Things to never do again:
Take a twilight themed photo shoot. Absolutely vile.
But actually:
You. Nobody should. And you should abstain. You don’t deserve it. You could have changed immediately. You said you wanted to be better, but two years later you did the same thing again to someone else, someone just like me. The only semblance of maturity is that you broke up before you cheated, except you weren’t even going to cheat. You were just still too upset about me not wanting anything to do with you.
If Mo cut you off when you were forcing her to interact with one of your yearly bullshit “closure” lectures would you have broken up with me?
I fucking wish she did. You deserve misery. No one else deserves having to put up with you. Even twirler girl, even if it’s “better,” I know she’s still compromising herself for you. I know it’s too much but bearable now. I know if it “works out” it’s a lifetime of stress for both of you. I don’t wish that upon her. Please fuck it up again and stay away from women.
Give men a try first to feel what actual sexual and romantic love feels like. You’ve tried before but you gave up too easily. You’re too scared of actual feelings and vulnerability but I don’t think you understand that’s what you’re supposed to feel when you’re actually with someone you like? I think you were SO CLOSE to figuring it out but you restarted the cycle instead. Why are you so scared? You love women and aren’t afraid to take their vulnerability for your pleasure. Why can’t you dare to make it equal? Your roommate was right there. It didn’t have to be him but I feel like that should’ve been a clear sign to revisit those feelings.
Instead you hurt people.
I want you to hurt because you’re hurting people.
You’re hurting people.
Do you like to hurt people?

















