Seokjin bites his lower lip. Aphrodite said that she wonāt mend his broken heart, which frankly relieves him.
Heās sure he would regret it later if she did, because wouldnāt she be taking away his feelings too? Heās a bit of a stubborn romantic in that taking away a broken heart just like that, with just the snap of the fingers, seems so wrong. It took him a long time to get to the point of liking - no, he can say loving - someone this much that his heart felt like glass had been shattered inside of it, and then the muscles and arteries had been used like bread to pick up the pieces. It f*c- really hurts, yes, but itās supposedĀ to have feeling. Otherwise, whatās the point?
Even still, heās a bit hesitant in following her. Goddess of love, or not, sheās still a stranger to him. And he doesnāt want to be a burden.
So he takes it, and with it, deep breaths to calm his nerves and soothe the chance that heāll burst into tears.
āI, um. Thereās this guy Iāve been friends for a while - Jungkook. Heās a good kid. Quiet; shy in a cute way, I guess; kind of lazy; really, reallyĀ competitive;ā Seokjin almost laughs at that.Ā āKind of a perfectionist, really prideful. But we became friends, and after a while I guess his good qualities just really started toā¦ latch to the back of my mind? And then the front? Because heās also really nice, and gentle, and understanding, and playful, and passionate, and talented - like he may not be the smartest, but heās so good at dancing - and it doesnāt hurt that heās also incrediblyĀ handsome. I donāt know.ā Seokjin wrings out his hands.Ā āI thought for a while that maybe he liked me too, so I didnāt do anything and thought Iād just let it run its course to a relationship or something? But then he went on this blind date, and I didnāt think much of it, but I guess they really hit it off or something, because he asked me for advice a few times - although why heād ask me, I donāt know, because Iāll say right now that I have noĀ experience in this kind of thing. I still didnāt take it quite seriously, though.
āI left Mount Phoenix rather abruptly a few months ago and only came back recently. I didnāt tell anyone because I was so rushed. My dad, he - heās in the special forces and he came back from an assignment really injured for the first time, so as soon as I heard that, I kind of just rushed out on the first flight with my older brother. He called the university for me, but he didnāt tell any of my friends because he doesnāt know them that well, and I was too out of it, I think. My dadās doing a lot better now, which is why Iām back - my brother and I healed him a bit, since my momās the Chinese goddess of healing - and as soon as I got back, I went to Jungkookās place with a bunch of souvenirs, and, I donāt know, expected him to come running into my arms like some kind of idiot. But it was really tense, and he got really close, and I just - I just kissedĀ him and I donāt know why, and he blurted out that it mustāve been a mistake on my part, an accident, and that heās dating the girl he went on the blind date with and I ran out and Iāve been feeling so brokenĀ ever since.āĀ Seokjin takes shaky breath, pursing his lips, and shuts his eyes tightly to chase away the wetness and stinging and heat behind their lids.
She kind of regrets not starting a relationship counseling service here, on Mount Phoenix. Itās nothing if not helpful to talk about problems out loud, especially with someone who has expertise in this area unlike fake love doctors that claim to know best.
Despite her exterior, she really does listen intently, taking a few moments to process all the new information given to her without saying a word. Aphrodite occasionally nods and hums at certain times, her fingers occupied with picking polish off her manicured nails.
Itās a complicated situation, no doubt, and she does figure it would just be easier to have him fall in love with someone else and call it a day-- it would be a good solution for the broken heart, and the love would be real, but she canāt find it in her to use that until it becomes a last resort.
Aphroditeās been forced into a lot; she canāt force someone else to fall in love now.
Especially not someone who is so young, who has so much to learn from heartbreak.
While he speaks, she gets up to get a cup of water from the fountain, handing it to him when he manages to choke up a little and taking her seat again, one leg crossed over the other as she takes a deep breath.
āWow, that sounds like shit.ā She starts by saying the obvious, almost to break the ice. Pulling her hair into a ponytail, she slips off her heels so she can cross her legs under her, shifting so she can have them on the chair as her arms cross over her chest.
āOkay, so what it sounds like is you had an expectation to have some kind of feelings for you, and thatās not to say that this guy doesnāt actually have feelings for you. But evidently they werenāt the ones that Ā you had hoped to get from him? Stop me if Iām wrong.ā Aphrodite scratches her neck, her eyes trained on the mirror behind her desk as she continues.
āHereās the thing, though. Youāre always going to get hurt if youāre the one feeling more strongly about someone than they feel about you. Itās just the way life goes, you know? Your feelings are absolutely valid, but donāt you also think itās kind of unfair on him? Were you going to tell him about your feelings for him before you had to leave?ā
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