Okay revisiting this blog one last time- not because I’m returning to self ship but as like a one year later retrospective cause ?????
I NEVER would’ve started picking out nicer clothing or cuter outfits or felt like I had the energy for that sort of stuff if I hadn’t self shipped with raph. I was just scrolling back through this for old times sake and I saw that one post talking abt how it gave me the confidence and it’s just been so long that I guess I forgot where it started and that’s just.. insane to me. Fiction affected reality. Fiction is a part of reality- made by reality. It influences us as much as we influence it. And. It made me really really happy…. It made me actively rejoice in my body in ways I never have before. Since then I’ve gotten even more excited to actually try different styles
I used to hate- despise looking for new clothes and y e a h it still sucks because women’s clothing brands have done nothing but detriment to all feminine self image but shit man!!!! I’m wearing a really cute dress!!! For fun!!! And twirling!!! I haven’t twirled in a cute dress seriously since I was a kindergartner!!! Not to mention self shipping is also what led me to introspect more about the possibility of my autism which after researching much much more- I don’t really think it’s much so a possibility, rather fact. What a lovely fact! What a lovely me!

















