Poetry and stuff🍟

©most-ment all rights reserved. I write poetry, I mean I try. Insta: @faheetriestowrite

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Little intro❤︎

Salaam, I'm Faheezal,

Servant of Allah,

Writer,

Student

Basketball-fashion-anime-webtoon-book enthusiast.

I write poetry here, you read them.

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A reunion of broken things

Some years have passed since we've last seen each other,

Time flies when you're chasing new dreams and new wonders.

Keeping in touch shouldn't be so difficult,

Yet my read receipts have been turned off since the last time we fought.

_

What brings us here today other than guilt?

What strings us together other than regret?

Somehow in a couple years we've demolished all we've built,

Somehow the good times have become easy to forget.

_

I'm not here to point fingers though,

That game has gotten too exhausting.

Instead I'm here to let some of my guilt go,

I'm tired of always feeling needy and wanting.

_

It's fine if you all don't say anything,

Enough is said without the unspoken screams. 

We've long stopped speaking and we've long stopped listening,

Welcome to the reunion of broken things.

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Salaam loves, hope you like the poem.

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[jordynhaiku]

Water in my lungs,

sand scraping my soft skin.

Why did I let go?

[unforgettable-sensations]

Chat

You’re glad I’m mad

In a mismatched plaid

And that’s my bad

But you’re still sad

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Ghosted

Where do you reside, Outside my daydreams? In what corners do you hide, That I cannot seem to reach? . Am I the only one bothered by the distance, The radio silence? My thoughts find you at every instance, And yet it seems that I'm the only one who minds it. . Do you know what I fear? That once again I am the only one forgotten, The only one who always seems to care, The only one who endures all the hurting. . I wish I could see you So I can finally be able to decide If all this yearning that I do, Is simply a waste of time. . Where do you reside, That I cannot seem to reach you? If my daydreams are nothing but a lie, Then a spoken truth is the least you could do.

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Salaam loves. Eid Mubarak. Hope you like the poem. Btw you can check out more active posts on my insta fahee-tries-to-write. Till next time loves.

My Ghosted taglist: @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

[unforgettable-sensations]

Subzero

The pressure of all the oceans

On my chest when you’re not there

But it all seems fair when you resurface

And I don’t gasp for air

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Beautiful!

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Puzzle

It often begins with the urge to complete a puzzle,

to compare the image in my mind with the picture of reality.

I speculate your thoughts, your dreams, your truth.

Psychoanalyse in line with the lines of my vanity.

~

It often starts so simple;

a joke said in a crowd that made me crack a smile.

Conversations about the the basics and the trivial.

Destiny running its course in the meanwhile. 

~

Then it’s one or two reoccurring thoughts,

easy to put aside, difficult to forget.

I begin to think I know what you want,

and then spend countless hours checking if I’m correct.

~

I begin to assume that I know you,

because the smile you send my way is one other haven’t seen.

I begin to presume you know me too,

in your guarded mind lies my vulnerable thoughts and dreams.

~

If only it remained that easy,

fluttering insects, glass rose tinted.

But one must wake up from their dreams eventually,

start to taste the regret, see the signs that were hinted. 

~

If only I didn’t assume,

what your words meant, where your thoughts went.

Then maybe I wouldn’t have been so confused,

by the daydreams filling the gaps of your absence.

~

It often ends with the puzzle still incomplete,

my mind and heart finally settled.

I learn to stop looking for your missing piece,

but I never do learn to forget you.         

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Salaam loves! I know it's been a while. I hope you like the poem    

My Puzzled taglist: Let go of this taglist: @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

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The burdens of the Burden

You have little idea,

How much weight I carry,

How many kilograms is the fear,

That they’ll eventually get tired of me.

~

You have a small grasp,

Of the luggage I must hold.

Within its tightened straps,

Are the debts that I owe. ~

You have a minuscule understanding,

Of how heavy the load is,

Of knowing that every meal you’re having, 

Is at the discretion of the hostess.

~ You have no knowledge,

Of the struggles, the problems, the hurting. 

How often we forget,

That even Burdens have burdens.  ~Faheezal.

~

Note: Salaam loves, it has been a while, life has been more hectic than I anticipated and yet poems are still written that I am honoured to share. I hope you like it.

The burden of being on my taglist: @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

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Ghazal-Tahf

The day has just begun yet we’re fighting hopelessness.

Underneath the morning sun, w’ere fighting hopelessness. ~

We try to keep our smiles upturn, while we’re

tired and worn from fighting hopelessness. ~

News reporters argue in the background, while our

minds prepare for another round of fighting hopelessness. ~

Time never seems to want to still as we

slowly lose our will to fight hopelessness. 

_ Poems incomplete, so many tattered sheets we’re 

exhausted, we’re beat cause we’re fighting hopelessness.

~ But we cannot let it in, in this fight we will

SUCCEED, and win, against hopelessness.

  _Faheezal.

Note: "Rebellion is praised in fiction and history but condemned in the present and reality."

As the days turn to months and the months turn to years, our hope might start to wear in a world that doesn't seem to care but I implore you to keep fighting, not just against the evil of the world but the hopelessness within ourselves for always 'The help of Allah is near'

On must not lose hope in this taglist:@annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

[allahs-trying-servant]

How does one breathe,

With the scent of their agony pungent in the air?

How does one sleep,

When the sound of their cries fill your nightmares?

~

How does one write,

When the ink stains a red hue?

How does one fight,

In a world blind to the truth?

~

No one can claim to be unaware,

The blanket of ignorance is long worn out.

Days, months now longer than a year,

Only unkindess can be the source of your doubt.

~

How does one cry,

When the tears have long dried up.

How could I write,

Without for this genocide to stop.

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Let go..? 

 I thought I had grown;

Vanquished the demons of my past.

I assumed I had long flown,

That the sinking feeling was gone at last.

~

I am supposed to be passed this,

I am supposed to be better.

Gone, I hoped were those habits,

That I once thought would entrap me forever.

~

My thoughts are supposed to be kind,

My glass, half full,

But everything has begun to rewind;

Dormant embers, now rekindled.

~

My heart is supposed to be light,

My smile, genuine,

But the weight comes back sometimes,

With a frown, menacing.

~

Where does it come from?

When will it truly leave me?

How far away must I run,

For the shadows to never again reach me?

~

When will it all end?

When will I grow? When will I know?

When will these past feelings and regrets,

Finally let me go?

~

Note: Salaam loves, been quite a bit, hope you like the poem.

Let go of this taglist: @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

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How did you start writing poems?

Thank you for the question. It's a simple one but I apologise cause my answer might end up quite complicated.

I started writing poetry for two reasons, three if we really want to deep it.

The first reason was to ease my way into writing songs( at the time i assumed that poetry was simply an easier version of that)

The second and third was to give my sadness, heartbreak and frustration an outlet; somewhere to go.

To be honest I don't remember my first poem, I don't remember which of these reasons led to me writing out my emotions for the first time. All I know is that I have never been the same since I began this journey, so much has changed since then. Alhamdulilahi for those seemingly insignificant moments that change the course of our lives for the better.

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I'm too shy to ask

But if you have any prompts

Please kindly send some

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It's that time of the month guys, please send some inspiration <33

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Repeat

It's happened again,

The cocoons within my stomach have opened.

My heart has began to prepare for the race,

Another marathon; it's once again in motion.

~

This time is a lot like the others;

Convincing, scary, seemingly real,

But too many times has my heart previously fluttered,

Only to end up quiet and still.

~

How do I know if this will be different?

How can I be so sure?

Feelings come and go but as always these are insistent

on making me hope for more.

~

It's happened again,

And to be honest I'm too tired to race

I'm too terrified of the possibility of more pain,

To hope for something that actually stays.

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Note: Hello loves, a little glimpse into my thoughts and my heart, hope you like it.

@annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

[her-written-thoughts]

ya Allāh, make me how you want me to be, آمین.

— her.written.thoughts

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Evighed

Immortality isn’t a blessing,

Though I have been able to escape the withering of my bones,

Though I have seen millions of suns setting,

I cannot dictate when the one I love goes,

I cannot stop his life from ending.

~

To grow old is something I yearn for,

Not to be stuck in this endless loop.

I am a woman in the depths of the ocean floor,

Drowned in the punishment of eternal youth.

~

The life of a mortal is like a sigh,

and I have failed too often at holding my breath,

One moment they're living and beautifully alive,

The next they are made ugly by the touch of death.

~

Immortal life has brought nothing but sadness,

Brought nothing but emptiness and pain,

Constantly on the brink of madness,

So very close to turning insane.

~

Immortality isn’t a blessing,

It becomes pointless all my endeavours,

Immortality doesn’t mean anything,

If I can’t have you forever.

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Salaam my loves, please don't be mad I know it's been forever (pun intended) since I posted. Your girl has just been dealing with the complicated blessing that is life. This is one of my much older works edited to be readable, I hope you like it. What book, poem or film does this remind you of?

My not-so-immortal tag lis: @annotated-catastrophe @jayrealgf @sweetwarmcookies16 @think-through-pen @jordynhaiku @timeflieslikeabanana @grimfox @mk-ranz @unforgettable-sensations @dbaydenny @andileighwrites @onherway @sharmerika @hauntedjellyfishtraveler @hafisat @crownwriter @bdulhamid @chioma66 @dbaydenny @friendlyneighbourhoodartist

[jordynhaiku]

When the first rains fall,

I'll wash your perfect skin in

the violet bath.

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She's baaaackkkk!