New Beginings

[tatttooss]

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Linzi

[foggysuggestion]

dont wanna be missing you just wanna be kissing you

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November 27 10:58pm She's moved on and is dating someone new and making it a case that I see even which is fucked up cause I purposely put my stuff on private cause she said she didn't want to be hurt with what I posted about other people and since I cared about her I did but she did the opposite it's like she wants to hurt me. It kinda just stings cause it's like the past is the past and it won't happen twice so like I'm going to miss certain things that we did together and what we did build I mean it was 3 years of my life even if it was 3 shitty years. I truly hope her happiness and like she didn't do the same for me and that's alright. No bad blood on my side I might be a little sour about it all but hey at least I know there's no turning back. Bee happy mate.

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November 6th 10:44pm I've been fooling myself into thinking I'm over you. I'm not, you still mean it all to me maybe I just know we can't be together but it still drowns me when I realize I'll probably never see you again. You asked me about my mom after I mentioned it after you being sassy about me not asking you about a minor surgery you had. I knew you were okay. I checked your Facebook. I haven't replied to you today because I can't risk you coming back and than leaving and having us argue. I hurt you but you hurt me too I'm ways you fail to realize or comprehend and I can't keep pretending and neither can you. I wish you weren't so far though, you could come over, kiss me, hug me and than we could hate each other for awhile and do it all again. I miss your voice too I'm tired I hope I'll be able to sleep tonight. I love and miss you. Hope you're thinking of me.

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November 6, 2016 12:24 am So the last few days my mom has been in the hospital. She almost died… it’s like such a scary thought I haven’t let myself fully process it. She’s stable now but is still in the red zone so I’m working my butt off so she doesn’t have to. Sleeping in hospital chairs sucks. I’m happy to finally be home. A real blessing that my mother is okay. My ex texted me and I’ve pushed M away not cause my ex but because I’m scared right now to care about anyone. My ex coming back and me not rushing to text her now has truly been great. I appreciate that she came back even if it was her being petty and making shit about her I got to tell her what had happened and she of course didn’t push me to talk so fuck her right? M got drunk the other night and she disappeared for a few hours while I waited up Idk if I can handle all that. I just I know my feelings but I also don’t I don’t know if I truly like her like or I’m trying to get over my ex with someone I have adored in the past like idk I mean ugh I do like her but my ex just it hurts my heart and I feel crappy for attempting to move on. My mom is home and near me I’m happy about that and she’ll be my focus from now on.

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November 2, 2016 6:36am She makes me feel bubbly. She makes me happy. She makes me smile uncontrollably. She's amazing. I love her.

[a-thousand-words]

Even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake, beats the hell out of not trying.

Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy, If Tomorrow Never Comes (via a-thousand-words)

[mdintraining]

If you get tired, learn to rest, not to quit.

Words getting me through dedicated study for Step 2 (via mdintraining)

[deseptions-deactivated20170708]

[soulwhispering]

take a deep breath and let it go

[thingsirealizedwhen]

Surround yourself with people that make you feel like you matter.

Things I realized when I wondered what I would tell my high school self, part II (via thingsirealizedwhen)

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October 31st 2016 11:07pm Happy Halloween Gaby congrats on getting threw your first day at work! You were stupid and wore the wrong shoes and now your feet are FUCKING killing you but, you did good. You really enjoy the energy around you and have a new positive group of friends and coworkers don't fuck it up. You got some candy which is more than you planned. You gotta study and you're tired but try to even though tomorrow you probably won't go in cause of your mom being sick hopefully they understand. Be patient and don't forget the doctors note! I'm so happy you had a great day and hopefully you keep having more of those. Push yourself to be the best and you will be. Side note: you didn't think about her as much today probably cause you were so busy, you only checked her social media twice and didn't see shit cause her stuff is on private and damn even though you checked, congrats baby girl congrats! You're doing so so good! Breakups are hard and it might feel like the end of the world now but man think about this other girl and how much you've liked even loved her in the past but it hasn't ever been the right time. Newsflash!! Now is the right time!!! Now is the right time to try and begin from scratch. Don't rush it though give yourself weeks or months to heal from your last relationship even though you've felt it be over in your last relationship for awhile it still hurts you and you don't want to ruin things with her. She's your best friend so really be sure you want her and will make it work. Again so proud of you keep grinding. P.S work shoes and COMFY AF sneakers bring the two do it! Don't be stupid like today lol.

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October 30th 12:17 am Well tomorrow I start my first day officially and I’m hoping it goes my way I have a ride there and I’m going to Uber home. Haven’t talked to her in a few days and it sucks but I’ve also allowed myself to start talking to someone I’ve always had a connection with nothing romantic really just really talking and planning for the future meeting up etc she makes me feel 100% less lonely. I didn’t really do much today or well yesterday literally was just in bed all day and I don’t mind I’m hoping I make a lot of work friends and start going out a lot more. I hope she’s doing okay I really wanted a future with her but I know it can’t be that way for soooooo many reasons I really want to make things right with her though I’m hoping this new job really helps me do that. Currently watching my little cousin and watching a movie. It’ll all be okay.

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October 28 9:35pm Training went really good today made some friends and made a sale wish I was getting paid for the 8+ hours I put in but I didn’t officially have the job till today so yay me I got the job. There’s so much room for growth and I think I can really be someone important in this company. I start Monday my fault I said I could but I forgot about Halloween but I wasn’t really planning on celebrating it so it’s all good. Missing the shit out of my ex wish I could share with her such a good day that I had but I don’t even think she’d reply and I’m really going to push myself to move forward from her. Going to call this girl later and tell her about my day and I can’t wait to really share about it. Hopefully this is the start of something good and positive for me.

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October 28 10:23am Have to get up and get ready for my training for my job. Fell asleep on the phone with Montana her voice is so soothing and she’s always thought mine was too. Very excited to see her in a few short months. I think I might actually really let myself be with her this time around. I think I’m going to keep sleeping with her on the phone and have her be there for me and grow closer to her again and see where that goes from now to when I see her. Anyways I gotta stop staying up late please please please don’t let my headache come back anytime soon 🙏🏼 going to be at work from 12:30pm to 8pm crazy I really really hope it’s worth it and that it all goes well. Wish me luck world.

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October 27, 2016 7:44pm So today I went to a job interview and a few short hours later I got a call back for it and I’m so excited I think finally something is going good in my life. Tomorrow I have a work day with them to see if I really fit them or not and I’m really excited about it. Wish me luck world.

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October 27th 2016 2:09 am Got into yet another fight with her but for some reason this time feels realer than all the others. God I’ve never loved someone more in my life, this is physically killing me emotionally I’m already destroyed. Think I’m going to lay down for a few minutes and then clean my room and start fresh tomorrow. I need new people in my life. I need friends and I need to regain myself and come to understand who I am and what I need. No relationships for me for awhile. She was never going to be the one for me I knew that, she knew that we are who we are and I think it’s just all come down to us both denying it so long that letting go just felt wrong. It’s also lonely very lonely but I’ve done that to myself. I hope, oh I hope I can really find happiness with myself and someone else eventually. Tonight my heart is broken and my tears will leave my eyes drenched. I need to force myself to really let this go it’s what I need. It’s what I need. I need to come first.