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Helluuu!!! I hope y’all can handle a little weird Anxious ball of ADHD- 20

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sapnap (romantic and platonic) 

SENSORY OVERLOAD

Let me help you

Play the drums you coward

dream (platonic)

Quackity (romantic and platonic)

because i think im falling in love with you

Karl (platonic)

Minx (romantic and platonic)

Niki (romantic and platonic)

Happy birthday!

Puffy (romantic and platonic)

dont apologize to me

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Can I request an irl Puffy fanfic where we (the reader) are a volleyball player more specifically a libero who carelessly throws their body around bruising and hurting themselves to win the game. This causes Puffy to get worried when they fracture their hand and get semi depressed. Which leads her to comfort us. Just an angsty-fluff moment.

I just want to say in advance that I have never played volleyball on a bigger level than one time in middle school, so I hope y’all bear with me on any mistakes I make!

Also this turned out way more angsty than I expected- heheh

Dont apologize to me

It was the middle of the last game of this season and you were nervous as hell. The score was 21- 20 and your team was in the lead. But the game wasn’t finished yet and they still had a chance to win.

You quickly glanced up to your girlfriend who was sitting on the sides cheering you on. You tried your best to remember the fact that no matter what everyone would still be happy even if you lost. But knowing you, you was a bit too competitive to just let a losing game go.

The ball was thrown towards your team and you did your best to hit the ball back. But something happened and you landed incorrectly when you hit the floor with your head first. You did your very best not to scream in pain but as your hand were pressed in a way that you didn’t even think was possibly possible you couldn’t help but yell out in pain and hissing though your teeth.

“Y/n?” you did your best to open your eyes to see who it was but after the hit your head had made, it was hard sine the room was so bright. A hand went behind your head and a couple of arms were holding you as you started drifting off from the huge amount of pain that was caused to your body.

“Its fine sweetie! Its gonna be ok!”

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You groaned as you felt your head ache. Attempting to turn around you felt a sharp pain zapping though your hand when you tried to use it for support.

“Y/n I swear to god. You can’t use your hand!” right… its been two days since your stupid accident happened and you had gotten pretty fucking sad news. You need to take a break from training. Probebly a year to let your wrist and head heal properly. Those words crushed you. You had been doing this for so long, and it was one of the few things that made your life worth living. Volleyball was what you loved.

“im sorry…” you apologized, stuffing your head against the pillow. A warm, soft hand traveled up and down your back as you felt the bed shift slightly.

“its not me you have to apologize to. Apologize to your hand, you idiot” you could even hear the smile in her voice. How could she find this funny in any sort of way? Your life was pretty much ruined. Pain twisted within you with all of that’s happened. It wasn’t long until tears stained the pillow your head was still buried in. soft sobs escaped your throat and you heard your girlfriend start to ask if you were alright.

“does it seem like im fine!?” you finally snapped attempting once again to raise yourself and this time you succeeded. Staring right at Puffy, your heart sank. This girl had been there for you since day one and you just got angry with her for caring about you. Regretting what you just said you reached to grab her hand to apologize. Quicker than not, she snacked it away.

“no.” it was a cold and harsh word that made even more tears form in your eyes.

“I have tried to support you the best I can during these years, seeing you in pain and trying my best to tell myself you will be fine!” she had stood up and backed further and further away from the bed you were sitting on.

“I made sure to take care of you and love you every time you ended up hurt or something happened. But seeing you do this stupid stunt and then yelling at me for being worried about you!!” deep breathes escaped her moth as she moved further and further away from you. By this point tears were streaming down your face. You fucked up.

“Puffy im so-“

“don’t bother…”

“Please… I didn’t mean to-“

“I just… I just need some time..” and with that, she was gone.

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Its been almost 2 weeks and you were starting to get worried she would never come back. Sure, you could manage to do things around the house even with your fucked up arm, but the thing that was missing was her. Everything felt empty… you missed how she would hug you and how it would youst be you two. How she made you feel safe, how she made you smile even when you just wanted to fade away into nothingness.

“Hey, Y/n?” you tried to imagen her voice telling you it would be fine, but every time it came out so wrong.

“you here? HOLY SHIT Y/N THE KITCHEN IS SMOKING!!!!” It didn’t reach you until you were pushed out of the was onto the floor by a shorter person. You looked up to be faced with Puffy whop did her best to get rid of the smoke from the kitchen as she ran the faucet.

Once again tears were building up in your eyes as you were looking up at her from the floor. She was here…

“come on you dummy, lets get you back to bed, baby.” She kissed your head as you were laying down with her next to you.

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NIKI REQUESTTT PLZZ!!!! niki and the reader are cuddeling and being cute on the readers birthday :)

lowkey had a hard time writing this... heheh 

anyways here ya go fam!

Happy birthday!

“happy birthday!” you were abruptly awoken by someone shaking you and trying to turn you over. You opened your eyes only to be faced by your girlfriend Niki.

“hmmm…” you made a noise before closing your eyes again and using the blanket as an escape to block off the light that was rudely shining through the window.

“Y/nnnnnnnnnn, wakey wakey my love” her soft voice echoes throughout your room with her finally jumping onto the bed where she had previously been this morning.

“Nikiii, please get back in bed. Mmm too tired to think right now and I just want cuddles…” you try to argue with your girlfriend that now had sat down next to you.

You couldn’t seem to understand why you were so tired today. You nor your girlfriend had been streaming the night before and both went to bed at a reasonable time. You assumed it was just one of those days.

“what if I make you pancakes or something? Will you get up then?” It was a hard argument seeing as you felt yourself being slightly hungry after forgetting to eat properly the night before.

“I’ll get up in a bit if first you let me have some cuddles. Its my birthday after all!” after that Niki was quick to get under the cover to hug you as you lay on your back with her holding you. You felt a hand going to your head, slowly combing through the strands while massaging your scalp.  

No matter if you wanted to admit it or not, the both of you slept for another 3 hours just by the comfortableness of each other’s presence.

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band au where tdt is a band and reader is their female lead but ppl think reader is dating dream who is the other lead but she is actually dating sapnap who is the drummer

Play the drums you coward

Your boyfriend was pissed. Sure, everyone knew that Sapnap could have quite a temper but today was a different kind of rage. He was jealous. You knew it was nothing to worry about since he got pretty jealous on a regular basis. Especially since your band had gotten popular people had started shipping you with the lead male vocal, Dream. (though you were pretty sure Dream had a thing for George.)

The four of you had known each other since you were 13 and always had a love for music. You had participated in so many talent shows in your school and gone through so many phases together. When you finally turned 17 you al decided to go through with starting a band. Now the four of you had been doing this for four years.

“I’m just saying they should know not to ship real life people if they aren’t comfortable with it!” the dark-haired male argues as the two of you were cleaning up after this day’s rehearsal. Snacks were laying all over the place and water bottles that had been emptied lay scattered all over the dark carpet floor.

“but we are comfortable with it. Its just that they don’t know that we are dating Sap” you tried to get him to understand what the problem in this situation was without getting too frustrated.

“I guess…” that was the end of the conversation. You barley exchanged words after that. It wasn’t until it was time to leave the studio that you said goodbye with a kiss.

You wondered how Dream was taking this all. It wouldn’t have been a huge problem if it wasn’t for the two factors that you saw Dream as your brother and that Sapnap got really insecure easily. You kept walking trying to think of what to do and eventually you decided to call Dream for help. ——————————————————————————It was a weak until your next big gig and you started getting nervous. The band had decided that the opening number should be the song you and Sapnap wrote together. A song he signs in.

The four of you all have practiced every day for the past 3 weeks to try to get everything perfect. It almost felt like you never left the studio at all. Especially you and Sapnap. He had been glued to the drum set trying his best to memorize the lyrics while being able to keep the beat with the drums.

“babe you need to take a break…” you had finally given up on trying to listen to him play the drums.

“give me five more minutes.” He argued picking up another pair of drumsticks to see if they worked better.

“Sap, you haven’t eaten nor had any water for a very long time… lets go out and eat” you moved closer to him and finally stood hugging him from behind.

He looked up at you and leaned his forehead against yours in an attempt to turn sightly. The both of you smiled at each other and he took your hand in his squeezing it. Before long, a light flashed across the room and a muttered curse was hears soon after.

“sorry hehehhh… didn’t mean to interrupt you two. Just thought it could be a fun photo to break the news” the blond in the room was quick to defend himself.

“Dream get out.” You giggled when Sapnap snapped at Dream. He quickly ran out and left you alone with your boyfriend laughing at Dream’s actions.

“so…” you started, trying to get back to the subject.

“food?” Sapnap nodded and smiled at you before giving your lips a kiss leaving a permanent smile on your lips.

A week passed and it was at last time for you to stand up on stage and sing your heart out with your boyfriend and friends by your side.

A pling erupted from your phone making you attention shift towards it. A tag? Why is your phone even on at this time?

No matter what your brain said, you went to look closer at the notification you saw it was from Dream. He had posted the picture of you and Sapnap on Instagram and tagged the two of you. You had to admit, it was really cute.

“Y/n, stage in 10” a voice calls out making your head shift towards the sound. It was George holding a guitar that looked to be Dream’s brad new one.

“on my way!” you grabbed your water bottle and downed the last few sips to cry to calm your nerves.

“hey Y/n?” you looked up at Sapnap who smiled shyly at you. You held out your hands making them a grabby motion for him to get closer to you. You grabbed his hands and pulled him in for a kiss on the lips. The two of you smiled at each other but you were soon interrupted by Dream who yelled at the both of you to cut it off and get up on the stage.

No matter how many people may think you and Dream should be together, you would always have Sapnap that loved you and knew you were his.

[msstarchh]

Helloouuuu people!!!

So i have gotten quite a lot of request recently and I’m trying my best to work on them all to get them done! It will be a little longer than I expected since I have a lot of finals this week :/ I hope y’all understand!

[msstarchh]

hiiaaa! could i possibly request a reader who selfharms but Sapnap helps them go through it when he finds the scars?sorry if this makes you uncomfortable! much love <3

this is actually something i am very comfortable writing! and i really hope you enjoy this seeing as it is pretty short!

Let me help you SAPNAP X READER CW: BLOOD, SELF HARM, ANXIETY

You promised yourself you wouldn’t do this. You said you were done! Yet here you were, washing more blood down the drain as you tried to clean the wounds the blade left on your arms.

The day was going so fine until your anxiety had started again. This time way worse than normally. At first you tried to just drink water to see if it would cool down, but it did no help. You were even contemplating whether you should try and talk to your therapist you previously went to but you were terrified. You couldn’t talk to your boyfriend since he was out with friends. And that how you decided to finally give in to the urge of making yourself feel pain.

“babe?” you cursed under your breath as you heard your boyfriend knock on the door to the bathroom. It had been almost two years since you had been in this position last. A time where you didn’t need to worry about a boyfriend walking in on you.

You freaked out, running around the bathroom looking for the bandages you had saved in a cupboard just in case something would happen. You knew that if you ever were to harm yourself again you could pretend you just hurt your arm. Sapnap knew you were clumsy and it wouldn’t be too worried about you randomly having a bandage seeing as it was only last month you had a bandage tightly wrapped around your leg.

“Y/n…?” shit! You completely forgot that you hadn’t responded to him. You attempted to wrap your arm but messed up and it came undone.

“Y/n you in there?” the door opened and you were quick to hid your arm behind you, trying to pull down your sleeve.

“babe, are you…” Sapnap interrupted himself as he looked to the sink. You knew what was coming. The yells, the disappointment… and the possibility of him leaving. The anxiety you were feeling before only got worse if that was even possible.

“Sap… I’m sorry… I don’t.. I” tears started forming fast in your eyes but your boyfriend just threw himself around you and held you tightly.

“baby.. please don’t apologize” his hands made their way up to your hair and he gently massaged your scalp as you cried into his shoulder. You wanted to disappear more than ever right now. No matter how many times he told you everything was fine, it really felt like it wasn’t.

The two of you stood in silence for what felt like hours with him trying to sooth you to get you tears to stop. He quietly moved away from you to look you in the eyes, cupping your cheek with his hand.

“how about we clean up this mess and then go cuddle?” the smile on his lips was so contagious. You nodded with a faint smile on your face as you bent down to pick up the bandage that was laying on the floor. The sink started running and soon your arm was gently grasped my Sapnaps hand. He took the bandage out of your other hand and attempted to wrap the bandage not too tight around the wounds that had now dried on your arm. He gave your arm a kiss over the bandage and smiled up at you with glistering eyes.

“Next time you feel like this, please tell me. I want to help.” You nodded slowly after he finished the sentence. Sapnap pulled you both up from the floor where you had been sitting and dragged you to your shared bed.

The two of you stayed in bed the rest of the day just talking about random things that came to mind. You shared a few kisses and eventually you both fell asleep to the rhythm or your heartbeats.

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Because I think I’m falling in love with you

Quackity x GN!reader

CW: mention of drinking & mention of drugs

It had been weeks since Quackity last spoke to you and you were getting scared. You were so used to always have your friend to talk to and spend time. To hug him and to just be close to him... It was hard to realize you had fallen for your friend but had done your best to keep it from him.

You clenched your binder and walked to your classroom. Last day of school and then you would be free for the rest of the summer. You and Quackity had planned so many things this Christmas of things you would do. But now you were wondering if that was still the plans for this years holiday.

“Y/n?” A voice caught you and dragged you back to the present. You looked to you right and saw Niki trying to grab your attention.

“Sorry Niki... I wasn’t really paying attention...” you admitted staring down and trying to make your way to the room without bumping into other people.

“I think George and Dream were going to throw a party tonight, wanna go with me?” You saw her look up at you and you smiled nodding

“Oh thank god! Minx said she was planning on getting completely wasted so I would love to have some sober company!” You smiled once again and promised her you would be there.

You finally reached your class and immediately saw Quackity smiling and talking with Sapnap. Feeling like Q had chosen Sapnap over you, you decided to continue chatting with Niki and the two of you were soon joined by Minx, Puffy and George.

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After what felt like ages of useless math, the day soon turned to night and it was time for George and Dreams party. It was a lie to say you were excited. Sure you were contemplating on getting a drink or two but after a long argument with logic you decided against it.

Realizing it was getting closer to 7 you finally got enough energy to leave to get to the big house Dream lived in. Turns out you were one of the first people to arrive. Dream and George had offered for you to chill on a couch but since you were early you felt obligated to help. The three of you set up drinks and snacks and before long people started to arrive slowly getting drunker and drunker.

“Y/n!” The music was loud and you tried your hardest to get out of Niki’s grasp to go sit on a couch and just rest.

“Y/n!!!” A loud yell grabbed your attention and you felt a hand grab your shoulder.

“Quackity? I didn’t know you would be here!” You didn’t know whether to smile at the fact that he was speaking to you or if you should be angry at him for not talking to you.

“I need to speak to you...” before you knew it you were pulled away to a room that seemed to be empty. You started getting nervous. What if he wanted to tell you to leave him alone? What if he finally understood how clingy you were?

“Why have you been avoiding me...?” You ask almost shaking for the anxiety growing inside of you.

“Because.... because I think that I’m falling in love with you, okey! That’s why I’ve been avoiding you Y/n!” He spat out quickly.

“You are drunk Q” you protested against him. You didn’t think he was telling you the truth. Either he was lying or he was way too drunk or high.

“No, Y/n. I think I’m in love with you for real. I’ve been trying to avoid you to see if it was just my brain was overthinking and making it up. Turns out it wasn’t. So I’ve been trying to distance myself from you to not make it obvious. But I can’t try to avoid it all...” you were in shock. Tears started to form in both of your eyes and soon enough you were sobbing into his shoulder.

“I hope I didn’t fuck everything up...” you continued to cry as you pulled away to look up at him. And then you finally went for it. You kissed him.

“Does that answer it?”

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can i get uhhhhhh can i get a quakcity, niki, or sapnap (romantic if you dont mind) comforting the reader (the/them or he/him hhhghff) after they have a sensory overload or just an overall draining day that would be amazing thanks bhhghhghhgfff (also can i be the 🍒 anon :0 ive never been an emoji anon on a blog before :00)

Hi! Ofc can you be 🍒anon! Also since you mentioned sensory overload I’m assuming like autism/ND sensory overload? I hope that was ok!

Anyways I hope you enjoy!

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You say on your bed crying your eyes out. This day was seriously shit. You had just wanted to be able to be in school like normal but with all the people yelling and the extremely unsettling light, you broke down. This wasn’t really something that happened way too often seeing as you usually had at least you best friend or your boyfriend there. This time it was way different. It was your first time getting to alone since your boyfriend had a free day and decided to work and your friend was home sick.

When you were nearing the last day of school, you lost it. It wasn’t the fact that people were mean, they just didn’t know how to handle a fragile soul like yours.

A classmate of yours who was friends with your boyfriend had noticed you not feeling well and immediately called Sapnap. And as soon as he had gotten the info that his partner was most likely having a sensory overload, he had dropped everything to pick you up.

When he first arrived to the college he saw you leaning against a wall with hand over your eyes to try to cover from the brightness of the spring sun. Much had reassured you that everything was going to be fine and everything that you are going through isn’t a problem.

When you eventually got home Sapnap was very quick to turn off all annoying lights and take you to your bed.

That’s how you ended up here. You felt exhausted. But the positive thing was that Sapnap was there for you and he kept holding you.

“I’m sorry...” you quietly apologized for making him pick you up in the middle of his plans. You knew this was something he was willing to do since he kept reminding you, but every time it happened you still felt like the worst person on earth for making him drop what he was doing.

“Hey, it’s ok love. You don’t need to apologize! You can’t control this and we both know you are sensitive to these things” Your boyfriend keeps attempting to making you calmer to not use more of your energy, leaving you even more exhausted the rest of the week.

“How about we take tomorrow off? We can order take out and just cuddle and watch movies or series?” The idea made you smile through your silent tears. Spending a day alone with him and then a weekend on top of that sounded like the best idea he’s had.

“That sounds nice....” you started feeling sleep trying to take you over as you spoke. All the comfort Sapnap was giving you made you sleepy and ready to let go into the land of dreams.

Nick felt you get quieter as you closed your eyes and your tears stopped. You had fallen asleep to Sapnap holding you.

“Sweet dreams my love”