cavetown

[bigs1stermoon]

Sometimes I look in the mirror and go "Huh.. thats not me, doesn't feel like me.. who is that?"

[moonxx-v]

REALEST SHT EVER

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

[navetheshrub]

”Stuck Inside” — I dunno the artist, but it’s the FNAF song

[thequartzjester]

Ghosting by Mother Mother

[cloudstrike493]

It aggressively flipped between “Silent Night” and “Rises the Moon” when I thought about it- :)

[uranusandsolarshow]

I have a bloody earworm in my brain bro- BUT I’m just *

*Teleported*

Watch videos instantly on Bing—enjoy direct playback, discover related clips, and dive into trending content all in one place.

(I prefer the slowed version bruh- IT’S SO DEPRESSING CONFLICTING FEELINGSSS)

I Really love “I Will Be Okay” by Helluva boss - ✨ (Im not sure if you know it)

OCTAVIA IS MY IDOL HEHEHE

I.always wanted someone to make a drawing of Uranus based off that song because it’s relatable to her struggles with her families trauma and her own! ✨

If you don’t know it click the link to the song!

And my pookies: @cloudstrike493 @kanmop @shadowdragon2341 @trixyrolldabee @isaartsconstentldrawing WHATS YOUR SONG?! ✨ (or I added you because I love you lol ❤)

[fnaffreak-87]

Count the Teeth by NateWantsToBattle has been in my head for the past two hours 🥲

[charlattecafe]

In The Navy by Village People…

yeah I don’t know either

[spiralspacemutt]

“Complete Collapse”, By: Sleeping With Sirens & “We’ll Be Fine” from Epic the Musical

10/10, would recommend 👌👌👌

[w1sps]

La Seine and that one song by Jack Stauber that got leaked.

[renisdefdead-deactivated2026052]

time will change you - the crane wives

[sillyingaroundd]

FRAGILE HEART - Bunnycat

Charlie’s Inferno - That Handsome Devil

Execution Clap - TRAP CHICK

LET ME IN - 1 800 PAIN

[moonxx-v]

Little Girl Gone - CHINCHILLA