W O R D S

The heart wants what it wants.

[morethan2amthoughts]

— Remember Us This Way, Lady Gaga 2018

[a-song-about-apple-pie]

I just really really miss you.

[morethan2amthoughts]

I need you, but I realized what I did to you that day.

“I'm sorry for blaming you, for everything I just couldn't do, and I've hurt myself by hurting you”

[kimbero]

[morethan2amthoughts]

should I be sorry because I can't never be her? I won’t reflecting my insecurities to others but I still feels like I don’t deserve you.

I’m not that good enough. I know it.

Imaani, 2021

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

“Happiness is something final and self-sufficient, and is the end of all action.” - Aristotle, Nicomachean Ethics

[morethan2amthoughts]

Hurt part II

dreaming of being your one and only the one you are proud of the one you looking for the one beside you

but you choose to walk away ignoring me ignoring these feelings ignoring that I loved you, unconditionally

“will I be okay without you?”

Imaani, 2021

[morethan2amthoughts]

Hurt part I

I'm not pretty enough to be yours I'm not good enough to be yours I'm half way there to be pretty I'm half way there to be yours

but it seems too late you want the other not me

should I take 3 steps back from you? should I back away to be away from you? should I give up on you?

no more laugh no more share our stories in the midnight in the pouring rain

"I'll start letting go of little things, until I'm so far away from you"

Imaani, 2021

[morethan2amthoughts]

a deep pain

big trees falling of the wind also my tears falling of those words those words that hurt me it cause me pain

a deep pain it’s just a word but it’s sharper than a knife stabbing me deeper than a thorn

i have no words left to say i'm frightened “starting to think that I’ve lost all feeling” but I have to stay

because I know things will get better and I can fix it yet I still feel devastated can't get rid of this pain that fast

this deep pain feels like live forever I tried to forgive I tried to not think about it I tried to let everything go by the flows

should I blame the devil in my shoulder? or should I abide what the angel says about forgiveness? will I be free? if I forgive, am I not going to bear all this anymore? Imaani, 2021

[jericosilvers]

[morethan2amthoughts]

Will I find the peace by this way?

[morethan2amthoughts]

Maybe Russian Roulette true, I should take a breath and pull the trigger to myself.

[morethan2amthoughts]

I can’t live like this. This is too much.

[morethan2amthoughts]

This pain is so eternal. It lives like forever.

[morethan2amthoughts]

When will this pain come to an end if I do not end this by myself.

[morethan2amthoughts]

It’s hurt I just want to die.

[morethan2amthoughts]

Hurt but get used to it.

[morethan2amthoughts]

Dumb and Regret

My heart shattered again The “no older notifications” are back :I/m bleeding inside I’m dealing with the regrets again

It’s always the regrets that come in the end I’m abandoned my mental stability And I’m taking it out on other people Until he said “I’m done”

Now I can’t reverse what happened The rose has withered The heart has been pricked by thorns Tears have fallen again

For all that I have said For all that I have done I’m sorry and really really sorry Even though this sorry won’t make you back

I’m still here...

Now the universe has witnessed The dumbest person on earth Who dumped you Who made you uncomfortable

Is me.

P.s. I’m still here waiting for you with tons of flowers on my heart, please take all of these for you.

—आदित्य dibaca: Aditya, 2020