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I'm sorry WHAT

'lazy people don't feel guilty about not doing anything' is insane to me and I have been trying to make my brain believe it for a long time, it shocked me to my core when I first heard it

astropithecus

An important corollary to "if you were faking your mental illness, you could stop whenever you wanted."

morphyandlaya

Aka: If you’re lazy, you’ll have fun doing absolutely nothing. If you’re suffering from decision fatigue or any other reason that would stop you from doing something and you end up doing nothing, you’ll be miserable and feel guilty.

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I wish parents understood this. Like no your child isn’t lazy. They just are not doing well, they don’t have good skills to deal with this, and/or are bot taking medication they need.

#executive dysfunction #adhd #autism things #disabled #I always wondered if I had something #be better parents

notevenawellknownclown

Astarion and slavery

so i mentioned in a previous post that i might venture to discuss Astarion's lack of care for the deep gnome slaves at grymforge... the time has come.

I wandered over to the myconoid colony after I defeated Nere (who is still a little bitch, by the way) and spoke to the leader of the mushroom people. I turned around and saw one of the formerly enslaved gnomes with spores surrounding her and fungal flakes boring out of her head. the gnomes with her were talking about how they couldn't believe that would be her end, that she would be a shell of who she was. Astarion's line after this made all the slave apathy click. he says:

"They're just husks. I couldn't care less if they're slaves or building material."

this has provided such a revelation to me. so much so that i immediately opened tumblr dot com to discuss this finding.

Astarion sees these gnomes as husks of themselves. it would seem that the implication here is that slavery took their personhood from them.

in my ramblings about Astarion, i regularly emphasize (try to, at least) that he doesn't care about people who are weak. he sees them as worthless, meaningless, empty. this certainly matches the husk comment. Astarion's lack of empathy is because he doesn't see slaves as equals. he's finally free, finally elevated from his former misery, and finally has a position of equality with those around him. he's a person again. and to empathize with a slave would be to deny his rediscovered personhood.

[this doesn't make it right. Astarion is still an asshole. i'm not attempting to excuse his behavior, just to understand where his psyche is at.]

this ideology about freedom and empathy holding hands with weakness makes sense given his appreciation for tav's recognition of his agency, and his line about "i never stopped thinking like a slave." he doesn't want to help those who are weak because to be weak is to be less than a person.

it could be why he's so sensitive about others knowing his weaknesses. if they know he's not powerful, he'll become a slave again: less than them. unequal. undeserving. ignored and abused.

anyway, this specific sequence of thoughts had never occurred to me before and i had to sit down and process them when i heard that line.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion #bg3 astarion #yeah he’s a recovering asshole #he was a racist nasty man when he was alive #and as a slave previously he was punished for having empathy #I always read him as being both the master’s favorite and least favorite so the others treated him like shit #he’s probably a couple of years away from becoming a half decent person #without romancing he is still able to become a good person it just takes longer

torracat

this is the money garf. reblog for untold pasta and riches to come your way

mysilent879

morphyandlaya

Me:

#meme #humor #cute #cute cats #cat #not my art

kropotkindersurprise

you know how it is

#sharks #sharkstarion #astarion bg3 #bg3 memes #it’s so him

nudityandnerdery

Hey, we’re in line for some absurd temperatures here in the southwest this week. This is very important to know and keep in mind. Be safe, stay hydrated, stay out of the sun as much as you can.