I hope one day I’m gonna find my light

Ani | multifandom | Anigel on AO3 ----------- we support science here ----------- Age: I had dial-up internet as a kid. I flail over my friends' creativity and fret over my own. Attack on Titan | IWATE | Star Wars | Umineko | Dragon Age | other random media I love. (Both banner pieces are by the lovely @/lilithkb!)

[mxanigel]

new year, new pinned post~

Hi! I'm Ani, a queer and perpetually tired noctilucent cloud here to build community and friendships around creativity. I often reblog friends' writing/art WIPs as well as finished fics/pieces while flailing in the tags because creating can be a lonely endeavor, so I boost when my bandwidth allows. 💜 I currently don't use a tag list, instead including folx I've recently seen active or those who may not be around as often but I still want to encourage their creativity.

This blog isn't always a positive space because real life is hard, but I strive to uplift others more often than not. My philosophy is people first: I adore seeing folx love on their favorite characters/ships/stories; I'm not here to take down real people for their tastes in fictional ones. Also, as noted earlier I do have limited bandwidth~ sometimes I hang out here for a while, other times I can't be around much, so if I don't interact right away, other things likely claimed my attention. (Also also, I may not reblog everything I'm tagged in for reasons like being fandom blind / having limited bandwidth for meaningful interaction / life just getting in the way, but I do love being tagged when you share your stuff.)

Other socials: BlueSky | Pillowfort

I enjoy a range of media, particularly indie games, so you'll see content—no sideblogs here, just one main!—related to a bunch of fandoms like:

I Was a Teenage Exocolonist (IWATE)

Attack on Titan | Shingeki no Kyojin

Scarlet Hollow

Star Wars (somehow, it returned)

Dragon Age

Suzerain

Umineko no Naku Koro Ni

plus other games/anime/manga and the occasional TV show. My fandom-related creativity is generally in the form of fanfic about queer characters in my favorite universes [AO3] where my blorbos (like my beloved Hange Zoë~) can find a place they belong no matter what baggage they carry. On AO3, I have an ongoing IWATE short fic series for Sol/Dys as well as longfics featuring the relationships depicted below in art by the amazing @/lilithkb~

OT3: what we have is each other (a.k.a. The Beloveds; Levi/OC Shion/Hange, Attack on Titan)

OTP: what's unnamed still connects us (Anders/Neri Surana, Dragon Age, though the "Nericule" grows complicated)

[politijohn]

Source

Happy Pride Month!

[reasonsforhope]

Holy shit!!!!!!! HUNGARY DID IT!!!!

-via the Los Angeles Blade, June 1, 2026

[inkskinned]

Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

I’m not worth the cost of a watch.

[inkskinned]

i wrote this while i was working at orlando’s walt disney world parks.

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.

we are both worth more than the watch, anyway.

[mxanigel]

highlighting my queer fanfic for Pride Month

if you feel inclined to share your own fics upon seeing this post, let this be your encouragement to do so~

I chose the fics still nearest and dearest to my heart no matter how old/recent they are. If you end up reading one, I'd love to hear about it!

Under the Stars

I Was a Teenage Exocolonist -- series of (mostly) one shots featuring a nonbinary Sol x Dys (+ eventually Sym) -- most entries are rated T -- all titles are inspired by the "old Earth music" Dys loves

Autumn Ice

Dragon Age -- series of multi-chapter fics centered around an agender Surana trying to find a sense of self while navigating the many burdens of being a Warden and running Amaranthine -- they fall for Awakening Anders, so they have to face his disappearance atop everything else -- most entries are rated M or E; yes there's smut but also lots and lots of feelings and angst and growth -- the sole one-shot entry focuses on f!Cousland/Anora, "I still think about you sometimes" (rated T)

So in Love with Two

Stardew Valley -- one-shot in which Farmer Ed pops a very important question to his two beloveds, Shane and Penny -- rated T -- it's polyamory not a love triangle

Like A Waterfall

Mass Effect though this Shepard has two key relationships, I'll shout out the fics that focus on her with Ashley Williams during ME1 -- "thunder and sunshine" is about their first kiss after Feros (rated T) -- "catch me, I'm falling" is them navigating their relationship in the fallout from Virmire (rated M)

Cut to the Feeling

Attack on Titan (Shingeki no Kyojin) -- an ongoing longfic that explores eventual canon divergence to answer the question "what if they lived?" -- focuses on an aspec female OC as she falls for Levi and then Hange (who also fall for each other) -- Hange uses they/them pronouns throughout -- rated E as a precaution, but all NSFW chapters are labeled

[marroniere]

New Fic: "Why You Should Get a Cat," Junghert, M, cat adoption romcom

Written for @nightingalesighs! Thank you for the prompt

Summary:

An unexpected discovery Lonni’s daughter makes leaves him with a problem on his hands. Heert volunteers to help.

After all, he’s hardly the first person in the galaxy’s history to have done questionable things because of a man.

Excerpt:

“We need Partagaz.”

“We are absolutely not calling Major Partagaz because of a cat,” Lonni says slowly, like he wasn’t the one who dragged Heert into all this.

“Oh, please,” Heert scoffs. “Partagaz has more affection for his bloody tooka than for any human being. And it’s probably older than me. He must know someone.”

Briefly, Heert considers the possible implications of such a call for his career should Major Partagaz prove to be in a bad mood. He also considers the idea of calling Joydali, then making Joydali call Partagaz’s attendant so that he learns about the situation through a third party—

No. If you are to ask the Major for kriffing cat advice, you might as well face it like a man. 

read on ao3

[mxanigel]

feeling some way about agency and friction and how much easier it is to passively consume without engaging or wrestling or challenging whatever it is we're encountering

[identitty-dickruption]

just saw someone (a trans + autistic person) say "most trans people are autistic" so just wanted to clear up real quickly. that is not true. you cannot separate the autism/trans overlap from the reality that many trans people have to have psych evals in order to access healthcare, which makes us more likely to be identified as autistic. when I was trying to access HRT, my doctor gave me questionnaires for autism and ADHD. many of my friends who are on HRT had to get evaluated for gender dysphoric disorder, and picked up other diagnoses in the process. this is altogether unsurprising to me, and it should be unsurprising to anyone who has been through those layers of psychiatric screening

I'm not saying there's a 0% chance of a real overlap existing between the two groups. it is an overlap that would make some sense. but 1) it's certainly not "most" trans people, and 2) you cannot trust any data about a group that is more likely to be exposed to pathologising processes than the majority

[lavenderpanic]

all of my writing is actually just thinly-veiled fantasy about being seen at your worst and still being loved

[pillowspace]

Sometimes having an OC is like "this character is an outlet for my insecurity and trauma" and sometimes it's like "this character is an outlet for my love of vampires :)". Sometimes it's both

[pillowspace]

Sometimes you think it's "this character is an outlet for my love and nothing more :)" and then you look it over later like "shit. product of the deepest depths of my soul again"

[lgbtculture]

I want my gay rights now! - Marsha P. Johnson (NYC Pride Parade, 1973)

[reginasbread]

Relationships should always be a game of mix and match, not a puzzle that you have to perfectly snap into, or a Jenga tower that will collapse as soon as you try to wiggle one block out of place. Customizability is the best part, yet most people try so hard to make their relationship stick to its premade form, a one-size-fits-all shape. Many people don’t take advantage of their own freedom.

Angela Chen, Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex

[gloriousclio]

Luke Skywalker put away his targeting computer to destroy the Death Star so I don't need AI to help me write an email.

[titsay]

[star-plasma]

LGBT+ PRIDE (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ*

[mxanigel]

highlighting my queer fanfic for Pride Month

if you feel inclined to share your own fics upon seeing this post, let this be your encouragement to do so~

I chose the fics still nearest and dearest to my heart no matter how old/recent they are. If you end up reading one, I'd love to hear about it!

Under the Stars

I Was a Teenage Exocolonist -- series of (mostly) one shots featuring a nonbinary Sol x Dys (+ eventually Sym) -- most entries are rated T -- all titles are inspired by the "old Earth music" Dys loves

Autumn Ice

Dragon Age -- series of multi-chapter fics centered around an agender Surana trying to find a sense of self while navigating the many burdens of being a Warden and running Amaranthine -- they fall for Awakening Anders, so they have to face his disappearance atop everything else -- most entries are rated M or E; yes there's smut but also lots and lots of feelings and angst and growth -- the sole one-shot entry focuses on f!Cousland/Anora, "I still think about you sometimes" (rated T)

So in Love with Two

Stardew Valley -- one-shot in which Farmer Ed pops a very important question to his two beloveds, Shane and Penny -- rated T -- it's polyamory not a love triangle

Like A Waterfall

Mass Effect though this Shepard has two key relationships, I'll shout out the fics that focus on her with Ashley Williams during ME1 -- "thunder and sunshine" is about their first kiss after Feros (rated T) -- "catch me, I'm falling" is them navigating their relationship in the fallout from Virmire (rated M)

Cut to the Feeling

Attack on Titan (Shingeki no Kyojin) -- an ongoing longfic that explores eventual canon divergence to answer the question "what if they lived?" -- focuses on an aspec female OC as she falls for Levi and then Hange (who also fall for each other) -- Hange uses they/them pronouns throughout -- rated E as a precaution, but all NSFW chapters are labeled

[avadaniels]

"Scrooge learns the true meaning of Bisexual Awareness Week" Make Some Noise Season 3 Episode 11

[felrija]

I don't draw/post these anymore but felt appropriate to post since it's Pride month so here are Serb sapphics and traditional clothing ! 🤍

[felrija]

The rest of Balkans !