MOO

"Um Oh Ah Yeah~ Do Ti La So Fa Moo~" A blog dedicated to Moo the radish. Castillo|Chacon|Rellosa SCHRÖDINGER

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Idol Operation Chapter 35

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"So are you ready or not Don’t let go of this moment Because the time is flying by Tick tock tick tock..."

Things may not what it seem, but Moo is standing strong against it. 

All was well but she’s not really satisfied.

Everything was moving but her body felt lackadaisical.

Every line was worth a thousand of emotions but Moo poured out everything her mind could cope.

Every gesture felt numb but even with a tired body and mind, Moo lifted her arms, every sinew working out what was supposed to be a gesture.

Because she knew that it was time to let go of all the doubts.

Because everything will work out till the end.

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 34

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“When you need a wind to soothe Your tired heart Will you listen to my song That will blow fragrantly...”

       There are times when you are too tired to continue what you have been fighting for because everything is no use but still you are doing it despite the odds because you knew that someday it will become your strength. There are times that all of your motivations fly away because your body and mind are to exhausted to work and help you go on with your life. There are times where you just want to lay down on a bed of roses, filled with the most fragrant and aesthetic imaginations of what was supposed to be your dream. There are those times but still you need to lift your head up and move your limbs because too much rest never helps.

        The only salvation to this is music. And Moo knew that music will forever be her best friend, guide and mentor and that music will bring her up from her slump. That music will be the only thing left of her sanity. That music is will be there, forever existing at the back of her mind, laying down the perfect expressions for the perfect lines and reactions. That music will heal and fill of what was once an empty dream. That music will turn everything right.

But its alright, everything is alright because in the end you will grow up and growing up means surviving the darkest things Life had given you.

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 33

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"When your precious dream That used to make your heart beat calls upon you Will you listen to my song That will embrace you comfortingly..."

       Often times, we get stressed by the smallest things. Often times, we tend to look for the answers that seems naught because you keep looking far away when the answer is right in front of you all along. Often times, we are blinded by the things that are too simple but may get complicated as the time goes on. Often times, we like to bury ourselves with burden, we cannot easily overcome. Often times, we just sit there, mind blank, eyes dull and limbs too tired to move. Often times Always, we are to immature to move on.

      Moo thought that everything is going well, that maybe being an actress might help her but it was too tiring. The competition was fierce from the very start but she’s too tired to deal with it. Everything just makes her exhausted by the minute and she’s not even having fun unlike being an idol. 

       But everything has their own comfort, Moo’s comfort was MUSIC and it was the only thing that could help her through thick and thin. The only thing that kept her motivated until now. 

And just wait a bit more and she’ll come back for sure not for revenge, but to prove that she has what it takes to claim the throne of the music legends.

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 32

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"It’s natural that you are lost like a clumsy child On this unfamiliar path It’s alright to take a rest, no rush Like that wild flower that’s bloomed slowly..."

       Moo wanted to laugh, she didn't know why but as she saw the trainees in the idol department still practicing and still didn't debut, the temptation of bursting in  laughter trembled underneath her skin. Happiness ran through her veins as she watched them tirelessly repeat everything in the dance routine, each having difficulty on following. She knew that everything came like a wrecking ball, so fast that she didn't even realize that she was so into the game called Life that she had almost forgotten how to live. Her laughter died down as she watched them still going on for minutes and now knew for a fact that maybe being an actress isn't so bad after all.

       Being an actress may be hard but it takes time to realize that maybe, just maybe being an actress is suited for her more than being an idol. Life may go really fast like a blur but once you realize the things that passed by, it will slow down, it will never stop, just waiting for you to catch up. If the old Moo knew that being an actress will help her stand up from the monsters that eat her every night, she wouldn't believe it. Now she knows why the company changed her department. Now she knows that this will guide her back to herself. Now she knows that being an actress is worth taking for when you will rise to the top and let the others show that you can act in the stage, wearing the fanciest costumes, singing the greatest comeback songs and dancing to your hearts content. Now she knows that even when life slows down because of having a slump, it will still flow and will continue to flow until you are ready to face it, and say 'I did it.'

After all, life has always been ready for us since the beginning of time, we just need to push through. 

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 31

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“The dark night passes and the bright early morning Wakes you from sleep The world is busy getting ready to welcome you Dazzlingly...”

Everyone comes at that point where you just need to be perfect at everything. Everyone makes everything flawless. Everyone thinks that by being perfect, you will be successful in life. Everyone describes perfect as someone sitting on a throne and looking down to those who are not. But when someone is consistently perfect, it’s no longer an accomplishment. ‘Perfect’ becomes an expectation. 

Moo had gone through all of that but as she looked back, she thought that maybe everything is not worth to take the risk for. Only those that really matters are worth it. She had become perfect in everyone’s eyes but as the time goes on, they became judgmental of her and it put pressure on her shoulders and she hated those times. Still, even though the company had changed her department and even though she is still lacking, those stares and whispers still get to her eras and cover up her mind. 

As of now, there are still things she need to learn but despite all of it, she is still fighting and standing up against those who don’t trust her abilities.

Because the world is ready to take her and she is ready to stand against it.

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 30

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“You better know I draw each day following the bright light You better know There’s a world that’s been waiting for you as you are...”

            When you think about it, Life itself may not have any real meaning. Is being obsessed with breathing and blood flowing through you body really living? In order to find the meaning for someone being born and living, don’t you think you need to find something more important than that?

       Fate has always been that mischievous kid always fooling you every chance he gets and you fall for it like a fool. Fate is the ex-boyfriend of some heart broken girl who fell hard and was hurt tenfold. Fate is that bad boy everyone falls for, good looks, daring eyes and annoying smirk. But fate is also that good boy who becomes your pillar support in the end. Fate has always been there you just don’t take any notice on it. 

       After fate comes in the play, Life takes place and everything restarts. You just need to take the right path again with the perfect weapons and strategies. Although every stage is different, you will still undergo to each change, each having fate on their own. Moo never liked these type of things but as she look back to everything that had happened these past few months, she knew that fate had decided to intervene everything. She never liked acting from the start but fate decided that she should act. She loved singing more than anything but what did fate do? It blocked her throat with lines filled with different accents and intonations not notes and melodies. She fell for dancing but fate hated the idea and locked her movements from waves, popping and waacking to expressions and small body movements. 

       But Moo knew it was inevitable. She just need to show who she really is. That even though her supposed D-day was cancelled, she will make them her foundation to improve her abilities not only in acting but also in being an idol. Because she is Moo and she is an Idol.

After all it was her job to choose from the beginning.

Lyrics (c) Red Velvet ‘You Better Know’

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Idol Operation Chapter 29

“Distorted truths, the lies that were taught A voice of change, a wave is rising The one to create an ocean that will swallow it all It’s you...”

       For the other people, today means nothing at all. That it was just something that’ll pass by as the time goes on. That today is just a repeat of a cycle that’ll never break. That today is just a day and nothing more. But for Moo, today was supposed to be her D-day. The day she’ll debut as a singer. That today is the day that she’ll start a fresh as an idol and break music records as the months go by. That today she’ll let everyone in this world to know her name. That today is the most special day aside from her birthday, because this day is the rebirth of who she was.

       But a process is a process and the company still didn’t follow her request. It was like being in a G0 where you take a rest until you rot or until you are ready to carry out the stages that comes after. Moo knew that after everything she had done, she was ready to take on her role. But of course SME just had to intervene everything she had done so far. Of course Moo knew the consequences of leaving for days and then coming back since being a trainee means eight hours of practice a day and never leaving unless you need to eat. And it was so hard not to let everything go. 

       Of course Moo understood everything that had happened and of course she understood why the company had changed her department but it was unfair for her because she knew that these artists who trained all day to master the mask of facial expressions and distorting lies are better than her and that all she knew is how to internalize to just act within a time limit of at least a minute unlike the actors and actresses who need to act all day, everyday until the whole shooting ends. But within this changes of internal things, Moo realized that may be it is time to just stand up and make up all the things she lack of. After all, all the things you hate may end up being the answer to your problems. And that change is for the better, may be not for the others but for her.

Because she knew that trainees tend to be trainee for a minimum of three years till they become an idol and by then, she knew that these changes will help her understand the meaning of what she truly chose.

Lyrics (c) EXO ‘The Eve’

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IDOL OPERATION CHAPTER 29

06.08.17

6PM PHL TIME

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Idol Operation Teaser #6

“Countless and earnest dreams That grew as they were trampled Blossomed over the wall, confidently Look at that scene...”

Tomorrow is the day and tomorrow means living yet again.

She was supposed to be debuting tomorrow.

Everything is supposed to change tomorrow but Moo guessed that it won’t come.

Tomorrow means living her dream.

Tomorrow means living her passion.

Tomorrow means something that’ll make her more like what she really wanted to become.

Tomorrow means nothing.

or 

Is it?

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Idol Operation Teaser #5

“Why must I decide about tomorrow, today? How should I know what tomorrow will bring? My path and my dreams are fading...”

Beginnings are not the end of everything.

Beginnings are the one that helps you.

Beginnings are the one that guides you.

Beginnings are always there, waiting for the chance to strike.

But every beginning, you will always be lost.

Because when you stop, it takes a long way for rest to come and for the end that may seem limitless.

Lyrics (c) JJ Project ‘Tomorrow, Today’

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Idol Operation Teaser #4

“Again today, there are questions I don’t know I’m trying to answer but I’m not confident Is it this way or that way? I’m afraid of my decision...”

Moo is still in between of choosing what she wanted to do.

She is still thinking that is it really worth changing for?

Or

Is it worth to risk?

But she was determined. She knew that by the time she had decided, everything will start from scratch and she needs to survive it, by hook or by crook.

After all, there is no turning back.

Lyrics (c) JJ Project ‘Tommorow, Today’

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Idol Operation Teaser #3

"Look at me, what’s the situation Past your flustered face I see the walls crumbling down And gradually, dawn is coming..."

Because the weather was good, 

because the weather was bad 

and because the weather was good enough.

I loved every moment of it.

Because in the storm, you learn who truly cares for you.

Lyrics (c) EXO ‘The Eve’

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Idol Operation Teaser #2

“We must break it apart and clash against it So we can see ourselves We must shout out loud So it spreads wide and far...”

Nobody starts off perfect and outstanding.

We have our limits.

We have imperfections.

We never start out great.

Even if we stand up against the current, we are still weak in every aspect.

But we must believe in ourselves.

For when the way down is beautiful ,the end must also be beautiful.

Lyrics (c) EXO ‘The Eve’

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Idol Operation Teaser #1

“The moment soft lights spread out And chases away the darkness We must wake up again To the new morning...”

If everything seems to be against you, the only thing you could possibly do is to stand up for yourself.

If you thought that everything is not going well, the only thing you could possibly do is to make a change.

If all the things you did seems to be a naught, the only thing you could possibly do is to push yourself to your limit.

If everyone thought that being an actress is suited for you, the only thing you could possibly do is to show them...

That you are an Idol and will forever be.

Lyrics (c) EXO ‘The Eve’

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IDOL OPERATION TEASER #1

29.07.2017

7:00 PM PHL TIME

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Idol Operation Chapter 28

“If we line up under the same rules There’s no meaning, there’s no fun There isn’t always just one answer...”

Being an idol is tough but being an actress is tougher. Everyone is pretty much different from one another. Some might say that a fish trapped in a fishbowl is happier when it doesn’t know how vast the sea is, but Moo knew that if she doesn’t go out of her boundaries, she may never get the best of her abilities. She may be different from the others, but we have similarities too. After all, we wouldn’t have any friends if we don’t have any common grounds.

Perhaps the others may think that everything is not worth to take a chance but Moo thinks that even though being an actress is more difficult than being an idol at least it pushes her to her limit and her life will go against the current of her routine that will probably never change unless she put her heart and energy into it. 

There are so many possible solutions to every problem. There are probably thousands of us thinking the same thing at the same time. There are so many differences but there are probably a lot more on similarities. Some will be carriers. Some may be the transporters. Some may be the receiver. Some might say that we are not the same.True. But honestly all of us are pretty much the same in terms of pushing ourselves to our limit until we decide that we are contented.

And we all live in order to find the meaning as to why we are born.

Lyrics (c) Taeyeon ‘Hands On Me’

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Idol Operation Chapter 27

“Sometimes, when you’re tired and out of breath Stop and sit, look at the sky Listen, we’re all different, we can’t be the same...”

       The road to being an actress is very different from being an idol. Everyone knows that. It’s a basic information. Idols tend to train more on their dancing and vocals while actresses train hard in controlling their emotions and working on the way you say he script. Moo never knew why the company decided to give her a second chance that she couldn’t cope up with. She herself couldn’t even understand herself further as to why she didn’t quit and choose another company. Maybe because its one of the big three in the entertainment world and everything would be a waste.

        If being an idol is hard and tiring because of the physical works then being an actress is harder since you need to have a great mental capability to control the emotions that bubble within you with each character you portray. Singing has never been easy at this situation for Moo, because in her mind, singing has been her escape from reality. Singing will never change who you are and who you wanted to be. But acting is more difficult. Acting is portraying someone you are not. Acting is leaving your true self and escaping the reality by being someone you never even knew and never even met. 

        To others dancing may seem easy. To Moo dancing is difficult, because each movement symbolizes something you want to show to the public, but dancing is her only ticket to freedom. Then again there’s acting which is way harder than dancing. Some might say its really easy but in Korea, acting means being natural in the way you move yourself while being cuffed with the emotions you need to show and the lines you need to say. Acting means the way of behaving and leaving your reactions to the lines. Acting means something that is pretty much different from dancing. Acting is the lock while Dancing is like a cloud drifting away each minute.

And Moo hated every second of it.

Because she isn’t a puppet that is thrown to a suffocating set filled with cameras, directors, co-actors and actresses, stylists, producers, editors and script writers. 

She is Moo and she is an idol.

Lyrics (c) Taeyeon ‘Hands On Me’