I thought my eating disorder was a phase but I realize now I never recovered from it. I went from starving myself and occasionally purging throughout middle school and high school to full on binge eating for a whole year and a half which made me gain 50 lbs now i’m starving and binging and purging and I can’t stop. I purge at least 3 times a day every day and every time I eat I physically feel like I can’t keep it down. I’ve lost 20lbs in 2 weeks. my mouth has sores. my throat hurts. my lips are dry. my family thinks I lost weight because I stopped one of my medications because that’s what I told them since i’m too ashamed to tell the truth. i’m too scared to tell my therapist because I know I need to stop but deep down I don’t want to. what do I do
