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The Netherlands - Eurovision 2018

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As a Dutchie, I approve.

When you haven’t been on here for months and all of a sudden your post gets attention 😱

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That first gif is so satisfying to watch

See, I like to eat chocolate And I rarely workout So the results of that in the long term are pretty foreseeable. Now, you can call that lazy, or a lack of motivation I'd like to call it acceptance of certain flaws in my personality.

#flaws #just a thought #I'm a mess #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i’m having a really weird phase...

#lol #it's hilarious #but also really weird #since when did i get so confident

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til the stars go blue | everyone tries to pick up the pieces after robert’s breakdown

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It’s raining when Robert gets discharged. Of course it is, what else would it do?

Vic picks him up. Her eyes are worried and she’s chewing her lip. Robert can’t blame her, he knows what he looks like, worn paper thin and fraying around the edges.

“You alright?” she asks.

Robert gives her a look. He’s not really, but he’s alive. That’ll have to do for now.

They’re quiet in the car, just the sound of rain and the wipers thumping. He watches Vic open her mouth to say something six times before she find the words.

“Are they sure you’re okay to come home? You still seem pretty out of it.”

Robert nods. He is. He can feel the person he used to be but it’s like a coat that doesn’t fit right, he can’t seem to put it back on.

“I’ll be fine,” he tells her.

He can see her frown, not convinced. Robert wishes he didn’t feel the same way.

They’re quiet for a while longer before she cracks again.

“Aaron wanted to come,” she says, voice bright. False. “I told him you asked me to come on my own but he’s waiting for you at home.”

It’s like an ice bath, like being back in that lake. Robert can’t breathe right. “I can’t face him. Not yet.”

“What? Robert he loves you. He’s been worried sick, especially when you wouldn’t let anyone visit.”

Robert doesn’t want Aaron to worry about him. He doesn’t want Aaron to think about him at all.

He doesn’t say anything in the end, can’t make his mouth work.

They stop at a red light and she looks over at him, hands at ten and two like dad taught them. “You know I love you right?” she asks. “You know that, don’t you?”

Robert nods. He can’t feel it, but rationally he knows she has to love him at least half as much as he loves her. That’s more than enough.

He rests his head against the window when they pull off, suddenly exhausted. Watches it rain.

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#so so so so so so so good

plot twist: you are everyone's first choice.

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I thought yesterday about when Aaron told Robert about the abuse and how he hit Sandra and he said, “What kind of bloke does that make me?” And Robert replied, “The kind that’s had to put up with too much for too long.” And it made me think of Robert and how much he’s put up with…

From his parents splitting up, his dad not letting him go with the only mum he’s ever known because she’s “not actually his mum” and he’s then messed up about his sexuality, messed up about his dad preferring someone else, his mother figure then dies and he watches and can’t do anything, he’s then in love with someone who is marrying his “brother” then watches his dad go to prison for said “brother” then watches that brother almost kill his dad because he wants to kill him. Then loses who he loves. Then watches someone die because he can’t save them in time after saving his brother. His dad then sends him away, and then DIES. And he doesn’t get a chance to make things up. He then vanishes for several years, comes back with a family he’s clearly not happy in, falls in love with someone else again, accidentally kills his ex love, watches the man he loves (but can’t even admit he loves) falling apart with guilt, his marriage implodes and the only person he wants in his life hates him. He then has his brother once again try and kill him, HE ALMOST DIES, then is expected to just get over it, he thinks the man he loves did it, finds out it was his brother, has to save his brother again, loses everything because he’s out of the company and the family, gets the love of his life out of prison only to be told he hates him, finds out someone he has no issues with willingly tried to murder him, witnesses the love of his life almost die. Is then told that he went through the worst thing in the world, tries to support him through it only to be repeatedly told he’s worthless and no one wants him, finally gets another go with the man. Is suddenly thrown into raising someone he doesn’t know. Loses his brother because of his bitter ex wife, almost loses his own life and almost has to witness Aaron die- is prepared to die with him- finally gets him back and gets some happiness when insecurities send Aaron over the edge and he gets sent to prison. Has everything piled on to him to the point he doesn’t sleep, can’t deal with anything. Then finds out his husband is being beaten up and has turned to drugs. Gets told he’s no use to his husband and is essentially dumped. Then makes a massive mistake because he’s so depressed and quite frankly too drunk to make any decisions (that’s a whole different post) then riddled with guilt doesn’t get the chance to come clean, then has to deal with Aaron coming out and finding out what actually happened to him, then has this pregnancy thrust at him, has no one to turn to, is desperately trying to keep Aaron safe and happy all the while dealing with the problem growing inside he biggest mistake he’s ever made.

At what point is it too much for him to handle? At what point is he allowed to break down and admit he can’t do it? When does that happen? When is someone, ANYONE, going to be there for him? It’s time. It’s time for Robert to get his support.

I for one am here for it. I hope others will join.