when i watch other people my age, i see that they have this kind of effortless way about them that i donāt think iāll ever have. the way they talk to each other and the way they go out and pursue what interests them without having to think twice about it. the way they know how to conduct themselves, the way it all comes so naturally to them, like breathing or swimming or riding a bike. itās like they all have something ingrained in them that i just donāt have, and itās so embarrassing and itās fucking killing me. i wish i knew how to be okay.





















