life & love

Kelsey Ⓥ • loser • • Canada • • queer, she/they • • in love w/ Victor Nikiforov •

[sofyasemyonovna]

the urge to just lay down and let time pass you by forever. it’s called clinical depression

[c-isnenegro]

[sickteeth-archive]

050120

[feralcatman-moved-deactivated20]

a dilf is not a dilf if he’s shitty to his children

[llorumis]

[ID: a screenshot of tags on a tumblr post. the tags read “they’re only a dilf if they act like a dad. otherwise they’re filth (father I’d like to hurt).” end ID]

[teacuppigdog]

Me, reblogging from anyone I don't follow: I'm introducing diversity into the gene pool. This will make my mutuals' dashes stronger and healthier.

[perfectfeelings]

[abnormall]

[wishing-for-deathx]

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[brokenflicker]

"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."

— depression is a disease and it's tiring

[abnormall]

[deadbyinsidee]

[perfectfeelings]

[unsettlingstories]

When will Microsoft Edge finally be allowed to Microsoft Cum :(

[perfectfeelings]

[morewoodforall]

I just. Don't want to do this anymore. I've been trying so hard for so long. I think I'm doing my best but then I always disappoint and hurt the people in my life. I don't know what to do. I don't want this kinda life if this is all there is.

[happyplaces-deactivated20220523]

we have forgotten what simp really means.. it stands for squirrels in my pants