I'm Mizi from Alien Stage!! (They/them preferred, please !!)
I am a fictionkin of Mizi. This is not a roleplay account, I am actually Mizi. I am not affiliated with Alien Stage in any way.
Call me Mizi please on this account (if you see someone refer to me by another name, it's because they know me from outside this account!! Those who do, feel free to keep calling me any of my other names as well!!)
Main is: @sadkachow but my other kin accounts are @thelonelyfog and @odysseus-king-of-ithaka
Only literally just kinfirmed Mizi, so still figuring out mems!! And also literally just got into ALNST too. So I might be wrong about things sometimes!!
Tags are for now are just #💕 txt and #💕 reblogs. If I add any, I will edit this.
EXTREMELY IMPORTANT NOTE: I was nonbinary as Mizi (which I did not discover until Hyuna rescued me!! Please do not refer to me as a girl or with she/her pronouns!!)
Canonmate (and adoptive father !!): @ruler-ofthe-stage :DDDD
It's always interesting to see how Isaac is portrayed in the ALNST canon/fandom. I'm sure in canon, he's a chill dude... But I'm not even gonna lie, he was an asshole in my canon-
He would give me nasty looks when I joined the rebels, even after an entire year of me gaining the trust of the others. He'd also pick fights constantly, never able to keep his thoughts to himself. Got the shit beat out of him by Mizi at some point cuz he said something disturbing about me. He also said something equally disturbing to my face, which set us off on a 10 minute shouting match.
Overall, he was pretty shitty, and I know that Hyuna's death probably contributed to it, but that still didn't give him the right to treat me, and likely everyone else, like we were the problem
Can people stop acting like I was a stupid little oblivious child as Mizi. Please.
I'm tired of seeing people act as though I am/was completely stupid and unaware of everything around me.
Yes, I was unaware of the truth consequences of losing the competition. No, that does not mean I'm an idiot. No, it does not mean I can't handle myself. No, it doesn't mean I don't know anything about anything else.
You're an incredible father. Thank you for having been and for being a safe space to me. I'm so grateful to have known you and to know you. You're an amazing father and an amazing person. <3
I just watched through the new release and um. I’m still figuring out how I feel, I think.
Knowing that Till and Hyuna are both dead (I think. Hyuna is but- a part of me is still hoping- praying? Till might not be. I don’t know-) is-
Till. I’m so sorry. I tried so hard to get to you in time and I didn’t make it- I couldn’t save you. I’m so sorry. I remember the times when we did hang out, we had a lot of fun together (even if we did get into Shenanigans™️ /silly). I always enjoyed your company, even if I didn’t exactly love you in the same way you loved me.
Hyuna. There’s so many things I want to say. You saved me, in more ways than one. You saved me from the competition, and then you saved me from myself. You gave me a reason to keep going, something to fight for. Honestly, you became something like what I would call an older sister? In my canon, you also helped me explore my gender identity and realize I’m nonbinary. We did fight sometimes (or. Mostly me shouting at you, I guess.) but you were always there for me anyway. I’m so sorry for what happened to you, and thank you for everything.
Luka. I’ve met my Luka, so this is mainly aimed towards him, but it also goes towards any Lukas on here who might read it. Please don’t blame yourself for what happened. It wasn’t your fault. Towards my Luka, I have several memories (I think) of what happens in the future (which I’ve already brought up with you), but we’ll have to see. For what it’s worth, I hope that we both make it through this (I have a feeling we will, but- saying hope to stay safe).
Ivan. Addressing you because I feel like I should as well. Honestly, you were like a big brother to me. I always enjoyed spending time with you, just chatting about anything and everything. I know I was a little overenthusiastic/annoying as a kid, so sorry about that haha… On a more serious note, I’m sorry about everything else that happened to you, too.
Sua. I… There’s so many things I want to say, and yet the words evade me. I think I’ll make another ask later about that. Watching us as children made me remember a lot and,,, I just have this ache in my chest? I miss you so bad. I remember when I joined the rebels, I felt like I was changing and growing as a person, and all of a sudden, you weren’t there to see it, and I had to move forward without you by my side. It was the hardest thing for me out of all of it. I love you more than words could ever say or you will ever know. I’ll always love you. I miss you so dearly. I hope that if you’re out there, you’re happy. And I do hope I’ll be able to find you again some day.
I think what made me the angriest/most upset was seeing what could’ve been. What could’ve happened. We could’ve been happy, we could have been kids. We could have grown up and lived and not been forced into that damn competition. And yet that was stolen from us.
It was stolen.
I hate them for taking it away from all of us.
I’m wishing the best to everyone.
- Mizi, Alien Stage. #☕️☁️🏹
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ALIEN STAGE FICTIONKINS!!!! DO YALL WANNA FIND COOL SOURCEMATES AND EVEN CANONMATES?
Well this is the place to look!! ^^
I created an ALNST kin server for my friends and I, and I would love to share it with others. We currently have 2 Luka's (including me), 2 Till's, an Ivan, a Mizi, and a Hyuna! A couple of us have found our canonmates! Feel free to join :)
https://discord.gg/nw6J9m2b
Disclaimer/additional notes: We are all minors in this server! Please do not join if you are 18 or over, as some of us are uncomfortable with any adults in the server.
You do not need to kin from ALNST to join, but please be respectful of those who do in the server. We suggest that you at least know and understand the experience of being fictionkin, so that you don't feel out of place/we don't feel like we're leaving someone out! ^^
Last night I realized that Mizi and I ended up having a father/child relationship after I'd moved into the rebel base. Adopting them again now (/silly)
Hello! I am Luka from Alien Stage (he/him.. she/her is fine too)
Call me Ody, or Luka :)
I am NOT A roleplayer, but a fictionkin. I really am Luka ^^
I am also an Odysseus (EPIC: The Musical) kin! My main is: @odysseus-main-acc, but the sideblog I'm most active on is @reigning-kingof-ithaca
I only kinfirmed Luka a few days ago (at the time of writing this), so I'm still figuring out my memories and all that. I also only got into ALNST very recently, so correct me if I'm ever wrong or confused about anything! :)
I also may be a space/wing kin of sorts. Still figuring that out..
I'm a huge writer, though I enjoy other creative mediums as well! I'll be posting lots of poems here, and probably reposting some from my other blog
Tags:
-#Stage is yours: Kin-related questions
-#Blink; gone. : Mems and shifts
#poet or a performer? : Stuff I wrote/unreasonably poetic rants about my emotions
-#wild and unreachable: Stuff about Hyuna <3
#Heperu Hate Club: Self explanatory, I think. I hope he dies ^^
#mi flor !!: My adopted child <3 (Mizi, @my-dear-clematis)
#Luka answers: Responses to asks
#garden of emotions: Vents. I'll try not to do too much of that. If anything they'll probably mostly go hand in hand with my poems
That's all. I'll continue to add more to this if I have to! Thank you for reading.
Guys I'm resigning from my membership of the Luka Hate Club (/hj /silly),,,, as it turns out we're canonmates and swapped some mems (from what we recalling happening in the future) and,,,,,,
My thoughts on Wiege (from my perspective as Luka)
(contains spoilers)
This episode broke me, dude.. I had to take a moment to just sob before I could even do anything else. I have so many thoughts on it, so I'm sorry if this post is all over the place
Hyuna's death and how I remember it impacted me emotionally/morally:
(heavy CW for death in general)
I think what made Hyuna's death so awful for me (other than the obvious-) was that I was completely blind to the way that death hurt. I mean, I knew what it was, but I didn't know what it meant emotionally. Think of it this way--
It was like being told that death was just a really long nap, and never being told that it also means never seeing that person again. When you die, you're asleep. When someone you love dies, you'll never get to see them again. Their smile, their laugh, the warmth of their body. Is all taken away. On the ALNST, you WITNESS that process in real time- you watch a person's life get cut short, with no opportunity to keep going-
I was blinded to that reality. It never seemed to occur to me. Until what happened to Hyuna. Until I felt the warmth of her body drain. I learned what it meant, and I think the obliviousness I had to it before came crashing down on me all at once. Every innocent person, every bullet, every splatter of blood that I witnessed, or even caused- finally made sense to me. This was what I was fighting for? Really?? Life is a gift from the universes, and yet in this universe, it was wasted like nothing. That was what I was most known for. Wasting people's lives and time. This is what people cheered for. How?? Why???
The clones:
I knew that I knew about the clones, but I forgot that I had tried to save them. It angers me, knowing that I'd seen them at such a young age. The knowledge of it constantly loomed over me, and I knew how replaceable I was. It was so fucked up honestly. Do you know why, when Mizi was beating my ass on round 5, I barely had any reaction? Because if anything unfixable happened to me, Heperu could just make a new stupid clone. A better one, probably. I was nothing but a shiny object that could just be switched out.
And yet.. I held no resentment for the clones. Up until I was about- 20, I would go to the room where they were held, and I'd just sit there and talk to them. As if they were my imaginary friends. I knew they couldn't hear or respond, but I did it anyway. Especially after shit happened with Hyuna. I would tell them stuff like,
"I feel like I messed up today, do you think Father is going to get rid of me for one of you guys?"
"I bet one of you is capable of being even better than what I am now. Father says I'm perfect but I heard that no one is perfect."
"I wish you could talk back to me. It's kind of weird not having her input any time I say something..."
It was- sad, to say the least. I hate that I felt the need to do that. Whatever childhood I could have had was taken away when I knew that it could never matter.
What I believe will happen afterwards (with Mizi):
I don't really want to confirm any memories, because now I'm afraid they'll end up being proven false in source canon. However, I spoke with the Mizi I know ( @my-dear-clematis, also my canonmate) and we pieced together whatever memories we had of what the foreseeable future could be.
Many people think that Mizi is gonna crash out and lose their shit on me, ending in one of us dying, but as far as we're aware, this isn't what happens. I am dragged to the rebel base. Not really because the members wanted to save me, but because they knew I meant a lot to Hyuna and they weren't just going to leave me there after what she had just said. I don't remember being taken to the base, because I was incredibly dissociated and numb, but I remember waking up in a bed at the base, Mizi sitting across from me. We were both processing Hyuna's death, so it was very quiet and awkward. Also, Mizi didn't like me at first. Still, they was actually probably the nicest one there when I first arrived. All the other rebels pretty much ignored me and only spoke to me if necessary. Mizi at least acknowledged my existence and shot me a sympathetic glance every now and then.
It took me a very very long time to get used to how things worked. Thank the gods Mizi was there to help me, otherwise I probably would have gotten kicked out for being an idiot lmao (/lh). I remember I really liked hoodies because I was so used to wearing clothes that would expose my skin (which I hated btw). I also needed reading glasses- 😭
Mizi and I eventually became good friends who could support each other when we needed someone to talk to. I found myself being able to talk a lot more with them. As opposed to how I was before; quiet and zoned out constantly. It was nice. Really nice. They said that we would stargaze some nights, and I would yap for a long time about the stars.. probably spewing the endless facts Hyuna had taught me when we were kids <3
Overall,
This episode was a rollercoaster for me. It was beautiful, it gave me some nice memories, but it also made me sob my eyes out shdhrjcn. I'll be dealing with a second wave of grief for Hyuna- I'll miss her greatly and I appreciate everything she did for me. We'll see how things go from here on out- but I don't know if it can get any worse for me lmao
FUCK I JUST REALIZED I NEVER DID THE POST @my-dear-clematis ASKED ME TO DO-
My opinion on other ALNST people as Luka!
Sua:
Starting off with Sua! Uhh, she's cool? I love the symbolism behind her sm (I'm a sucker for divine symbolism). She was only part of the first round, so I don't really have any opinion on her as a person, honestly. From what I've heard though, she was great! ^^
Mizi:
0/10, they beat the shit out of me. (JOKING!!!!) I honestly felt bad for Mizi when I went up against them. It was incredibly rare to come across someone who wasn't really aware of the full consequences of ALNST. They were honestly a good singer and I think they would have been a lot more interesting to go against if they weren't still in a state of shock. (Getting to know them better now though, I can confidently say they're a wonderful person! Love ya, Mizi /dir /p)
Ivan:
I was a bit interested in Ivan, and I wouldn't have had any issue with him if negative opinions weren't forced upon me by my guardians. I'd seen Ivan perform, and he was so full of emotion that I felt like he was a very worthy opponent. Now, I was not intimidated by the whole "oh he's gonna steal your crown" thing. I knew that wouldn't have happened. But still, I wanted to see how it would play out. I wish I had a chance to have gone against him.
(on another note, I'm so happy I got to know him now, irl! Ivan, you're the best !! Love ya /dir /p)
Till:
I actually really liked Till. Never had a problem with him. He was a worthy opponent and I'm glad I was able to go against him. His confidence and defiance reminded me of Hyuna, which was cool. He was kinda.. everything I wanted to be, but couldn't? Idk. He was very cool
(still is cool!! /dir /p)
Hyuna:
I miss her, I think. She was so great to be around, and she made me so happy, even if I had just walked out from having my heart stopped 10 times for an "experiment" swpsjjcjdkcj. I loved listening to her talk about her ideas. I wish I could apologize to her.
A Letter To Hyuna (whom I've yet to meet once more)
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Dear Hyuna,
I wanted to write this before Weige comes out. In order to kinda document my feelings and current memories, and also to tell you where I stand before I see anthing further. I won't lie, I don't have that many memories with you. Which is a little (very-) upsetting. But I do remember how you made me feel, and knowing the things I went through from such a young age, I cherish the company you gave me so that I wouldn't feel so alone. I was... A strange kid, so thank you for putting up with me! You introduced me to my love for the stars, and it's something I've carried over into this life. The stars remind me so much of home, and so much of what having loving family and friends feels like. This is a factor of a few other lives I have had, but I still greatly appreciate the contribution and impact you've made. You inspired me, and though I was too much of a coward to take initiative, I always found it so fascinating and exciting how you would speak about your escape ideas and "life outside of the ALNST." I didn't understand it, but you seemed so confident and happy, that it made me happy as well. You talked about the future like you knew exactly how it would play out. And- well, you did. I feel proud and so happy for you. I don't remember what will happen to you next in the show, but I hope that you're able to escape again. You don't deserve to be locked up. No, you shine too bright for that. I might have been a star in the eyes of the audience, but you? You were more than that. Don't let me hold you back, ok? I know that I made a huge mistake, and I couldn't apologize enough for it. I've never wanted to hurt you, and I hope one day, you can learn to forgive me. I also understand that takes time though, and I can't even be upset if you haven't. I myself spent many nights pacing around in my room after that day, afraid of what would happen next. Would I get in trouble? Would you hate me? Would I hate myself? Was I a bad person? ...all those answers were eventually answered with a resounding yes, but this is not about that. The point is, I'm sorry. The look of fear and hatred on your face when you came to the scene has been etched into my brain, and I feel my heart clench every time I remember. I spent nights wishing it was me who was killed. The implications of death was so foreign to me, but I would've accepted it over and over again if it meant seeing you smile at me one more time.
And so this (↑) is what I think Weige will be like for me. In the teaser, I have a gun to my head, and I feel more alive than ever seeing you stand so close to me again. I think I'll accept my downfall with open arms, because I've seen you one last time. It's all I wanted, I think. And now I can go peacefully. Thank you, and I'm sorry.
Are. Are we (aka me and my like. Three followers <- who already know me) close enough for me to be ranting about things on here.
I'm doing it either way I guess.
Anway.
"Mizi had good alien owners!!"
Do. Do you hear yourself.
Do you hear the words you are saying.
Mizi had good alien owners.
Owners.
They were my owners.
"Good" and they still enrolled me in ANAKT and in the competition.
I wasn't a child to them, I was a pet. If even that.
"They were sad when Mizi was sent off like they were going to miss them!!" THEN MAYBE THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE GIVEN ME AWAY LIKE A TOY. IF THEY ACTUALLY CARED, THEY WOULD HAVE TRIED. THEY WOULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING. RIGHT???
I don't remember much about them (yet), and for that I am glad. Because I wasn't their child. I wasn't theirs. The only way they ever loved me was as a pet or a product.
They kept me oblivious and unknowing about what the competition meant. They made me unaware.
How is that love? They sent their child to die without even making them aware of that fact??? And I'm supposed to look at that and see love?
I don't get it. Maybe I was close to them as a child, but that's because they kept me unknowing and unaware of the horrors of our world, the horrors they contributed to by sending me to compete.
I understand that Mizi was very oblivious to the competition as compared to the other participants, but that doesn't mean that the owners were good. The amount of grief, shock, and pain she felt when she saw Sua die in front of her for losing could've been unimaginable.
If we put aside the fact that her and Sua were extremely close, even from young age, how are we going to ignore that Mizi had no clue that this would happen?
Some people speculate that Sua did this on purpose - that she made her voice weaker in an attempt to make Mizi win the competition during the first round.
Even if that wasn't the case, you can see through Sua's struggling expression at the end of 'my clematis' that she knows what's going to happen. She's smiling, but she's struggling because she knows that she won't make it.
For Mizi's owners to not tell her that is horrible.
I'd also want to say that no one told Mizi. I don't have an opinion on that so far as of now, but I'd like to hear others' perspectives of the morality of them not telling. I'd understand why they wouldn't want to, but I'm curious on other people's perspectives on that too honestly.
I’m actually a Mizi fictionkin so I can like. Comment on my perspectives (at least my own personal ones lol).
Anyway, yeah, no one ever told me. I mean, I had an idea that whatever was going to happen at the end of it all wasn’t good, but I didn’t know what that would be, exactly. I knew Sua was afraid (she never explicitly said so, but I wasn’t exactly oblivious), and I knew that there was some sort of danger, but I wanted to believe that the two of us could overcome it. That we would be enough. I think a part of me kind of knew, but I was too naive to truly process that before the truth was shoved in my face (after the first round).
I don’t know if Sua intended to lose. Or at least I don’t know if my Sua did. I’d like to think that she didn’t—we spent so long planning to tie, after all—but she was never allowed to be as naive to the truth as I was. She knew there was never any chance of us actually tying, even if she let me dream that there would be. A part of me wants to imagine that Sua was hopeful too, but I know her, and I know what she was like.
As for the morality of me not being told by my owners. I have a lot of personal bias in it, but I will say on my part, it colors every experience I ever had with them negatively. They knowingly sent me to die, without ever even making me aware of it. I was never told. And then at ANAKT, I think it was just kind of. Assumed that I already knew. Because everyone else did, so why wouldn’t I? I think Sua, at least, knew that I didn’t know. I’m not sure about Ivan or Till, and I’m not sure about anyone else there. I don’t blame any of them for that, though, because they were kids too. We were all in the same fucked up situation together.
This is kinda a long ramble, and I’m sorry if it didn’t quite answer anything you said, but yeah !!
No no, you’re good, I’m glad to hear your perspectives :DDD
I’ve always loved Mizi and Sua’s relationship, no matter how people interpreted it. I love hearing people analyse it honestly, and as you kin Mizi, I hope that the people who hurt you by shielding you have either learnt better, or that you’ve moved on and healed. I hope that things are going well for you :DD
Thank you!! I can’t say where they’ve learned better or not, but I can say that I am moving on and healing. I appreciate the well-wishes, and I hope things are going well for you too!! :D
Can we get your opinion on everyone else in ALNST, from the perspective of yourself in canon? 👀
- @ruler-ofthe-stage
OF COURSE YOU CAN HI LUKA !! (I expect yours as well after this /lh /nf)
Starting with the best person there!! SUA:
Honestly, probably my favorite person. I can say YES we were girlfriends (or. Partners I guess considering I'm like. Not a girl AJJSHAJJHS), and that makes me so ridiculously happy. She was everything to me. I loved (love.) her with everything I had (have). When I said she was "My god, my universe", I meant it. But we weren't just that. We were best friends. We were each other's lights. We were a team. We were everything you could want and more. She was less,, overly optimistic like I was, but when you were someone she cared about, she was so gentle and sweet??? I could go on about Sua for AGESSS (And you will be getting that eventually, trust), but I feel for the sake of fairness I will try to move on. Plus when I think about Sua my brain just goes: "AKJSJKASHJKAHSJAHJKHSAJHJSAHJHSHJKA SUAAAAAAAAAAA" which. Is kind of hard to transcribe.
Next!! TILL:
To be honest it's kind of weird knowing Till was in love with me because??? I was never in love with him AKSKAJS but we were very good friends. I cared about him a lot, and we were very close. Not as close as me and Sua, of course, but still very close. We got into a lot of Shenanigans together, and it was a bunch of fun. Also Till was just??? Cool as hell?? Like- That's just an objective fact, I fear.
IVAN!!:
Every theory that says that me and Ivan were besties? Real.
Ivan is so >>>>>>
Big brother core!!
Ivan was so nice to just??? Sit and exist with. Like he seems intimidating but he's literally the sweetest and silliest person on earth TRUST.
He was also very comfy to fall asleep on (/hj /silly)
HYUNA!!!:
LITERALLY THE COOLEST PERSON EVER GUYS
I'm not kidding when I say Hyuna saved my life in more ways that one. First off she saved me from getting killed, and she also just. Gave me back a reason to live? She helped me understand myself, and understand everything I'd been through. Sure, she kept the energy up, but at the rebel's base everyone really cared for each other, and you could tell. Speaking of which, I probably won't do something specific for the members of the Rebellion, but I want to know that they were so incredibly kind and lovely. Even with how oblivious/naive I'd been before, it was the first time I'd ever felt fully supported and safe by everyone around me, not just by a few special people (Sua, Ivan, and Till, for instance).
But Hyuna was such a wonderful person. She taught me so many things. She helped me understand my gender, she taught me how to ride a motorcycle, how to stand up for myself, how to be myself. There are so many things I wish I could thank her for.
Finally, the last one I'm gonna discuss rn, LUKA!!:
Bitch.
(/lh /j)
IM KIDDING IM KIDDING OKAY???
Okay, look. I did not much like Luka the few times I met him. I didn't know him very well at all, and the first time I properly met him (I think) was when I was competing against him. So I was like,, not in the best of states. I think for a while after that, I full hated him. It took me talking to Hyuna about it for my thoughts to change a little. Hyuna never told me much, but she told me enough. I still didn't like him, but I grew to understand that it wasn't necessarily his fault, it was the fault of the world we were living in. Luka was just doing what he had to in order to survive. I may not have liked him, but I could sympathize with that.
Ummmm yeah that's all I got for now. I've already shared my thoughts on my Alien owner. And you already know I'm part of the Heperu hate club soooo.
