It's been really hard lately. Of facing the world which would never stop spinning no matter how hard you fall, how hard you suffer, no matter how hard you try to keep your life alive. But it would be also a big nothing for the whole world to know about your dilemma. Well the frankly truth is everyone has been or is being in the same situation. And world wont give a fuck, even if you're Bill Gates tho'. Sometimes in those situation, the mind gets insane. There's something popping out like from nowhere and whispering that it might be better if you quit, or just simply give your life away for drugs or some drinks, or even worst. Well i've tried that "even worst" like so many times but, well....long story that i'm still here typing this message. If you currently feel like whole world is just like a black hole, everything seems shit and you just really sure among these billion people in the world you positively wont find the one who will understand you, And you think you are in hell already, Then read this carefuly, no no, i'm not gonna motivate you or say something to cheer you up,you might think its a total bullshit anyway (well probably 80%). I just wanna say, if only, you feel empty, and have no reason to stand,it's because you keep it by yourself, You need to share.. As simple as that. You need to admit you have something to solve, it will ease you to move forward, to focus on the solution,rather than wasting your time in misery. And by share it, you're already admitting. But you wont believe anyone will you? I know. No one understand your feelings best, than you yourself. Then share it to the whole world, use your social media, use your blog, use the internet, say it by words and status! Or maybe you can use your canvas if you're not that good of describing and post it to instagram, or just...express your feeling by simply yell on the backyard!! Just let everyone reads and knows, leave them whether they care or not, they will understand or otherwise will mock you or underestimate you, just let them, you just need a place to share your burden anyway, you're not trying to find the one who will understand you. NO! DONT HOLD IT ANYMORE !! It is just the same as poop, you need to push it out!! When everything's out, You'll just amazingly feel better Well please note, i'm saying this not because i'm good at controling my mood,or full of positive spirit and just smile wherever i go and profesionaly overcast my probs, no, in fact, i am currently feeling down, I feel like empty, and i just..feel heavy. For many reasons. As i'm growing old,i naturally get so many responsibilities, of my family, my own life. I work hard for my thesis, for my bachelor degree, for my tummy, for my mom and dad. I push myself for a good score, in order to get a good job. I think about the job in the future, i think about school fees or for workfield and so on. But i also a student of forest conservation, so many issues, which also become my responsibility. Mom's get sick and she had to endure the hard life,also dad,so i have to be a good girl and control my mood,of being always there when my mom needs someone to talk,to share the burden,but how can i endure it even more? I am on my limit already. Well here i am, describing.. Expressing.. Saying, Whether no one's listening. It's ok. But i wont keep it and let it swallows my soul,this is my way to keep alive,to keep sane. To keep sane
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