moonrise

They told me once, "there's a place where love conquers all". A city with the streets full of milk and honey - I haven't found it yet, but I'm still searching. All I know is a hopeless place that flows with the blood of my kin. Perhaps hopeless isn't a place Nothing but a state of mind. They told me once, "don't trust the moon, she's always changing". The shores bend and break for her and she begs to be loved. But nothing here is as it seems.

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firewclking

            WHEN JINGFU’S hand takes the toy from him, his hand fell to grasp at the sheets as moans shakes from his lips. knees spreading out more, back arching to meet each of jingfu’s thrust. “jingfu…” he whined, complaining about the slow pace, legs shaking in anticipation for more. his breathing labored and mind hazy, he almost didn’t hear what the other was saying as he was being tugged upwards.

            LICKING HIS lips when his eyes darts down to see the other languidly stroking himself. a soft whine, as much as he was EAGER to get jingfu inside him…he was eager to suck him off, zhangjing loved listening to jingfu’s voice ( perks of having a vocalist as a sex friend ). readjusting his position so he could suck him off, kissing the tip gently before laving the tip with his tongue.

          THE SECOND lips touch the tip, there’s a sharp inhale from jingfu as his frame tenses. it’s been a while, a little longer than usual and now that they finally had each other where they wanted each other, it felt all too amazing. zhangjing’s mouth was always warm and he always knew exactly what to do to get jingfu going. it was something jingfu loved and hated all at the same time.            “MMH...” THE noise leaves him more like a growl as a hand tangles itself in the other’s hair. he tugs on it roughly as his head tips back, eyes closing as nothing but pure instinct begins to take over his body and mind. “open wide, baby, i know you can take all of me,” he groans, soon pushing zhangjing’s head towards him in a slow, bobbing movement to start off.

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firewclking

            A TILT of his head, “there’s only one opinion i care about here,” max responded, “and that’s yours. i don’t care what other people think.” he shrugged, as long as he and zhiyi knew the truth about each other…that’s all that mattered to max. people can call him names, sneer at him and slander his image but he didn’t care much for it…of course, there were times it made him furious ( which, he immediately shows through violence ) but most of the time, he found that people tended to be more UNNERVED if he just remained silent and stared on or gave them a smile.

            “I’M OKAY,” he mumbled, his head was slightly pounding but he’s been keeping his mind away from the pain for the past few minutes. ignoring the gesture, people should start learning to NOT piss max off when he’s holding a bat…actually, even when he isn’t holding one, they should fear him. max was a force to be reckoned with ; he may be TINY but he held quite a bit of anger within that small figure.

            “I THINK i just need water,” he muttered, when was the last time he drank something ?? ate something, even. too long ago…maybe breakfast ?? it’s already way past noon…

          OF COURSE zhiyi knew just how close they were, he’s never felt such a strong bond with anyone other than max before. after all, the two had been through, well, everything together. he didn’t even remember his parents be there for him that much but then again, growing up in an orphanage he didn’t exactly remember much of his parents. but it’s always been max by his side. max was all zhiyi knew at this point.            “MY OPINION isn’t anything special,” he scoffs lightly, shaking his head and trying to hide the small smile that plays on his lips. “besides. you know i’ve always thought highly of you and i always will think highly of you.” it wasn’t a lie, either. sure, when they were younger zhiyi was always protective of him but that was because he liked max so much. nothing has really changed there if he were honest.             “WELL, I have water back in my room. and i can make you some cup noodles or something. i don’t think i’ve seen you eat all day and you’ve been with me for the majority of the day...” he trails off, glancing down at the other.

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firewclking

            A HUM, “i guess so…” he mused, picking up the cup to bring it to his lips, “that’d be both funny to see and upsetting to carter…” he commented, taking a careful sip. “but he should know that asking seven about it would only mean that seven is going to SHOW him not explain it,” max chuckles softly.

            HE SPEAKS as if he knows but he ( himself ) has no idea what it would be like to be kissed in such a manner before. kissed as if it was the last kiss he’ll ever receive, to feel all the love and desperation within it. he wasn’t about to admit it to zhiyi, it was stupid and what was the other going to do about it ??

          “TRUE. I haven’t been around or known carter for that long but even i can tell how curious he truly is. i doubt he even thinks about any kind of consequences before he tries finding something out or learning something new.” zhiyi could easily see carter was still a child, one who was still very innocent ( despite what life had thrown at him ). he was still someone who held onto the wonders of the world and while it was kind of refreshing, it could easily be just as dangerous.            LOOKING OVER at the other, his eyes study the male’s features. fortunately, even with their time apart, zhiyi still knew how to read max and he could tell that the other was deep in thought. “what’s on your mind, max?”

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firewclking

            SHIVERING WHEN zachary dips down to whisper in his ear, the other’s voice reverberating in his ear. swallowing thickly, he hated how easily zachary knew how to make him weak…anything to do with his ears or his wrists, mingjie would just MELT. the way the elder’s hands trailed up his sides didn’t make it any better, “i really don’t think there’s gonna be a next time,” he murmured, peering up at zachary through his lashes.

             A WHINE leaves his lips, he wanted to move a hand to rub at his ears…to stop it from getting so red but he knew that would only add to zachary’s JOY that he’s been affected so much. “you tease,” he accused, shaking his head…he knew that zachary knew what he wanted but he was at the male’s mercy at this point.

            HE MAY be taller by a bit but he felt intimidated by zachary often that he naturally shrinks and makes himself smaller. moving a hand from zachary’s forearms to curl around the back of the other’s neck to bring him down into a kiss…a bold move.

          IF ANYTHING, the bold kiss threw him off more than the games mingjie tried to play before. a small noise leaves the back of his throat as he sinks into the lip lock, leaning into it as much as he possibly could. however, after a moment he pulls back to talk.           “HMM..” ZACHARY’S voice stays low, almost like a deep whisper as if he was afraid someone else might hear them. or maybe it was to be sure mingjie was actually listening to him. “i’m sure there will be plenty of times. you just have to try harder,” he speaks. his hands trail along the other’s sides, lingering on the male’s hips, pulling their hips together where they stood.            “SO ANSWER me this... did you go to daehyun asking how to catch me off guard or did he just bring this conversation up out of the blue?” zach’s head tilts to the side, giving mingjie one last look before he dips his head down once more to let his lips find another spot on the male’s neck.

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firewclking

            LAUGHING AT sul’s words, “no, i can’t,” minzhe nodded, “because then i’ll get arrested for child neglect,” he joked, moving to open the door for sul to leave first. reaching over to shut the lights before they left, he walked alongside the younger towards the stairwell ( may as well get in some sort of exercise ).

            “WELL, YOU know me…i eat anything so i’m not picky,” minzhe shrugged his shoulders when sul asked him about he wanted to eat. minzhe wasn’t a picky eater, as long as he was FED, he was happy. while sul kept mentioning that it was his treat, there was no way the elder was going to let the younger PAY for their meal…that would just be irresponsible of him !!

          HE DOESN’T let it get to him -- or he tries not to let it get to him. he was coming to the terms that he was still a child and there was nothing wrong with it. he’d probably always be a child to minzhe and there was nothing he could do that would change that. of course, he’d still try his best to at least be the happy-go-lucky child that minzhe knew him as to not raise any questions.            “WE CAN’T have you getting arrested because of me, i’m sure everyone would hate me,” he laughs, trying to play off his own emotions and distract his mind from the thoughts swirling around. “i want some kind of meat!” he exclaims. after all, he finally had the money to afford it after he practically stole from his parents. 

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firewclking

            “ANYONE CAN get fat,” he responded, “i’m sure i did gain quite a bit with the lack of moving i’ve been doing,” zhangjing said, he was seated most of his day…from working on his school assignments to editing his videos. the most EXERCISE he gets was when he’s holding a ‘show’ ( which reminds him…he needs to do one tonight and pray he had enough viewers ). “well !! my subscribers know that i’d eat anything for them,” he shot the male a lopsided grin.

             NODDING HIS head, “yeah, caleb,” he affirmed, “haven’t met him before but tony said most of them are pretty friendly and all.” he recalled from the last time he filmed with tony ( he should do another video with him again ). “you’re too kind. who knew i’d have a celeb helping me out on my lowly food youtube,” he joked.

          “WELL IT doesn’t look like you’ve gained any weight so until you show me exactly where you’ve gained it, i’m going to call you a liar,” jingfu responds with a laugh. as they walk to the restaurant, jingfu goes over his schedules in his mind, trying to make sure he wouldn’t be late for practice. the last thing he needed was for grayson to get upset and the other members to ask him where he was. not that he actually had anything to hide, he wasn’t doing anything illegal, he was just a private person.           JINGFU SHRUGS his shoulders before stuffing his hands into his pockets. “i guess you got lucky when we became friends,” he teases. “and besides, i like you. of course i’m going to help you out whenever you need it or whenever you ask.”

[mxxnrixe]

firewclking

             “AMBITION, I like that,” he joked, waving his hand dismissively as he finished up with his instructions before looking around once again to see what he needed to do and what he could do as his final task before he left for the night. he hated leaving his coworkers unprepared, either for the next few hours or the next day. 

            DISAPPEARING INTO the back to grab his jacket and bag ( punching out as he did so ) before coming back out and setting it on the counter before he set to make a few drinks. “ready to go ??” he asked, picking up a drink in each hand as he approached kiseop. holding one out, “tea…to help you unwind. i don’t need you hopped up on caffeine before you sleep.” he joked.

         KISEOP WAITS for the other to clock out, moving to stand by the door with his backpack as he waits. he was excited that he was getting a chance to hang out with his best friend considering how their usual work schedules differed. he was always busy with training which left him little to no time to actually relax by himself let alone go out and see his friends.          SMILING BRIGHTLY as he sees his friend, soon bowing his head lightly as he reaches for the drink. “but i’m fun when i’m hopped up on caffeine,” he retorts with a small laugh. “and you like me either way,” kiseop added as he takes a small sip of the tea. if he were honest, he wasn’t a coffee or a tea drinker --- unless it was made by his friend.

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firewclking

            BROWS RAISING at bangyu’s words as the younger fell into a coughing fit, “really ??” he drawled, “so allergies then ??” he asked, knowing that he ( himself ) also had coughing fits from time to time during the spring season…pollen tended to be REALLY irritating at times.

             MOVING TO grab water from his bag, he pushed it towards bangyu before picking up his phone, “same…let’s take a break and eat something, yeah ??” luxun asked, pulling up a food ordering application, “what do you want to eat ??” luxun asked, scrolling through the various restaurants listed on the application.

         BANGYU WAS assuming it was allergies more than anything else. out of his entire family, he tended to have the weaker immune system which made the changing seasons hell for him. he was sure if he didn’t get some rest that it would turn into the flu or something as it normally did every year. “thank you,” he says in response to the water that was given to him.          POPPING THE cap open, he takes a few small sips, the cool water feeling incredible against his burning throat. “i’ll eat anything. i’ll pay, okay?” he says. he always had to at least offer, after all, now that luxun has seen what kind of place he lived in --- it was clear he had the money to spend. “but some kind of noodle sounds good.”

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firewclking

            HIS BREATHING shallow and harsh as he tried to bear with the pain, he had no idea how to respond to zhiyi’s words. he couldn’t apologize again – he was just told not to – and he wasn’t sure how to RESPOND to the other’s statement.

            “THANK YOU,” he mumbled, the other had taken the time to take care of his wounds and talk to him…to take care of him with kindness and caution, unlike the scientists back at the lab. they were brusque and rough, just to get it over with but zhiyi made sure to CHECK if max was alright, “if there’s anything…i can do in return, let me know.” he said, hating to owe favors ( but he was sure zhiyi didn’t think of this as a favor ).

          LUCKILY THE wound didn’t take too long for him to patch up, though he did take his time just to be sure and have a chance to really talk to the other. he stays silent, his expression not changing as he takes in what max was saying. did he really need anything in return?? not necessarily, zhiyi was never that kind of guy to ask something in return... however---           “JUST PROMISE me that i can stay by your side. that you won’t leave me because i won’t leave you. we’re in this together now,” he responds. it was asking a lot, he knew it was. if he were max, if rolls were reversed, he wasn’t sure he’d be able to just promise something so suddenly. though it didn’t hurt to try.

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firewclking

            LOOKING TO the elder with teary eyes when muai joined him at the fridge, a soft whimper leaving his lips, “but there’s no ice cream,” he repeated his dilemma to the male. when he was sick and doped up on cold medication, yuming was hardly the cheeky teenager he usually was…he was overly sensitive, tired and bratty.

            SEEING THE male hold out his hand to him, he just stared, “you promise ??” he asked, taking the other’s warm hand and letting muai pull him up from the ground. “i want cookies and cream ice cream,” he requested, holding the elder’s hand.

          MUAI CHUCKLES as he pulls the smaller male onto his feet. his arms reach out to wrap around yuming’s frame, pulling him close before he placed a small kiss to the male’s forehead. partly because he wanted to and the other was to check his temperature to make sure the fever he had a few days prior wasn’t returning. once satisfied, he pulls away and rubs his hand against the boy’s back as he leads him towards the front door.           TAKING YUMING out when he was still sick probably wasn’t the best idea but he knew he’d throw a fit if he didn’t get to go. most of the time yuming always got his way and muai was used to giving in by now. “i promise. we can head to the store right now.” once at the door, muai kneels down and grabs yuming’s shoes. “here, lemme help you. hold onto my shoulders so you don’t get dizzy.” 

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firewclking

            GLAZED EYES continued to stare into space, still staring at the fridge even as he hears someone trudge down the hall towards him. painted lips fixed in a permanent frown as he hears his name being called by a familiar voice….a familiar voice but the tone was ODD. he didn’t like it, he didn’t like the tone that was attached to the voice – why ?? what was it that he hated so much about it ??

            CONCERN FROM his bully…the man that made his life a living nightmare for years. his hands curled into fists, faux concern….he didn’t want XIAOCHENG’S pity. he didn’t want ANYONE’S pity. his lips turned from a frown into a hard scowl, “you’re not my mother,” he sneered, words slightly slurred, “why the fuck do you care when i get home ??” he asked, head turning to look at the standing male.

            WHILE HIS tone showed anger towards his roommate, his eyes flickered between frustration and upset. he wanted to continue to HATE on xiaocheng and blame him for everything that went wrong…but xiaocheng apologized and repented, groveled even. he begged and begged for yunting’s forgiveness while facing yunting’s abrasive words and harsh retorts, he continued to repent….he can’t continue to be angry at someone who regretted everything he did.

           NO, HE wasn’t angry at xiaocheng, he was angry with himself. he was angry that he couldn’t continue to blame xiaocheng for everything going wrong in his life and that meant he had to blame himself. “i hate you,” he said, “i hate you so much, i hate it when you care about me. i hate it when you take the step to make sure i’m okay,” he said, eyes downcast. gritting his teeth, his breathing hard and shallow, “i hate that you apologized and that you repented. i hate that i can’t be angry with you anymore.”

          XIAO STIFFENS his sigh as he listens to the other. he was drunk, that was clear just by looking at him let alone the words he speaks. he looks pissed off and of course, xiao knew he was the reason and so when yunting gave him attitude for caring, it was only expected. he tries not to show that the other’s words get to him as much as they did. after all, he was used to being pushed aside by yunting no matter how much he showed he cared or changed.           “YUNTING, YOU’VE been drinking... you should just go lay down...” he trails off, voice still rather quiet. the last thing he really wants to do is make him more upset than he already seemed to be and xiao had a habit of just opening his mouth and making things worse --- either with what he said or how he said it, he never failed to get on yunting’s nerves it seemed. but then yunting continued to talk and it catches the male off guard.            DID HE actually mean what he was saying?? would it be foolish of xiao to actually believe the words coming from his roommates mouth?? after all, yunting was intoxicated... but then again, sometimes that lead people to finally open up and say what was truly on their mind. “then...don’t be angry with me,” he responds with a small shrug. soon, he moves around the kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it up halfway with water before he kneels down in front of yunting and holds the glass out.            “I KNOW it’s easier said than done, considering everything but....” he trails off, soon shaking his head and averting his eyes. “i should just shut up, shouldn’t i?”

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firewclking

            SHAKING HIS head, “no, no !!” he tried to reassure the elder, “this is perfect !!” he said, reaching out to grab huinu’s arm, “it was quite the surprise, i’ll admit !!” he nodded, “i love it !!” weizhe said, moving to get up on his knees so he could reach over to touch huinu.

            LAUGHING AT huinu’s logic, “you’re not wrong, the direct approach is often much better, i’ll admit,” weizhe said, “better than just keeping people on edge, sometimes that’s not good for the heart,” he continued, referring to earlier when the idol said there was something he wanted to ask.

            “GUESS WE’RE just surprising each other all night then,” he joked, offering a lopsided smile.

          HUINU SMILES softly as he looks down, suddenly feeling nervous and excited about the situation that just took place. he didn’t have too much experience with relationships, always having been one to focus more on his work than those around him that liked him but... weizhe was different for some reason. something just drew huinu to him.           HIS HAND moves to rest against the younger’s that was on his arm, soon pulling it off to lace their fingers together. “well, now i have to start thinking of where i want to take you on our first date,” he responds with a small laugh. “i’ve got to say, there was a small part of me that thought you might decline my offer.” if he were honest, he felt like he was taking risk with admitting his feelings to someone but he guessed he never would have known how the other felt if he hadn’t said something so suddenly. 

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firewclking

            THE SUDDEN noise alerts aldus of where johnny was hiding, “AHA !!” he cheers, turning around towards where he was. aldus had been walking in the opposite direction the entire time, thinking that with johnny’s huge stature, he could only hide in a relatively large and open space but to his surprise, the other had managed in a small closet.

            “THERE YOU are !!” he said, “come back !! it’s only fair i get my revenge !!” aldus whined, chasing after the taller again with his paintbrush outstretched to try and catch johnny with the paint.

         JOHNNY DIDN’T exactly have anywhere to go once he reached the living room or kitchen. sure, he could run back and forth and try to always keep some sort of obstacle  between him and aldus at all times but for how long could he keep that up? he was already tired and even when they were play fighting, johnny hated running from aldus.          HE GROANS loudly, knowing it was only fair that aldus got him back for what he did. finally slowing to s stop once he hit the living room, he turns on his heel and drops to his knees so aldus wouldn’t have to reach up too far. “go easy on me!” he laughs.

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firewclking

            GLANCING AT the plate that xiaocheng set down beside him, it was odd to be TAKEN CARE of. his parents had already given up on him ; yunting was sure that he was alone in the world and that the world was continuing to give him hell for his choices by making him live with his bully. he knew xiaocheng was doing his best in amending the past but yunting was a stubborn man…stubborn and stupid…upset with the world.

            “I NEED you to edit my essay,” he sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. he didn’t want to ask that of the other, not when what he was writing was related to his personal emotions and the book he read ( one that really hit home ). “it’s due tonight so i need it done quickly but thoroughly,” he stated.

          XIAO TAKES a few bites of his food as he listens, taking note of just how frustrated the other seemed to be in asking for his help. he can’t be upset over how yunting was acting, the bitterness and the tension in his voice and demeanor. after all, xiao was part of the reason ( if not the entire reason ) that yunting was like this. still, just asking for help, even if it was clear he didn’t want to be asking, was a start and it was a victory in xiao’s book.           HE BLINKS a few times, soon setting his plate down on the floor next to him before holding his hands out for the other’s laptop. “sure, i don’t mind helping,” he responds. “though i’m sure if there's anything wrong it’s just going to be small grammor errors and nothing major.” yunting was good at what he did, no matter what it was and writing was no different. 

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firewclking

            NODDING EAGERLY, he presses a kiss to the model’s cheek before sauntering off towards the dining room. he really needed to get something into his stomach or he was sure he was gonna DIE ( what a drama queen ). taking a seat as he waited for the elder to join him, “has your day been alright ??” he asked, maybe he’s already asked this…dabin couldn’t really recall…his mind was slightly tired and slow at this point of night. “are you tired from all the chores ??” he asked, maybe he could lessen it slightly by doing some tonight.

          TENO LISTENS to the other speak from the kitchen, turning off the stove and gathering the food he could before bringing it to the table and setting it in front of the younger. “the chores weren’t too bad. we do have a habit of not doing laundry until it’s really needed so there was a lot today but that’s about it,” he explains, soon turning back to go to the kitchen. “what do you want to drink, darling?” he calls back, opening the fridge and pulling out a small bottle of juice for himself.

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firewclking

            “AM NOT sick…” yuming denied, shaking his head…which was a bad idea now that his vision spun and it made his head hurt even more. “i’m just tired from not sleeping much,” he lied, why bother lying if muai had already seen through his initial one ?? he couldn’t help but to keep being cheeky and stupid with muai…

            “I AM not a child !!” he declared, frowning when he saw the hand. struggling to stand from the couch, he blinked his eyes a few times as the world spun for a second. “i wanna sleep instead.” he muttered, sleep always made everything better.

          STUBBORN. THAT’S all yuming was, just being stubborn. well, if muai wasn’t stubborn himself or used to dealing with those who were on a daily basis, he’d already be giving up. the elder sighs heavily, dropping his hand to his side as he watches the younger fight to stay on his own two feet. “carry you it is,” he mutters.           IN ONE swift movement, he’s lifting the smaller male into his arms, careful not to make him dizzier than he already knew he was. “i never said you were a child. you’d know that if you actually listened to me,” he speaks, soon walking towards his large bathroom.

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firewclking

            “MAYBE…IT’LL do him some good to find someone to be attached to,” roi said, knowing that seven needed an anchor in the world…someone to help him feel in the world. caspian had an upbeat attitude and easily kept up with seven, trying to keep things light but the bond between him and seven was different than the one he had with carter…roi could only pray that helped seven’s humanity.

            “YOU’RE RIGHT,” he agreed, “let’s go go go !!” he ushered nine towards the direction they needed to go in order to acquire food. “i wouldn’t want my little brother to starve, that’d be TERRIBLE of me as a caretaker !!” he declared, “remember, eat as much as you want and whatever you want,” roi said, “promise you’ll do that,” he demanded, moving so he was walking alongside the younger instead of behind him.

             WHATEVER TASK he was doing can wait until he was done talking to nine…the other kids will understand. maybe he can even convince nine to join their merry little band of misfits at their ( rather nice ) hideout.

          NINE WALKS along side of roi, finding it almost hard to keep up with him. he was rather small in both frame and height which meant that one of roi’s normal steps was a very large step for himself. of course, he didn’t mind it, he was used to having to speed walk and after all, he was normally by himself so he didn’t have to keep up with someone.            “MM, I promise, i promise, hyung,” nine speaks, voice soft as he swings his arms next to him. truth be told, he was excited to be with one of the other experiments now, even if it was just for the time of their meal. it felt good to be near someone who...knew of the same struggles he had gone through that lead him to being on his own, always in hiding.            EYEBROWS RAISE and his head snaps to look up in roi’s direction. “so you’ve already claimed me, huh? you’re my caretaker now?” he asks, the hint of a small laugh slipping from his lips.