Pour Your Soul Out

collection of relatable self notes.

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i still look for your car at every red light.

things i realized when i admitted that i'm not over you, part VII

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I can tell you stopped loving me but I still don’t understand what makes you think that forcing yourself to stay would make it hurt any less.

​Things I realized when I stopped lying to myself, part XVII

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Being with you made me feel like I was losing my mind, but your absence made me lose myself.

​Things I realized when I lost you, part VII

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Bend me like an old paperback book. Bend me like you want to break me because the way you're looking at me tonight tells me I won’t get out of here unscathed.

​Things I realized when I was drunk, part XI

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This week I found myself reminiscing about my year: the losses and the gains, the pain and the joy I felt. I thought about the blessings I will treasure for the rest of my life and my biggest regrets. It was you that I was thinking about.

​Things I realized when the year was coming to an end, part V

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I can't remember who we were before we broke each other's hearts.

​Things I realized when I was friends with my ex, part XI

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It is during this time of the year when I miss you the most. I wonder who met you underneath the mistletoe. I wonder who was your guest for your family's annual Holiday gathering. I wonder who you kissed at midnight on New Years' Eve. I still wish it was me.

​Things I realized when the year was coming to an end, part IV

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Falling in love changes you, but so does falling out of love.

​Things I realized when I moved on with my life, part XV

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Life is too short to read books you’re not interested in, to do things you don’t like, and to spend time with people that don’t motivate you to be better.

​Things I realized when I was talking to my friend, part VIII (via thingsirealizedwhen)

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One day I woke up and decided that I wasn’t going to write to you, or about you, ever again. That day was today and this is my goodbye.

​Things I realized when I moved on with my life, part XVI

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I was never taught how to love in healthy ways.

​Things I realized when I thought about what I want to tell you if I ever see you again, part XIV

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2017 was the worst year of my life but when I stumbled, I picked myself up. I am proud of myself.

​Things I realized when the year was coming to an end, part III

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I know I missed your brother’s graduation, your mom’s birthday and your promotion party and I wish I could have been there but I guess I’ll have to settle for the Facebook pictures.

​Things I realized when I admitted that I'm not over you, part VI

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I can't just be your best friend anymore.

Things I realized when I saw you with her, part I

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How did you move on? It's so hard to do... Also love your blog, never stop posting 😚

I think the most important thing to realize about moving on is that it is not only different for everybody, but that it is very different for every relationship.

In my experience, allowing myself time to grieve my loss, journaling and talking to someone who will truly listen to what I’m saying (without giving me advice, telling me to get over it, or even trying to tell me it’ll get better) worked out okay. 

Detoxing myself from this person as much as I could until I was ready to face that life will go on without them in my life was the best thing I could possibly do, in every since case of having to re-learn how to do life without someone I loved dearly.

I hope that this makes sense.

Stay fab.

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Falling in love changes you, but so does falling out of love does.

​Things I realized when I moved on with my life, part XV

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Life is too short to read books you're not interested in, to do things you don't like, and to spend time with people that don't motivate you to be better.

​Things I realized when I was talking to my friend, part VIII